ARSHAKA
Takzirs

I looked at my cell phone screen. My fingers slide the screen from left to right, and from top to bottom. Many times check the notification at the top of the phone, there is only a social media notification that my interest did not open since then.

Then I open my Whatsapp again, open a chat from Arshaka. At first glance I read his last message, the one he sent a few days ago.

Arshaka disappeared somewhere. Without any news, and without being seen from my silencing.

I should be happy because Arshaka doesn't bother me anymore. I should have been happy that Arshaka didn't show up in front of me again.

But I felt the opposite: I was restless, not calm, as long as he did not reveal his nose I thought of him.

Now that my mind is branching off, has something happened to her? Is he in good shape?

Or maybe Arshaka has given up on me, for that he disappeared?

If it's true, he should have given me some news. Tell me not to think about it.

No. gabe. Why would he tell me if he had given up on me?

It should be like this.

It should have been like this since then. 

Aye right.

I should be relieved that Arshaka's missing.

Should have.

"cieee diliatin mulu chat her. If you chat first!"

I was surprised and immediately locked the phone screen when Karin was lying next to me and peeking at my activities that were opening Arshaka chat.

Right now I'm visiting Karin's house and lying on her bed.

At first I wanted to spend time at home watching movies all day.

But I'm sleeping here. Being alone at home because Dad and Leo were out fishing actually made me keep thinking about Arshaka.

But free too. At Karin's house, my attention was only on the man.

"just try to chat Bi first. At least you know why he just disappeared. Let you also know how to continue your relationship with him. Let's not hang it like a clothesline,"

I looked at Karin who sincerely gave me a suggestion. After telling me that Arshaka is missing, Karin relentlessly tells me to send a message first to Arshaka.

To be honest, in my heart, I flinched to follow Karin's advice. But my reasoning is that I don't have to do that.

But my ego rips my mind. Fought strong until my head was dizzy. It feels like it's about to break.

"try it Bi. There is no harm if you chat first. If Arshaka doesn't reply to your message, you can make your own decision."

Karin's right. And my ego wins.

When Karin left the room, I started typing a message and sent it to Arshaka.

Arshaka To:

You where?

After sending the message, my hand can not be separated holding the phone and continue to open Arshaka's message.

My eyes only noticed 2 unblue ticks.

A few minutes I was just waiting for a reply from Arshaka. From Karin out to cook food for us to eat until Karin back again. I was just glued to stare at the phone, but the reply notification from Arshaka had not yet entered.

Is this what it feels like to lose?

To lose? Funnier. From the beginning I continued to deny her presence, and as she disappeared I began to feel lost.

Damnit damnit!

"have you tried asking Samuel yet? Samuel and Arshaka were close friends,"

Karin came to the room again and brought an idea that immediately moved my finger to contact Samuel immediately.

I immediately gave Samuel a short message about what he knew about Arshaka.

I waited for Samuel's reply for a while, but he had not read my message. His status is online again.

"Bi, I'm going downstairs first huh. There's Romeo. Just sec,"

Karin passed by and I was still glued to my unread message by Samuel.

But my reasoning immediately keeps in mind Romeo.

I hurriedly got up and went out to Karin and Romeo.

"Romeo!"

I called Romeo as the man in the black denim jacket was about to pass. I could see Romeo's slightly surprised and confused expression after I called out to him.

"Romeo, you're close friends with Arshaka right?" ask me to the point. For a moment Romeo raised both of his eyebrows - dumbstruck - but soon he replied.

"why really?"

"do you know where he is now?"

Romeo was surprised to see me.

"why is Nanyain Arshaka like me? Why don't you ask yourself?"

"if I knew, I wouldn't have to rush downstairs for the same thing you are now." I replied a little sniffly. Romeo sneered cynically.

Seeing his expression like that, I feel like I want to grab his hair.

"if I knew where Arshaka was, what was your business?"

I was silent, thinking of the right answer.

"don't you like your Arshaka deketin? It should be nice if Arshaka doesn't take you anymore,"

Is correct. If Romeo knew that's what my mind was beginning to think Arshaka was gone.

But the statement was swallowed in my own mouth.

"i just asked Arshaka where you are and I want you to answer my question right away. It's not about anything else, "my pretext is. But seeing Romeo's delicacy that stabbed me I became creepy.

Oh God. I look like a stupid woman.

Then Romeo asked me to type something on the note. A home address in Pondok Indah.

"just come to that address. And don't forget to bring the white Rose,"

"Rose Flower??" ask me to reassure.

"yes. On the other hand, don't do much."

"for what?"

Romeo grinned again, "later you know too. Yes, I'll unplug it."

Romeo just left, letting me and Karin stand on the doorstep with their own thoughts.

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I watched a large and luxurious house, until I had to look up a little.

Large house that has an iron fence combined with sturdy towering wood. Cover the area in the house.

Seeing the housekeeper who had just come out and entered a small post at the corner of the fence, I approached him and asked for Arshaka's whereabouts.

The housekeeper looked at me and assessed my appearance from top to bottom. He also saw me carrying a white Rose.

A guard named Joko - I knew his name from a nametag in his shirt pocket - called someone, when he asked my name and mentioned my name to someone he called.

"take Bianca. I'll drop it in, yeah,"

Joko opened the fence for me, and I followed in her footsteps from behind.

It took a few steps to the main door. Having a large yard is very troublesome for me as a guest without using a vehicle.

After I entered the house, I was presented with a collection of jars, paintings and ceramic trinkets attached to the wall. Seeing this I just realized, I was entering the house of a successful Coal businessman.

Also related to his grandson.

A connection? What relation? Oh, my God, I'm starting to hang out.

"wait a minute, Bianca,"

Joko resigned after offering me a seat in the living room. Before sitting on a luxurious sofa that looks soft and expensive, I was interested to see various collections of the living room of the owner of the house.

From paintings to picture frames of homeowners. The photos on display here are only Reymond Prabusudibyo activities.

There are no photos of Arshaka.

"Mulettes,"

I turned around, found Reymond standing behind me.

Immediately I experienced it by kissing Reymond's hand.

"you were the one who came to my party that time, right?"

I nodded in my answer.

"what did you need to come here?"

I thought for a moment. I thought I might explain my coming to see Arshaka.

"Dian,"

I turned my eyes behind Reymond's back. Seeing the figure of Arshaka down the stairs with an oversize white T-shirt and gray training pants.

His curly hair was messy and his face looked pale.

"Arsha,"

"Bee, go to Yuk's room?"

I rounded my eyes perfectly hearing Arshaka take me to her room.

"i'm not strong Bee. Come with me to the room,"

Arshaka walked up to me and pulled my arm to follow her steps towards a room.

I had a chance to rebel so that he did not pull my hand to follow in his footsteps. Especially seen by Reymond.

Oh, my God, I want to know where my face is in front of Reymond. And strangely Arshaka did not feel disturbed when deluded by Reymond with a sharp gaze.

Until my arm was released when Arshaka managed to bring me into his room. Then he immediately threw himself on the bed.

Seeing Arshaka close his eyes and limp there, my intention was to curse him to be confined.

"why.you?"

There was no response from Arshaka. The man still closed his eyes with regular breathing.

I thought he was asleep, but I saw one hand move patting the side of the bed.

"here,"

Arshaka told me to approach him, without him opening his eyes.

I approached him and sat down beside the bed, beside Arshaka lying down.

Her anxiety was raised when I saw closely that Arshaka looked pale with dry lips.

I slowly touched her hand, hot. Why did I realize that Arshaka's body temperature could be this hot?

"you're sick,"

The shrillness of me that I thought would not be heard by him just made him open his eyes slowly. Arshaka watched me who now looked anxious to see her condition.

"i think Romeo lied to me. You know you're really coming,"

I was confused to answer how, until I stammered to talk to Arshaka.

"yes-yes. Ye.. Gi-where are you?"

"you don't have to worry. I've started to improve" he said in a slow tone.

"why don't you tell me you're sick?" ask me again with my head down.

"i don't want to worry you" she replied.

"you only worry me,"

Arshaka was stunned by my words just now.

Let him not be, I also fall for myself.

Arshaka smiled, "really? Means I often get sick just let you worry about me.. Au's.. Au's.. Sick Bi!"

I patted his arm in annoyance.

"don't say that! It's the same as praying for yourself to be sick,"

"nothing. Let you come to the house often and worry about me kayaking now," his god chuckled. I immediately turned my eye bead.

Before long Arshaka clasped my hand.

"sorry has made you worry. I didn't mean anything like that. I thought it was just a normal fever, I know typhoid fever. I'm sorry I didn't tell you, but you don't worry. I'm not just gonna disappear," 

My hand began to be firmly grasped by him, then he pulled and he kissed briefly on the back of my hand. Makes my heart beat unbearably.

I tried hard to take my eyes off, but it seemed free. Because Arshaka smiles herself seeing me react with her attitude.

"thank you for coming here, seeing my condition and bringing me the Rose,"

"also I want to tell you something, too,"

I gasped as Arshaka tried to get up and sat staring at me fixedly. Although it looks pale, I can still see the seriousness behind his face.

I looked back down because I wasn't strong enough to be stared at like that.

"Bi, I'm lucky to have met you more. Like a Rose that is filled with thorns as a protector. But now I don't want to be a thorn anymore, because if you wither and your petals fall I'll still be a thorn and it's no use anymore,"

"so...?"

Ask me while understanding what Arshaka meant to me, and then he smiles again.

"i will still be an Arshaka, capable of giving you anything even I can give you a thousand Roses every day. Or more than just a couple of Roses. I know my words sound bragging, but I'm serious."

"I want you to be my girl, Bee..."

My body pecked after hearing the sweet prank that Arshaka threw.

Also the short but warm kiss he gave me on my cheek.

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