Beginning of Forced Marriage
BDP. The Part 54
Nayna stared at Arkan's bead deeply, the gentle strokes the man gave her in his hand, presenting a feeling of calm that made her even more comfortable.
"Can you speak calmly and ask what you want to know slowly, so that I can also answer it calmly as well" Arkan repeated with a gentle look.
Nayna did not speak directly, but she just looked at Arkan with a warm heart, her heart was pounding to get a soft look and rub from her husband, until her tongue felt faint to move.
Arkan was still silent, he waited patiently for Nayna to say what she wanted.
"When did Om know about me and Raffa?" Finally that question was what Nayna said for the first time after a moment of silence.
"Since you met on the street of this housing complex," Arkan said as it is.
"What! So you've known about us for a long time?" nayna looked at Arkan in disbelief, and her husband nodded his head.
"Yes, I was going to pick you up at your parents' house, but when I got to your parents' house, they said that if you're home, I finally decided to go home, but as I entered the complex street I saw you from afar."
"Keep when I go to the hospital for fainting?"
"I'm following you, too, but I'm waiting for Raffa to leave, after Raffa leaves I just came in to see you."
"Why did Om do that and why did Om just shut up, pretending not to know about it," Nayna looked at Arkan with question marks.
"I was confused as to what kind of attitude I had to respond to all of this with, everything was too difficult for me to accept at first, on the one hand I felt ashamed and guilty of you, but on the other hand, on the other hand, I felt ashamed and guilty of you, I'm also confused about how to deal with Raffa if he finds out about this."
"Why Om isn't being straightforward with Raffa, about us being married."
"I'll definitely tell her about this, but I'm still waiting for the right time."
Nayna nodded, understanding that Arkan's position was definitely not easy to accept all that, just like he who also could not understand the flow of life he was now living.
"What about our relationship now?" nayna looked at Arkan seriously.
His hand was currently still within Arkan's grasp, they were both not intending to let go of that hand.
"What do you want with this relationship? Do you really want us to get divorced?" ask Arkan who asked.
"I don't know" said Nayna, shaking her cheeks that had begun to turn red.
For some reason at this time, he was embarrassed to wait about what Arkan decided on their relationship, whether the man would return him to his parents' house and return to Listi.
"Is everything you said right?"
"Which one am I saying?" ask Nayna wonder.
"If you feel upset and hurt when you see me with Listi?"
Nayna just nodded slowly, how could he say all that to Arkan, now he could not avoid the man who had been able to tear apart his feelings.
Although it felt very difficult, but he also could not selfishly impose his will on Arkan, it was enough that he suddenly appeared in the man's life and forced him to be bound in that sacred bond.
"If I want to keep this marriage how?"
Nayna looked confusedly at Arkan, after hearing what her husband had just said.
"What does Om mean?"
"Yes I want us to continue this marriage" Arkan said with a confident nod.
Pleased, of course that's what Nayna is feeling right now, but the pleasure doesn't last long, because she thinks, maybe Arkan wants to keep the marriage, he said, feeling guilty for what happened to him.
"Om doesn't need to do that, if only to make up for Om's guilt, this is all not Om's fault and has nothing to do with Om, until it has to replace Raffa to take responsibility," nayna shook her head.
"Who said I did this to replace Raffa in charge."
"Keep because of what?" ask Nayna curious.
"If I told you, I also have feelings for you, would you believe it?" There was not the slightest bit of hesitation heard from the man's words.
Nayna opened her eyes several times, trying to sharpen her sense of hearing, whether what had just been heard was real, or just Arkan's way to calm herself down.
"I know you won't believe it, but I also don't know when this feeling comes up. What is clear is that when I found out that you were the ex-niece of my own, even pregnant with her child, I was really disappointed, there was a sense of unwillingness as well. Why among the many men in the world, why should the one whom I consider to be my own child be in that position."
"I used to choose to shy away from you, intending to harbor this feeling that was slowly present in my heart, but it turns out that even though I had tried to avoid and busied myself, it was useless."
"I really can't get rid of that feeling, every time I hear Raffa always talking about you, I'm also trying my hardest to hold my feelings, just acting normal when in front of him, because I don't want to destroy his happiness this fast."
"Keep why Om, did not come at all when I fell from the bathroom," said Nayna with a soft word.
"I've come, if you don't believe you can ask Ivan and Fara, not even really calm when Raffa tells you, if you fall in the bathroom," Arkan said.
"Keep why didn't Om meet me?" Nayna did not understand what Arkan was saying.
If indeed the man had come there, then why did he not meet him and instead came the next morning, he put his incredulous gaze on Arkan.
"I won't force you to believe me or not, but what I'm saying is the truth, I went straight to the hospital when I got home from work, but when I saw Raffa's whereabouts there, I undo my intention to meet you" Arkan said earnestly.
Nayna took a look, into Arkan's eyes, looking for a lie from the man's words, but for so long looking at him, she found no lies there at all and she hoped, she hoped, that's not wrong.
"As Om Arkan drove Liani to the hospital, if it was planned, Om could not pick me up to go home, but could deliver Liani." Nayna still has her quacks about it, so she has to get things done now.
"It was completely unplanned, it just so happened that I had a meeting outside the office and while on the street Listi got word from her nanny, if Liani suddenly got sick, she had a high fever, she said, because at that time our position was in line with the place we would go to for the meeting, I also decided to deliver Listi who was then in my car to the hospital, first."