A Thousand Flowers
Chaptre 42. Hearts of Awareness 2
In his solitude, Shin Seo Hyun had yet to move out of his study. He was still playing with a fancy pen between the fingers of his hands.
He asked for a consultation with a psychiatrist a few hours ago.
“From the symptoms you show and also the results of a series of tests you have done, your hallucinations are by no means something to worry about.”
“You mean?” Shin Seo Hyun found it hard to digest the psychiatrist's explanation.
“What you are experiencing is not a disease.” The psychiatrist smiled looking at Shin Seo Hyun's innocent gaze.
“Try you remember again! Does your heart beat faster every time the hallucination appears?”
Shin Seo Hyun rewired her memory, recalling the moments when Izzah's shadow flashed in her eye patch.
The deg! The deg!
“Iya.” Shin Seo Hyun touched her left chest.
“Then you are positively in love. Congratulations, Lord Shin! May you be happy!”
Shin Seo Hyun simply gawked, making the psychiatrist laugh amusedly.
“If this is your first experience, then strive for your love Mr. Shin. Rest assured, your life will be more colorful and more passionate.”
The psychiatrist patted Shin Seo Hyun on the shoulder, as if giving strength and encouragement.
Shin Seo Hyun let out a long sigh. The psychiatrist's last words continued to echo in his head. In his heart he wondered.
“Is love really so beautiful?”
Given Izzah's stiff and cold attitude towards her, Shin Seo Hyun thought a thousand times to express the word love. He is not ready to lose face if the girl rejects his feelings.
If that happens, the love that is supposed to be beautiful will turn into a bomb that destroys the peace of heart and soul. Shin Seo Hyun did not want that to happen. All he wants, his love will grow colorful like a rainbow. For that, he does not need to be rash. He must find a way to conquer the heart of Izzah.
Thinking so, Shin Seo Hyun put down the pen she was holding and opened the laptop.
“Good. Let's see what Google says!”
His fingers began to dance agilely on the keyboard keys. Produces melodious-sounding tones in Shin Seo Hyun's ears. The tones seemed to inject a high fighting spirit on him to surf looking for various articles on how to conquer the heart of a cute girl.
Over an hour Shin Seo Hyun roamed from site to site.
“Ah, all almost the same. In conclusion, there is no need to rush and make him feel comfortable. Alright. I'll do it.” Shin Seo Hyun stuck a strong determination in her chest.
Seeing the clock on his wrist already showing almost five o'clock in the afternoon, Shin Seo Hyun rushed to turn off the laptop and tidied up the file on his desk. When you are done, turn off the lights, then go out to the elevator.
A group of doctors and nurses are getting ready for a shift change. One by one they leave Izzah who is still struggling with the file on the table.
From a distance, Shin Seo Hyun counted the doctors and nurses who had left the medical parlour. After being convinced that only Izzah was left, he approached. He smiled when he saw the girl holding the bag and grabbed her jacket.
“Away home, Doctor Izzah?” Shin Seo Hyun was making small talk.
Recalling the content of the article he read, Shin Seo Hyun displayed his sweet smile, especially for Izzah.
“Iya. Mr.”
Izzah bowed respectfully, arousing resentment in Shin Seo Hyun's heart.
"The girl is always formal" he grumbled at heart.
“Come!”
“But, Tuan–“
Shin Seo Hyun's gaze cut through Izzah's words. A second later, Shin Seo Hyun smiled again, raising Izzah's eyebrows. He felt strange about the change in attitude of the director who suddenly friendly and cheap smile.
“I'll take you somewhere. I'm sure you'll like it. You don't have any appointments with anyone else, do you?”
Today Izzah was completely dumbfounded by Shin Seo Hyun. He racked his brain looking for a way to reject the director's invitation without offending him. Izzah's silence was broken by Shin Seo Hyun's voice.
“Do not look for reasons to refuse! Is it in your eyes that I'm so scary?”
“Hah!”
Izzah was wrong. He felt like a thief caught off guard.
“B-not so, Sir. Me ...”
Izzah did not know how to explain it to Shin Seo Hyun. Since the incident at his boss' house, he has always tried to keep his distance from the director. There was a fear that he did not understand every time he was near the boss.
“Then, come on! I promise I will treat you well,” persuaded Shin Seo Hyun.
Seeing the radiance of sincerity in Shin Seo Hyun's eyes, Izzah did not have the heart to disappoint the boss who had helped him so much.
“Good.” Izzah.
“Yes!” Shin Seo Hyun's heart cheered happily. “One step ahead,” the screeches.
Shin Seo Hyun and Izzah walked together towards the parking lot.
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On the terrace of Izzah's house, Dimas stood waiting while staring at the silhouette of Seoul city lights and vehicles passing by on the streets. The cold started to pierce the pore. Dimas rubbed his palms, creating warmth.
The night is getting late. Izzah's door is still locked. Dimas walked back and forth. Uneasily.
“Where is the girl? It's eight o'clock still not home,” said Dimas worried as he glanced at his watch.
Several times he tried to call. However, only the melodious voice of the operator replied.
“Sorry, the number you are going to is inactive or out of range. Try a few more moments!”
Dimas's mind began to be haunted by fear. What if Izzah gets lost, gets kidnapped? He did not know the intricacies of Seoul City.
“Aah ... where are you Izzaaah?”
Dimas hit his palm. Nervous and anxious. He peeked down repeatedly. However, Izzah did not arrive. And when he can't reach Shin Seo Hyun, Dimas's worries grow.
At that time, it felt like he had wings so he could fly anywhere to look for Izzah. But what power, he was just an ordinary human being. It is impossible to fly and explore space like an eagle controls the air.
“Should I call the police?” That ridiculous idea just flashed through his head.
“Ah no. It's not twenty-four hours.”
Dimas tried to calm himself by lying on a large table on the porch of the house while counting the stars. However, all of that was unable to expel his anxiety. He sat for a while, and stood up. He peeked down and lay back like a madman.
“Yes God! Congratulations Izzah!” her prayer.
Dimas was getting worse. His heart rate is no longer at a normal point.
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