After the First Night
Chapter 5's

“Pulling more hope in humans, will lead you to a taste called disappointed”

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“A-aisyah, a-what are you already .... Ti-no virgin?” ask the man stammering. He looked at his wife with a gaze that implied a deep wound. Placing eyes many times, hoping this was just a dream.

The woman below him was merely stunned, with both hands covering her face. Without even answering, Arzan already knew the answer. He immediately let go of the unification violently, grabbed his scattered clothes and put them on.

While the weeping lady was pulling the blanket to cover her innocent body.

“Why weren't you honest from the start?”

“Why are you hiding everything, Aisyah?” shrieked the man with a look of disappointment. The woman grew increasingly intrigued, realizing there was no more affectionate calling like before.

Arzan straightened his hair back, walking back and forth to master his emotions that seemed to flare.

“You managed to deceive me with your innocent pretentious attitude and kindness. And I was easily fooled! I thought you were a different woman, but it turns out ... You're the same as the girls out there!” arzan said with emotion. Even the veins on his neck were clearly imprinted. He approached the bed, clutching his wife's shoulders firmly.

“How many men have enjoyed your body, huh? Answer me Aisyah!” Arzan shook his wife's body. Which makes the weak body becomes more vibrating.

His wife's crying increasingly broke, Arzan who was acting very sweet some time ago changed with a rude man who did not hesitate to snap at him.

“Ma-sorry mas ..”

“Why didn't you say from the beginning if you're not a virgin?” he removed his hand from Aisha's shoulder. Back up and pull her hair in frustration.

“You are really very disappointing!”

“Do you still want to accept me if I tell you the truth?” lirih Aisyah was barely audible. Arzan was silent and closed his eyes. His hands were still on his head, occasionally squeezing his hair.

“Don't you say, you'll accept my past? The bad you will receive. Isn't that so mas?”

“Then you are disappointed because I am no longer a virgin? Does virginity measure your love, mas?” looked at the man standing before him with a pus. While the man was just silent with a frown filling his mind.

“I did have a very bad past, but I tried to change. It has changed for the better than I was yesterday. I don't want to be honest with you, but don't you always prevent me from telling you everything because you quickly said you would accept whatever my past was? I'm not a good woman. But I want to be better. Burying a very bad past. Do people who have a bad past have no right to be happy? Am I not entitled to a perfect marriage? Do I not deserve to feel loved even though my past is so bad?”

Arzan was still speechless, his net staring straight at the white floor below. The disappointment and shock he experienced made him lose his mind. While Aisyah was still sobbing deeply. His heart was very sick, he never thought it would be like this.

He put too much hope in the man who now dwells rigidly in his place. Hope that hurt both. If it can be reworked, then it feels like he went to the past and changed everything. But the rice has become porridge, all can not be changed as before.

Arzan grabbed the leather jacket on the walkcloset and put it on as he walked towards the door, he left without looking and saying anything to his wife.

“Mas where to go?”

“Mas ...” Aisyah's voice restrained. That clear thread is getting unbearable.

“Is your love only this limited? Is virginity so very important and more than anything, mas?”

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He rolled his hair up, set his foot on the cold white floor. Step out looking for the whereabouts of the husband. Aisyah stood before a towering door, hesitating to open it. The room was Arzan's workroom, yesterday as he went around the man said so.

“Darling, if I'm not in the room just find me here. I often spend time here.” the woman smiled bitterly. Even still softly heard the man's voice when calling him with the word ‘sayang’. Why did everything change in just a few hours quickly?

Because of his stupidity in the past, making the new palace of happiness in his enjoy just melt away.

The woman grabbed the door handle hesitantly, then pulled back her hand.

“What if mas Arzan gets angry?” biting her lips hard, imagining how angry her husband was when he last left her.

“But I was worried about the situation.” his hand was stretched again pulling the door handle that was in front of him. Despite his hesitation, he immediately pushed the towering black-colored huge door.

The net immediately caught the figure of the man who was now sound asleep on the sofa with a large size in the room. As soon as her heart was crushed, her husband even chose to sleep here rather than with her.

The first night that should be beautiful, even passed by with a runaway heart. He immediately rubbed the rough clear fur that came back down like endless. Though the warm liquid did not stop down since then until he fell asleep.

Aisyah was still fixated, only able to stare at the back of the man she loved so much. He stepped out, towards his room. Back with a grey blanket in his hand. Doubtful he enveloped the entire sturdy body that looked cold.

“I'm sorry mas,” by slowly tasting the soft end of the head of a man who just yesterday said a promise to live as if.

“I'm sorry, because you should have gotten a much better woman than me. I should have been unselfish, I should have been self-conscious from the start. A woman like me doesn't deserve a perfect man like you. If later you turn away and really stay away from me,” he pauses his sentence. Holding clear circles that come back down rapidly.

“If all that happens later, all the mistakes are on me.” the flow is almost inaudible. Brushing her husband's head for a while, she stepped away from the man who was the center of her world.

Closing back the door that opened slowly, returning to the room with tears that did not want to stop. Without realizing it, the man opened his eyes. There was warm liquid in the corner of his eye.

Aisyah Towards the bathroom, to clean herself. Her tears were camouflaged under the rush of the shower. He closed his eyes, enjoying every drop of water that fell soaking his head as well as his entire body.

When finished, he immediately took ablution water and performed evening prayers. Because he was sure, the owner of life made him calmer. The current Ayesha, was very different from the previous Ayesha. In the past when he was thinking a lot, he would be racing in the streets with his male friends.

But that was before. Humans can change with time and maturity.

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Do you understand what sincerity is?

Is virginity a measure of happiness?

You deserve to be disappointed, but don't close your eyes.

No human is perfect

Everyone must have done something wrong.

Don't look at everything from the past, but look at everything in the present

Because we don't know what's going to happen in the future.