ALENA Is My Sunshine
The Hope Deterred

Mike growled in annoyance while gripping the steering wheel of his car firmly.

His eyes were so sharp he stared at the streets of Newyork that afternoon.

"Damn, what their relationship is really, it's impossible if Kenzo Barrent classmate likes a girl like Alena" Mike muttered

Yeah, she used to just think of Alena as her toy. Because the look of the girl is so beautiful and perfect then Mike keeps his dimansion belongs to her.

Unexpectedly, a few weeks of living with the girl the seed of love began to grow in her heart that was as hard as a rock.

Mike's a rough and tempramental guy, so he can't control his emotions when Alena makes a mistake.

That night, he wanted to be good to Alena by taking the girl to a place that had been provided.

He wanted to make Alena his whole, but who would have thought, the girl he thought was weak was able to escape and disappear from his life.

Somehow Alena got to this town. At that time Mike's dark business was being disrupted, and also his company had a decline so inevitably he let Alena free.

And now, after all her business is done she goes back to looking for Alena. And it turns out Alena's in town. The city where his sister lives

"I'm not gonna let you go Alena. You're the one woman who made me fall in love. Even though I had to fight the President, I didn't care" Mike said in a full growling tone

...

Alena is currently in Kenzo's apartment.

She doesn't want to eat out with Kenzo and prefers to cook and eat both in her apartment .

Alena took the time to stop by the supermarket they passed by. It's actually more appropriate to force Kenzo to stop by.

And inevitably the robot man relented and let Alena shop for her own needs and she waited in the car that Edward was driving.

Kenzo had a serious conversation with Edward in the front room. While Alena goes straight to the kitchen to make a dish for her and for Kenzo.

Alena tidied the groceries into the refrigerator and after that she took the ingredients that would be cooked.

Just as she was tired, she wanted to be in a quiet and desolate place now, she wanted to cry all over there. But he also did not want to refuse Kenzo's request.

Yeah, even though she refused to eat out.

Alena is quite self-conscious now, she doesn't want Kenzo's good name tainted just because her self already lacks this self-esteem. Moreover, hearing the words of Mike was right like hitting his heart with a thorny indelibility. Plus he was talking to a Kenzo Barrent. The man who incidentally is the owner of Alena's heart at this time.

Alena is down at the moment and no longer eager to do anything. But he didn't want to look so weak in front of Kenzo. Kenzo has done so much for her. She was ashamed to cry in front of the man. He's really embarrassed now. Do not expect, to just approach even he no longer has the guts. Because Mike's words are true, Kenzo classmates will not be interested in a girl who has been tarnished like him.

Alena concocts the seasoning while holding back her tears from falling and not making her a burden to Kenzo again.

Alena is determined that if she has completed the prestigious event Alena will go from the life of Kenzo Barrent. He did not want to continue to make the man difficult, especially with the arrival of Mike who increasingly made him self-conscious.

It's up to fate to take her where, Alena doesn't care. Either he ends up in Mike's hands or even ends his own life, which is for sure he has to go and won't bother Kenzo again

Forget about her biological parents. Alena is desperate now. Mike's words were really making his spirit evaporate somewhere.

"Used woman" Alena bit her lower lip bitterly. The words really made her helpless. Yeah, much less what she expected if her self was already branded like that. What other dreams should he pursue, and what kind of happiness he deserves.

"What are you cooking?"

"Uhggh" hiss Alena made Kenzo gasp and immediately pulled Alena's finger which was sliced by a knife

Alena was so surprised by Kenzo's arrival that it arrived, or perhaps because she was unfocused. So that the knife should slice the vegetables instead slicing his fingers.

Fresh blood poured out profusely from Alena's index finger as her wounds were completely deep.

Kenzo immediately pulled Alena's hand over the sink and flushed it with water

"You're so careless Alena" Kenzo said in a cold tone and continued to clean the finger until the blood started to stop flowing

Alena looked at Kenzo with all her heart. This guy is so nice, he's too perfect for Alena who's just a cheap woman.

Alena immediately bowed as Kenzo turned her head, she hid her eyes that began to water again

"Cabin" Kenzo took with him while pulling Alena and sitting her in the dining table seat.

Kenzo went to a cupboard and took the medicine box from there.

Alena just observed Kenzo's behavior so swiftly and looked worried to see his hurt

Kenzo sat down in front of Alena and pulled the bloody hand of Alena.

"Let me alone En" said Alena slowly but Kenzo instead forcefully pulled her hand and began to treat the wound

Alena grimaced when Kenzo draped the red medicine there

Alena immediately nodded quickly, and went back to biting her lower lip so as not to cry now

'it doesn't feel at all En, the pain is here.in my heart' Alena's inner pain

"Hold, it's just for a second. Then the next time you heart, do not while daydreaming. What are you thinking about?" Kenzo grumbled while dressing Alena's wounds with bandages.

"Nothing, I just lack heart. His knife was slippery" Alena's pretext made Kenzo snort

"Stop cooking if your hand still hurts" Kenzo said again after finishing treating Alena's finger

"No, it's better. I'll continue with it. You just wait. It won't be long" replied Alena who immediately passed leaving Kenzo who was staring at her in annoyance

"Bas stubborn" he murmured, even just because of the little knife once Alena already wanted to cry.

...

And at the end of it almost an hour later Alena's cooking was on the table with a very neat and tempting.

Edward had already left there because there were still many tasks to do.

And now there's only Alena and Kenzo in that big apartment.

Kenzo sat quietly in his place. He noticed Alena who was swiftly serving her a meal. From taking the side dishes and also drinks for her.

"It has. Eat it" said Alena, who now also sits in her seat right in front of Kenzo.

Alena had always avoided direct contact with her sharp eyes. He really could not stay in those eyes for long. Not afraid, but Alena can't help her feelings when she's near Kenzo.

They ate in silence, but Kenzo occasionally glanced at Alena who was eating with no taste.

He knew, the girl must still be sad at this moment. But he also didn't know what to do now.

"After this I have to go. You can rest here if you want" Kenzo said as he finished his meal. He ate voraciously because Alena's cooking was really delicious and fitting in her picky tongue

"Yes" replied Alena briefly

"You okay?" Kenzo asked again making Alena look at his glance and smile thinly

"I'm fine, En. You can leave if you have any business. I'm fine" Alena replied again as she cleaned up the rest of their meal.

"alright. I'm leaving" said Kenzo, who was followed by Alena walking behind

"Don't go anywhere" Kenzo said as he arrived at the door. He turned his body and stared fixedly at Alena

Alena just smiled and nodded slowly

Kenzo immediately put on his mask and went away leaving Alena alone in that place.

Alena closed the door and went back to the kitchen.

His eyes glazed back with glass. He wiped the leftovers on the table, after that washed the dishes they had eaten earlier, along with his hands that wiped his tears that burst unstoppable again

Hixes

Alena's sobs began to sound, even louder than the pounding of the plates and glasses that were kept in her place

Alena fell on the floor and cupped her face with her palm.

He cried bitterly there, crying with a cry so painful and full of wounds

"Mother, Ale is no longer a strong mother" his sobbing

The quiet kitchen room was filled with the sound of Isak crying Alena

His heart ached, even very sick at this moment

"What Ale doesn't deserve to be happy. Ale wants to come with mom. Ale was afraid of mother, Ale was afraid" he said again with a sobbing cry

His chest rumbled, even feeling very tight. His sense of all his hopes and dreams were completely shattered now

"Ale's just a cheap woman now. Ale give up mom. Ale's tired"

Alena cried on the kitchen floor for almost two hours. He evaporated all the tightness that he had been holding since noon. It hurts when I start to hope but it is immediately broken by an argument that is very painful.

"One more month. Yes, just one month. Hang Ale. You have to hold on for Kenzo. Don't disappoint him, don't waste his gifts. Once you can finish it, you can leave. You can go as far as possible, where no one else can scorn you, where you no longer feel the fear you are today" Alena was sure

Alena moved with staggered steps. Her body was limp because it had been a few days since she had completely drained her tears.

Alena's laying down her body on that apartment's long couch. And not long his eyes closed tightly and he fell asleep in peace even though a beautiful dream did not come.