Chaos Wedding
Picking Up Loss

Rayhan next to him was still trying to hold back the feeling of tightness inside his chest from these few days. Ever since she found out that, the woman she loved and had a love affair with turned out to be married to another man.

They did not part for long, even he felt that there was no problem in his relationship. It can even be said to be impressed. It never crossed Rayhan's mind that suddenly Bella would get married, and not with him, but with another man.

The last time Bella only told me that she was going to attend the wedding of her parents' best friend's son, not her own wedding.

Rayhan continues to convince himself that Bella is his. But in fact he has lost.

"Have you been planning your wedding with that guy a long time behind me?"

Bella again and again just kept quiet and did not respond to questions from Rayhan. But his head kept thinking about what was the right answer to the question. That answer would not hurt a very good Rayhan.

But even further, he knew the answer would still be wrong for Rayhan. In the end he and Rayhan will never be together, not that he is not in love anymore. But because she was already the wife of Satya, in public and religious.

So, should Bella end it now? Should he really destroy his dream with Rayhan? What if Satya leaves him someday?

But, from the beginning Bella had prepared her heart. He knows that in this case there will be hurt and Bella is ready to take it all.

Slowly Bella lifted her head and looked at Rayhan in a fixed gaze. "M—forgive me, Ray. But .. but I still love him!"

The deg!

After saying the sentence, Bella could only close her eyes for a moment to muffle the pain that suddenly filled the recesses of her heart.

Really, Bella has hurt men as good as Rayhan. It was a painful fact to be accepted, but if he came back thinking about his marriage. About the bond that is closely intertwined between him and Satya. So, this answer is the most appropriate. Bella knew her marriage to Satya was a mistake and did not have a clear vision and mission.

It was just that, things would get even more wrong if he tried to destroy it.

Like it or not, but that's how it is. Bella is now a wife and she has a husband. Everything is different now, and still being tied to the past is going to look worse.

Bella has to end it all. Now too! The sooner he and Rayhan realize, the sooner that healing will begin, although not easy but as before they both will surely get used to it.

Rayhan's two hands clenched tightly, and his jaw tightened violently upon hearing Bella's confession. Really, he felt betrayed all along. How could Bella ever say that sentence, a confession about her feelings for another man.

"You still love him, huh?" rayhan asked in a tone of voice that rose an octave, a sign that his anger was truly unbearable again. "Then as long as I'm with you, how? Or maybe you were just pretending all this time? Just so you know, Bella. You always say the same thing to me, but it turns out it's all a lie."

Bella knows that now she has completely broken Rayhan's heart. Although not the heart, but this is how it should be.

Let Rayhan feel pain now, rather than having to endure longer because he knows that the relationship between the two can no longer be saved. At any time, there will be no future for the relationship.

"Ray, our relationship isn't what you imagined. I wasn't really happy all this time. I don't really feel it when I'm with you, even if being forced as hard as it is will only cause pain. He still had that place."

That's what Rayhan felt. He did not expect that in the end Bella expressed all her heart. Before, she knew something was wrong with Bella, but she believed that as long as Bella was by her side, she was all hers.

It turns out that he was wrong, the relationship they were in meant nothing to Bella. And hearing firsthand the honesty was said by Bella herself, why does it feel more painful?

"Are you trying to say that all the laughter you share with me is a habit? Are you that good at lying that I'm so easily fooled? Why didn't you be honest in the first place, huh?"

Really, Rayhan felt really stupid for having been fooled all out by Bella.

"Now tell me why you're cheating on me? I just want to know why you're so great at hiding feelings that she says are just pretending to be?" rayhan continued back, this time with a stern face.

Actually, Rayhan knew that most likely Bella was lying with her sentence just now. Rayhan knows her well and among all the people Bella has known, she and Bella's little best friend know her well, rayhan will not seek Bella's honesty today.

Rayhan was just curious, is there still a slight possibility of being together, or does it have to end?

Bella did not respond anymore, only her sobs were occasionally heard. He was just trying to stay seated on his chair while enduring the pain that had pierced his heart since earlier.

Really, Bella really didn't want to cry in front of Rayhan, not today. But his tears were completely unstoppable again, the pain became one and made the tears he held back desperately shed as well.

Rayhan pulled Bella's hand and held her tightly. "You know I love you so much, don't you? Please, don't do this to me this time, Bella!"

Once again Bella looked up and looked at Rayhan with a pushy look. "No, Ray. I'm married, with a man who has occupied my heart for a long time. I am happily married to her!"

"Lied!" cut Rayhan hard. "You're not happy, I know you're not happy even though you're married to a man who says your love is unforgettable. I can see that from your eyes, Bella!"

"I'm sorry!"

"Please ..." - Rayhan.

Rayhan was completely unprepared that from today onwards he would never be able to see Bella's beautiful face and laughter again. Rayhan will miss him, miss him so much. And Rayhan's not ready to pick up the loss.

Bella got up from where she was sitting, rushed back to put on her coat. "I'm sorry, Ray!"

Apologies!

That's all Bella can say. He knew, until then he would never be forgiven for hurting people as well as Rayhan. Even if there's a better word to make up for guilt than sorry, maybe Bella will use it as much as she can.

Because he knew, his mistake with Rayhan was huge.