ARSHAKA
Died

Deep asleep, I looked at Arshaka's face in front of me. Arshaka looked calm, a beautiful dream managed to melt him.

Even so one hand Arshaka held tightly, as if he was awake so that I would not go.

The longer I watched Arshaka fall asleep, the more I began to feel sleepy. This incident was quite draining, probably because Arshaka was also asleep.

But some questions stick out and continue to revolve about this incident. I need to see Reymond, he's the only key to answering all my questions.

I slowly got up, watched Arshaka closely and carefully pulled my hand away so as not to disturb Arshaka's sleep.

Succeeding, I hurriedly ran to my tiptoes to get out of the room without the slightest sound. Open the door and close it again and immediately go down to the middle room.

It seems I don't have to bother looking for Reymond, because he's been sitting back in the oversized chair in the room reading the daily newspaper.

Then he raised his gaze, looked at my presence and then he dragged the newspaper to his side.

"Please sit down Bianca!" Reymond moved his hand to let me sit next to him.

I obeyed his request, I walked over and asked myself to sit on the long sofa right next to him.

The middle-aged man's face looked relaxed, he looked at me as if he knew my thoughts if I was going to meet him.

"I'm sorry for Arshaka's behavior to you. I was careless to watch over Arshaka." came out Reymond's apology about Arshaka.

"Don't worry! I made sure Arshaka wouldn't do it again,"

I didn't respond to Reymond's words. Even I did not mind Arshaka's attitude towards me, instead I wanted to ask him a lot.

"Areally Arshaka why?"

I twisted my fingers that felt cold. Somehow I felt afraid to listen to Reymond's explanation of my question.

"Arshaka is sick,"

"Arshaka is sick because of me?" ask again.

"It's not because you're Bianca" Reymond said.

"Arshaka was sick before she met you" he continued.

Before Reymond spoke again, he grabbed the glass filled with tea and sipped it little by little.

"Arshaka has a mental disorder, Bianca" he said as he placed his glass in its original place. I was stunned in disbelief looking at Reymond.

Reymond explained it to me.

"Arshaka had to have a psychic disorder when her parents died. Less when he was 5. Psychic disorder is not because he lost his parents, but he knows that Arshaka's presence here is not the desire of both parents."

I could only silently stare at Reymond.

"Arshaka was present because of an accident, and when Arshaka's mother told my son that she was pregnant my son asked Arshaka's mother to abort him. But the evil intention of both of them to eliminate Arshaka always fails until Arshaka is born to earth."

"When I found out that Arshaka was in her mother's belly, I didn't like Arshaka's mother either because her status wasn't from a good family, also I believe what my son said if he felt trapped so that my son would marry his mother Arshaka, I sent some men to take his mother Arshaka away and threaten him not to return."

"At that time Arshaka's mother did not return. Until a few years later Arshaka's mother came to see me, asking where my son and he came with little Arshaka."

"The first time I met Arshaka, the child's appearance was far from well-kept. Wearing a scrappy and dirty shirt, elongated hair that may never be trimmed neatly."

At first glance Reymond seemed to sing a cynical smile, "His grandson at that time Arshaka was not given any name. I was shocked when Arshaka's mother called him 'little boy' in front of me. Seeing little Arshaka so submissive and kept looking down not knowing anything, my chest felt tight at once."

"But my conscience is still dark. That's where I still haven't let that woman see my son. Until that day,"

"I was told by my man who was with my son to rush to the position where my son was. I was told that my son had died with that woman. I immediately told my men to call for Ambulance and Akuoun also rushed to the place of the matter."

"Until there, my body was limp to see my son was covered in blood with the woman. Then I saw Arshaka sitting quietly looking at the two corpses with no expression."

"Arshaka did not cry, did not panic, and did not fear. But he's smiling."

"I pulled him right away, forced him to explain what was really going on."

"Without thinking of Arshaka who apparently had his soul shaken."

"I took Arshaka to the Hospital, and apparently my guess was correct. Arshaka has a psychic disorder, and when examined physically Arshaka also experienced violence such as bruises at some point of his body."

"After that incident I started to focus on taking care of Arshaka. I mobilized the media to help Arshaka recover, then I named her Arshaka Danu Prabusudibyo, and I also approached and learned to understand her."

"But that's not enough to make him feel appreciated. Arshaka still considers himself not someone he wants. Therefore, he did all he could to let others know that Arshaka lived in this world."

"To where I found out that Arshaka was close to you. There I just thought that your closeness wouldn't change anything."

"But I felt strange when Arshaka brought you to the House in Jakarta. As bad as Arshaka is, he would never bring his 'play' home."

"And there the change in Arshaka's attitude was seen by me. One of them Arshaka likes to skip the schedule of taking his medication, but without taking the drug Arshaka can control his emotions."

"Not only that. I found your picture sheet tucked away in Arshaka's desk drawer."

"Arshaka considers you a part of his life. The important part that was only for her."

"Until where Arshaka was re-shaken, he cried and cried hysterically calling your name and saying words of regret and cursing himself. Then Arshaka told me if you left her, you hated her because Arshaka had played you."

"Added your sister contacted Arshaka, saying that Arshaka was worthy of being hated by you. So I was forced to take Arshaka to Bali to return to intensive care."

"Your departure reopens the wound that has dried up in Arshaka's heart."

"And I never thought you'd see each other again. I'm going to find out about your arrival in Bali. Apparently Arshaka deliberately signed a cooperation contract between the company where you work and A.P. Coal Corp."

"And this is how it ends. We meet again in this complicated state."

"Because you know what Arshaka really is, you must determine your attitude. Want to come back with Arshaka but you will come back to feel hurt, or you leave Arshaka but you will be happy."

I looked down and pondered Reymond's words. In this situation, I was confused myself.

In my heart I want to be happy. I don't want to be played anymore. Given the past, the pain is still there.

But my heart is wobbly. Meeting Arshaka again made my heart beat again, I still remember it clearly and this beat is exactly the same time where I made a heart for Arshaka.

I realized my feelings were still there for Arshaka, but along with that my heart also begged not to get hurt again.

"I hope you can choose wisely Bi. I didn't mean to incite you, but I also wanted to hear you happy. I don't want you to regret and come back feeling wronged. You're young, you're beautiful, there must be a lot of good men out there waiting for you, treating you well and being able to lead you into adulthood."

"Don't feel burdened by Arshaka's circumstances! I'm sure Arshaka will find his happiness even if you're not his match."

"You deserve to be happy, even if you're not together."

Reymond's words made me even more shaken. My mouth seems to have trouble speaking.

I don't know what to say. All I could do was stand up and go home, and then I went as far as possible to leave the mansion.

Enjoying my solitude in a taxi, my heart and mind now clash to make a choice.

Do I have to follow my heart or my logic?

...*****...

hi, it's me octa.

thank God I can write again

specifically this platform, I will remodel every chapter until this story is finished. The plot is the same as on the next platform there is only what I change a little.

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