DEAR SAKHA
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"Ran,"

"Hm?"

"Why keep pacing? Is there something you're looking for?" adam— asked the man to look around Rania when he finished bathing and he found Rania pacing around like she was worried about something, even on the other hand he was also like he was busy looking for lost items around there.

"Gue.. confused."

"What about?"

The girl decided to walk and sat on the edge of the bed, followed by Adam.

"Gue is confused as you." The two sat at the same moment.

'Confused by what you're talking about, confused by what you're actually doing. All Dam, all about you probably always will make me confused and do not understand, because yes... You're that hard to make the cave understand. It's so hard for me without asking too many questions.'

"Why is it that when I try to predict one or two things about you, my estimates keep going, Dam? And why go that far? That far from the cave's estimate?"

"Until here you seem to understand what the cave is talking about, the same confusion that the cave means, right?"

"Till here you know, if I no longer discuss my relationship with Baskara, or the guilt of the cave for something you should not see."

"And I need a lot of explanation for that, I want you to make me understand, I want you to tell me the truth. Can you?"

"What do you want to know?"

"Feel feelings maybe."

Again—they looked at each other, glanced at each other, paying attention to each other like someone who was diving.

"The real feeling." Rania repeated again.

"Nobody has to fuss over this relationship, so I don't want to look at you to lie to yourself."

"I want to be honest with myself, with you."

"By saying, that you love the cave?"

"If it really is? Am I not being honest? Am I not lying to myself or to you anymore?"

"Dam, what do you say?" Rania stood up and stared at Adam without thinking. All that confusion—dia felt it back.

"Lo doesn't have to be freak here."

Adam just needs to be him, with his true feelings, Rania doesn't need any lies from the man. Adam also did not have to force anything else for their relationship.

"So don't digress and make me confused as you say." After that Rania stepped away from the mattress, but not yet four steps from there, Adam first pulled it.

"According to you, I accepted this matchmaking completely for no reason?" The question that succeeded made Rania find Adam's existence clearer and closer than the man's side.

"I accepted the match because I believe that I love you."

"Not funny?" Slowly Rania releases Adam's hand with a slanted smile.

"Funny, when you just met me at all and you immediately like me, for me, love at first sight is not really there."

"I don't believe that either."

Rania's forehead is wrinkled.

"Continue?"

Adam let out a light breath.

"Well, don't you believe it, instead of liking people is never that easy? It takes a lot of excuses until you really love that person."

"Gue sense, your speech does not match Sama—"

This time Adam gave a pretty loud bang in Rania's hand, until the girl staggered, lucky Adam managed to catch her, making Rania sit on her lap with a face of panic not play, max, he said,

'What the hell is anjirr?'

"It's like you don't want me at all."

"Ma... The fathom?"

"If you ask not to forget, but the funny thing is that you even forget me so."

"Woii—"

"Don't the origin of motion, our current position is that instant."

"Who do you think, all my hands are like that? All my nangkep? All that making me sit on your lap like a gini? Drama know?"

"Yes, why don't you stand up? Why do I keep sitting on my lap? I honestly have a pegel."

"Oh!!!"

Rania immediately went outside, making the man laugh softly.

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Rania's behavior today is too funny if Adam explains it briefly, the girl continues to glance at Adam from inside his room, not infrequently making Adam confused himself, especially when now he comes out.

"Lo still owes the same explanation cave."

Adam, who had just closed the fridge, looked around for a moment, and found Rania in the dining room with a glass of warm milk she had made.

"Actually I've given you an explanation, but there's a part of you that can't accept it, so it's as if the understanding you're asking me for hasn't been given."

Rania closed her eyes tightly as soon as Adam finished talking, then the girl fixedly looked at Adam.

"Gini deh, you say, you don't trust the same people who can fall in love with each other in seconds, but you how are you?"

"I don't love you in a second."

"Yes on?"

"We knew him before." This time Adam took a step to sit in front of Rania.

"We often play together first, when you were a child, when you were about 6 years old."

"Lo—"

Adam laughed, then interrupted Rania.

"And know what's funny?"

"You proposed to a man who was 7 years older than you, you were in 1st grade, but I dared not get married."

"One question I have, Ran."

At this second, Adam just twirled his glass. Then slowly smile thinly.

"If at that time I was not going anywhere, if at that time I did not go to Jakarta, what about us now?"

"Are we going to get married of our own accord? Or has nothing changed? How do you keep it like this?"

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Rania pov's.

The most I want when I was 6 years old, I always cry every mallem because of the departure of someone, the absence of goodbye, the passing that does not give me an explanation, the passing that does not give me an explanation, the go that can not cave later because it does not know he will return or not, the go that, go that way.

At that time I was very small indeed, but I did not expect, if he would go that simple way.

Even the day before he left me, we were playing from morning until evening, because it happened that day was Sunday, the day before he went actually walked like the usual days, because, he is also not like someone who is in a dilemma because he has to leave his friend, he is not like someone who is worried, he is not like someone who is afraid, so in a few years afterwards, he is not like someone who is afraid, I started thinking, maybe for him, I'm not that important, different from him for me. Maybe for him, I'm nothing, just a snot boy who doesn't have any meaning.

Sometimes I still think of him, sometimes I still often find myself wondering, I guess he has grown up what is it today? How's life? Does he have temen? Is everything easy for him?

And even so, the cave never expected to meet him again, not because I was angry, not because I was sprained because I had no meaning, but yes... there is no desire to see him again.

"Because maybe, to me, which means it's not lo anymore, Dam, but him."

"Ran," He who is now walking to come up to me, in his casual suit, with a fragrance that I can always recognize from afar.

"I'll go out of town again, tired, new padal come. Just met you."

He who every go always tell me, he who every go I can always return later, not like lo.

"Take care of yourself, keep eating, if the work is a lot of effort to keep eating, understand?"

He's not only important to me, but he also makes me feel, if I'm the other way around him, I'm important, I mean.

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