ARSHAKA
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Have I ever said that my life is as light as cotton? No don't you? Thank goodness then.

I know you're asking me why I said that. All right, I'll tell you guys.

Not too long ago - about an hour ago - my world seemed to collapse, time stopped ticking, and I had trouble breathing as if the oxygen on the surface of the Earth was thinning.

Yes I know my words are too poetic, dramatic, exaggerated. Okay.

After you listened to my reasons for why I said that, I'm sure you'll be happy.

"sorry Bi, we've got this relationship. We broke up."

"i don't think we fit anymore. Sorry yes."

How would it feel if you suddenly cut off your boyfriend on the grounds we're no match?

Well, tell me I'm overreacting if I say my world is collapsing because I've been cut off by a boyfriend-ralat, already an ex. But as long as you know, however much my heart aches during a relationship that I take great care of and look fine - in my eyes - I rarely quarrel, if anything we can get it done quickly, but I have to accept that this relationship has to end in vain.

The relationship that I have lived for 2 months, where I was first dating a man most wanted seantera campus.

He loved her for a long time, and eventually our relationship grew closer until he asked me to be his girlfriend. Surely I'm happy.

Who is not happy to be dating a man you have been dating for a long time?

Despite the fact that our relationship is backstreeted.

Only Karin - my best friend since High School - knew of my relationship. Leo knows too, but he's a bitch. If he finds out I broke up maybe he doesn't care.

The reason we backstreet because our relationship is fairly new, he and I are quite reluctant to publish our relationship to everyone. Especially he has a lot of fans on campus, from juniors to seniors.

So we decided to live our relationship like running water, even run aground like a flat car tire. My concern could last with him dashed after I heard a fact that managed to shake my heart.

"the horrors of Jeanne invite Erick to her Birthday Party on the weekend tomorrow, and Erick agrees. Said their children again near."

Hearing that I no longer knew what to do but cry a mouthful in front of Karin.

I don't care if the other students see me crying in the middle of a crowded campus cafeteria. But my activities have no appeal to be a cool spectacle for them.

Karin tried to calm me down by patting my shoulder slowly while saying patiently.

Patience is not enough to heal my wounds. What I was crying became.

"if he really loves you, there's no way he's breaking up you keep on deletin Jeanne..."

"...except from the beginning he no longer loves you."

My heart ached more and more to hear Karin's words, which grazed into reality.

If Erick loves me, it is impossible after breaking up I he immediately approached Jeanne.

"lupain he is Bi. Guys like he doesn't deserve you. Proof that you're okay after being cut off with him."

I haven't heard Karin's words. Sometimes the mouth is easy to say, but when done it is difficult. Plus the heart becomes bitter.

"we came to Jeanne's party, you made beautiful so that many were lyrical. I'm sure Erick will regret breaking up with you."

I frowned as I rubbed my face, "party Jeanne?"

"yes." Karin nodded. Then he took out something from his gray tote bag, 2 invitation cards written Jeanne's Party there. Beautiful card design with writing appears there, indicating that the event will be held festive and luxurious.

"we were invited to his party. Later we go to my mom's boutique, choose the best clothes possible to go to the party. I'll help you find a suitable outfit."

I just nodded with a bad mind. But what Karin said was true, I couldn't cry over Erick even though he didn't cry over me at all.

There is no harm in following Karin's instructions to stop by the Boutique and look at the clothes I will wear later.

One by one I saw the clothes hanging piled up on the wardrobe. After we arrived at Karin's mother's Boutique, Karin left me for a moment to meet her mother in the 3rd floor study.

I glanced at the silver blink-blink suit, the one that was so revealing displayed the cleavage and exposed the entire back area. Immediately I returned the clothes to where they came from, I suddenly felt creepy thinking that I was wearing them.

Back home I was dredged because of the cold.

My eyes scattered again, busy looking for clothes that are suitable for me to wear. But I hadn't found any suitable ones, until Karin approached me with some clothes she had perched on one arm.

Karin asked me to try all the clothes she was carrying, this time I liked her choice of clothes. And I like one of his clothes that is covered in the front but open on the back, at least the clothes are categorized as still safe for me to wear.

I chose the clothes and immediately wanted to pay to the cashier, but Karin did not ask me to pay.

Lucky I have a friend kayak Karin, quite right to have new and nice clothes without having to drain the pocket money.

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"where are you going?"

Leo watched me from the tip of my head to the tip of my foot, then looked back at me with a strange look.

I rarely dress up and wear nice clothes, it's only natural that Leo looks at me like that.

"want to go." replied me while checking my clutch contents so that no one was left behind.

"tumben wear nice clothes, invited to date?"

"no," I said straight away. "sister's broken up."

"oh!"

It's true what I said that Leo wouldn't care. There was no expression of sympathy.

Before Leo asked me to speak again, the sound of a car horn came to indicate that Karin had arrived to pick me up. Without asking Leo already knew that it was Karin, he had memorized the tone of the car roar and car horn Karin.

I hurried out while saying goodbye to Leo.

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We arrived at a luxury building in South Jakarta. Before we stepped into the building I went back to check my appearance, seeing that my reflection was clearly visible on someone else's car glass I used the opportunity to polish the lipstick again and comb my hair.

For a moment I looked at myself there, steadying my heart when I would meet Erick later.

I stepped with Karin in graceful steps as if we were on a catwalk at a famous fashion show, passing by some of Jeanne's guests who had not yet entered the central Hall.

The event was held inside the spacious and magnificent Hall on the 1st floor. We were presented with a melodious and dense music of guests who crowded themselves, I could see if the guests Jeanne invited were not just college children. I admit Jeanne is very sociable, anyone knows Jeanne.

Jeanne is also a Selebgram. I don't have to explain to you how famous Jeanne is.

We approached Jeanne's position in the middle of the Hall, and my steps faltered when Erick was with Jeanne.

The man who had decided on me not long ago was laughing happily with Jeanne, one hand embracing Jeanne's waist affectionately. The sight managed to blow my anger and sadness.

Karin congratulated Jeanne first, followed by me later. For a moment, Erick and I met, but Erick immediately turned his eyes to Jeanne.

Trying hard I held the heat in my chest cavity.

Karin and I stepped aside and sat at the table with my majors. The show starts with wisdom and ends with a free event that has sung DJ songs quite loudly. Hearing the bang of the song made my head want to break, but I could not miss because Karin was being invited to drink by my friends.

I sit at the table and drink soda cans.

"he's coming!" exclaiming one of my friends while pointing at someone, his red face after drinking did not make it difficult for him to point at someone he meant.

We who were provoked by my friend's call turned to him, a man wearing a black leather jacket and a white shirt was talking to his friend while holding a drink glass.

"that's who?" asked Karin to look at the man.

"it's Arshaka. Crazy from far away!"

I opened and narrowed my eyes so that I could see the man in question. The lights made it hard for me to look at her.

Still busy looking at the man, I heard all the compliments that were placed on the man. But what I heard from the compliment led to him being a badboy guy that women love so much.

I was stunned to hear he was still sitting on my High School bench. She shouldn't be here, because Jeanne's party had a lot of alcohol.

"last he took Lisa. They also had sex, and until now Lisa is still chasing Shaka."

In my friendship environment, having sex was already considered commonplace by them. Want to not want me to have to accept the situation even though my mind is still dull.

Having sex is still taboo for me to talk about. Not haphazardly thrown especially if our minds are not too open.

But having sex doesn't always contain the dirty word, for me it's science. I don't deny that, because someday I will need that knowledge for my future with the man I will be with.

Too much to think I didn't realize that the man we were talking about came to our table, and he knew my friends.

I noticed his cool activities chatting with one of my friends named Samuel. Their conversation was not heard too much by me because their voices drowned with the thump of music getting louder.

But I didn't care, so I chose to look at my phone and look through all my social media accounts there. On scrol I gulped down my soda.

Before I finished my drink, my gaze met his gaze. Long enough we were fixated I immediately turned my eyes back to staring at the phone.

But I felt that I was being noticed, so I looked up and turned my eyes back when the man named Arshaka was still staring at me, who was now looking at me intently.

"you want to move Bi? You're being watched with Arshaka on."

Karin realized that the man was endlessly staring at me, I agreed with Karin's invitation and we left the table.

Karin and I decided to sit in a minibar adjacent to the dance floor. As I swept my eyes, I caught Erick and Jeanne dancing there.

I could see how they were laughing so much, so enjoying the song accompanying their dance.

I can also see Erick's smile being so sincere to Jeanne. A smile she never shared with me. My heart paled, remembering all the words Karin had wandered around in my head.

Maybe Erick doesn't have any feelings for me.

If that's true, why did he say he liked me? Why did he ask me to be his girlfriend?

Why is he so easy to break my heart when I'm so sorry?

My heart aches, it feels like my heart is squeezed strongly by something invisible. A hot blast filled my chest cavity all the way to the crown. This feeling is really torturous.

Seeing a canned drink in front of me, I opened and sipped a bitter and hot drink in my throat.

"god, what did I drink?"

I checked the label of the can, as soon as I caught my breath when I saw that the drink I was drinking was alcohol.

Damnit damnit!

Soon I kept the drink as far away as possible. And I hurriedly got up from the bench to look for Karin, the last time Karin said she went to the toilet.

But my steps are not easy, fortunately I have not managed to fall because someone helped me.

"you're drunk."

I looked to the side, finding a man approaching me with a smile.

I dimly watched the men, my smile rose because Erick was the one who caught me.

"Erick," call me clean to him. My smile grew even more as he returned my smile.

"i believe you still love me, Erick."

Spontaneously I put my hand to my neck and then I kissed her lips for the first time.

The first kiss was so intoxicating. There was even a sweet taste on her lips, until my blotting grew louder.

"i love your kiss" she said in a deep hoarse voice after our kiss came off, her voice making my heart rustle.

But as soon as I realized, it wasn't Erick's voice. I looked at her face again and digested inside my head that felt like it was floating into the air.

The man who was hugging me wasn't Erick. But a man named Arshaka.

I tried to distance myself from him, but too late, the more he nodded and he kissed my lips.

A kiss that invited several pairs of eyes noticed us.

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