
Trying to keep smiling even if your heart is hurt. No matter how painful it is in the heart, the most important thing is to try to stay fine.
That's all Kania can do right now. Trying to keep looking good in front of Shaka and Tristan who just came this afternoon.
The conversation between Rama and his parents that he accidentally heard this morning made Kania's mind feel full.
Why when he began to open his heart to Rama, only this was revealed?
Suppose Kania knew that from the beginning Rama's parents did not like him, of course Kania would not let his heart fall too deep on Rama.
Love can't stop as fast as falling in love, can it?
Even if it hurts amazingly, but love can't just disappear.
Five years more accustomed to being close to Rama. Even Rama has become the most important part of Kania's life. It has been her love for almost three months.
And Dita. Kania doesn't understand why Dita's hiding all this. Even he lured Kania and Rama to tell their relationship to Dita.
If from the first day Kania and Dita met again Dita had told him everything, surely this would not be the case.
Kania will not accept the love of Rama and his heart is not hurt.
"The water's spilled!" tristan exclaimed as he saw Kania spilling drinking water, but Kania did not notice.
Intentions to make a drink for Tristan even ended with the kitchen floor inundated with water. Kania until unconscious because he was daydreaming, thinking about his fate.
"Astaghfirullah's..." Kania directly turn off the dispenser faucet. "Sorry, Tan. I forgot to take it" he said in a panic.
"Mbak not forgetting matiin, but again daydreaming. Any issues?" Tristan took over the washcloth in Kania's hands and cleaned the water on the floor.
Kania quickly shook her head. "No, really. Ma'am was nervous to meet his father and mother," said Kania lying.
Instead, he had forgotten that today he was going home to his parents. It feels really scared. Moreover, he will bring Shaka.
Tristan gave a smile. Gently rubbed his sister's shoulders. "Bismillah, yes, Ma'am. I hope you are not angry anymore." Although Tristan felt unsure of his own words.
Could it be that her father had already accepted Kania? Remembering the last discussion about Kania still makes his father so emotionally visible.
Kania just nodded and smiled faintly. Assures Tristan's words in the heart.
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Kania's heart felt so troubled considering that soon he will meet his parents, after five years.
Kania finally reached this point. He never dared to hope to meet again with his Father and Mother.
"Om, where are we going, anyway?" shaka asked in curiosity.
Tristan smile. "We're going to Grandpa and Grandma's house, Shaka. Shaka's never met a grandparent, has he?"
"Which grandfather and grandmother, Om?"
"Mother hasn't told me, has she?" Tristan glanced at Kania who was also staring at him. Tristan's eyes imply a question, whether Shaka has not been introduced to his grandparents even though only through photos?
As if understanding Tristan's gaze, Kania shook her head slowly. During this time, Kania has not shown their photos to Shaka. Kania does not know what answer he will give if Shaka asks a lot.
"There was also Wiryo's grandfather and Siti's grandmother. Oma Hanum and Opa Bram."
"Who is that?"
"Our neighbors are in the old place, Tan. If it's Ms. Hanum and Mr. Bram, she's Devan's parents. You know what it means," Kania said quickly.
Tristan who already knew about Devan and his parents also nodded in understanding. "Oh, then now we've got Karno's grandfather and Wening's grandmother, yes."
"Okay, Om."
The journey back was silent. The car driven by Tristan is traveling at a moderate speed towards their hometown.
Kania's heart was pounding more and more as the car began to enter his area. Maghrib and Tristan stopped their cars at a mosque in their village.
After Tristan got back in the car, Tristan immediately grabbed Kania's hand. Convince Kania that everything will be fine.
"Mak Kania ready?" Kania nodded her head. Tristan is back in his car.
After five minutes, Tristan's car, which he bought with his hard work, began to enter the yard. Kania immediately wakes up Shaka who is still fast asleep.
The boy slowly opened his eyes. And let's go when Tristan takes her into a sling. He doesn't ask much. Not even aware if he had ever come to the house with Rama and Kania.
Before entering the house, Tristan reassured Kania. Tristan clasped Kania's cold hands and was sweating from her nervousness.
After making sure Kania was ready, Tristan immediately opened the door and said his regards.
Initially, Karno answered Tristan's greeting with sumringah. A wide smile was engraved on Karno's lips. But that smile dimmed after knowing who was standing behind Tristan.
"Do you want to come here?" said Karno who was as strong as his heart held back emotions.
Not answering, Kania immediately walked towards Karno and knelt before Karno. Even Kania kissed his father's feet with sobs that sounded bitter. "I'm sorry Kania, sir. Forgive Kania for disappointing my mom and dad. I'm sorry Kania embarrassed you and mom." Only an apology can be said.
Karno was silent and did not respond to anything. His heart was still covered in anger. Kania knows his father has not been able to forgive Kania's mistakes that have tarnished the family's good name.
Wening who had just finished his prayer immediately came out to hear the name of Kania and her crying.
How happy his heart is now when he sees his five-year-old daughter who has no news is now in front of him.
"Cania."
Kania looked up to hear her name being called by the woman who had given birth to her. Kania immediately ran towards Wening. The same thing he did, kneeling before Wening and kissing Wening's legs.
"Mother, forgive Kania. Kania has disappointed my father and mother."
In contrast to Karno's response, Wening instantly grabbed Kania's shoulder and swept her to her feet. Wening shed her tears. It was still like a dream to see the child he so longed for now in front of him.
Wening repeatedly kissed Kania's face. Wening also hugged Kania tightly. "How are you doing, son? I miss you" Wening said in a whisper. Maybe only Kania heard it.
"It's much better to meet your father and mother" replied Kania, which made Wening cry even more. "Kania also misses father and mother. I'm sorry, Mom, I let you down."
"It has. I've forgiven you, son. Most of all you repent, ask God for forgiveness."
Kania nodded for sure. "Yes, Mom. Sure."
"He's your son?" wening asked after their embrace came off. Kania nodded then took Shaka from Tristan's sling.
"His name is Shaka, Mom. Shaka, this is grandma, mother's mother's mother. And that's grandpa, mom's dad." Kania introduces her parents to Shaka. "The regime used to be with them, son."
"Handsome and smart granddaughter." Wening received Shaka's hand. Wening also kissed the face of the granddaughter he had just seen for the first time. Even at the age of five.
Shaka also shouts Karno. Karno did not refuse, but also did not do the same thing that Wening did to Shaka.
"Grandmother and grandfather, right, that made the mother cry first."
Shaka's words suddenly made all eyes on Shaka. Kania just remembered, when he had just come from Surabaya, he, Rama, and Shaka had come here but only stopped in front of there.
After staring at Shaka, all of them immediately looked at Kania questioningly. Makes Kania wrong.
"Ehm, I used to come. But Kania has not dared to get out of the car yet" replied Kania who lowered her head. "Shaka, Honey. Grandma and Grandpa never make you cry, really. They're kind. Mother is a crybaby. Lose yes, same Shaka. Shaka right, no crybaby, yeah." Kania tries to dilute the atmosphere despite still feeling afraid of her father who is completely indifferent to her and Shaka.
Kania doesn't matter if her father hasn't been able to forgive Kania. But, at least he could be nice to Shaka. All for the sake of his good name in front of his own grandson.
"Yes already, come in yuk. Mom cooked a lot. Tristan said he wanted to go home and bring a special person. I thought her boyfriend was Tristan. But it turns out the mother's own son."
Kania nodded and took Shaka by the hand to follow her mother into the dining room.
But their steps stopped when Karno spoke firmly. "No one allowed them to enter."
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