Dejavu
Frictions

"Ning.pleasah.kamu don't be stubborn like this" said Yoga one time.

"I'm saying this because you and Harya are my best friends. I wouldn't have told you this if you weren't my best friend. I also understand, people who are in love is indeed difficult to advise, difficult to separate. But please, you're being a little smarter"

"You mean ?" Tianing began to take offense

"Yes, you don't show too much togetherness in the office.... Everyone can see, and everyone is talking about you Ning...Circle our office is a lot of people you know Ning.hundredan.and they can every time see you guys" explained Yoga.

"What do they see when we do ? Doing the wrong thing ? Don't you. We just ate together. And those in the cafeteria, too. We used to say we went on.... Now eating in the office canteen is still being talked about !" tianing jutek replied

"Duvuuhhh..Ning...Ning..kamu this is just pretending to be stupid or really stupid or reckless ! it's hard talking about people who are in love !" Calm yoga starts to get high tension.

"Emang if already married can not ya have a friend who is the opposite sex ? Wahh.padah from school and college, my best friend is more a boy than a girl. Because the guy is not baperan, as it is, not complicated. Different if the girl..Most baperan trus outside and inside the heart like different !" Tianing argued at length.

"whateverlah.gw already ingetin" Yoga despair.

Tianing is stubborn indeed.

"People don't understand what I'm feeling" he insisted. His heart always fought...

"Maybe you think I've gone from being innocent to being a bad person. But you know.I used to be very proud, anti say sorry on the grounds because I never had any evil intentions or hurt others. I never said thank you, for never asking anyone to help me. I never expect others to thank me because when I help others I am sincere and do not expect anything, so if someone else helps me then they should be sincere and not expect my thanks. I always speak harshly for who I am, arguing that what I say is true. I who do not know the word excuse me before and even tend to like to rule people. I do not understand the meaning of the word patience and how to be patient. Even I cannot say My word, but Me. Can't say He, but He ..so I know him, I can do it all.

He taught me the words Sorry, Thank you, Excuse me, Me, He taught me how to be patient, he taught me to be more respectful and respectful of others. He who forged me became a more mature figure....

I who previously could only convey everything in an angry and emotional way, he taught me that all things could be solved by talking well.

He turned me, who used to be like a wildflower into a beautiful flower in a well-kept pot.

You might think that my closeness to her would ruin our household. There may even be some of you who bet, how long will our household last...

As soon as I get to know him, my household is much better. What you don't know.maybe my household has been completed since yesterday-since yesterday, if I don't know him. Maybe I'm still in this world or not..."

But all of those answers are always just within him. Tianing had never conveyed to anyone what he felt, and what kind of change he had experienced. Because he is aware, whatever the reason people still will not believe. To others, he was wrong. Point.

Verily his heart aches at all times to the scorn of those around him. People look down on him, people think negatively of him. Truly Tianing realized what he was doing was not good. Whatever the reason, he shouldn't be with Harya often.

In one day he could feel very happy, but on one side there was pain that he felt as well.

But still all the advice of his friends was not heeded. In the end make his friends one by one away from him. Painful innuendos were often directed at him..

"sad me. He has corrupted you.you who were innocent, vandalized and played with men who were just a prank"

"All men like that are the same Ning, say it's the love outside it's good, but it's actually just a fad, crocodile. If the woman responds, it's like a welcome dipper"

"whose name is cheating, it depends on the woman. If the woman does not respond, it will not happen. That is why she is mentally strong and a strong woman of faith"

"when you break up.2 years ago"

"sir, when to repent"

"sir, you if again ML same husband mayanginnya same him yes"

"hedeeww.no shame, go same man"

and many other insinuations.

Attacks from his roommates are also increasingly intense.

When the Head of Service mutation occurred, Tianing's office got a new Head of Service. The Head of this Office used to be a duty in that office as well, so Tianing's office friends are familiar with it. They call him Boss. Even this Boss was the one who used to recruit Tianing friends who had been in contract status, so that later he eventually became a PNS. They have more emotional closeness.

The opportunity was used by them to attack and excommunicate Tianing. All the bad reports about Tianing were relayed to Boss.

In the end Boss disliked Tianing.

Tianing was sad.but he could not do anything.

He felt that the office was not conducive.

"Sister, last night I had a dream.I was chased by two panthers. But I was in a place above them that was unreachable. Then I mocked the two panthers because they couldn't reach me. Then big brother came to remind me to be careful and not to mock them, afraid that I might slip" Tianing told one day to Harya.

Tianing.

It's not just the office circle that's been away from him. Tianing began to suspect, his wife Harya knew something.

One day during the King's birthday, they came to Tianing's house. And stupid Tianing. He could not hide his happiness when near Harya. Arin, Harya's wife caught Tianing and Harya flirting. Arin was silent, but there was a pique there.

"Sir.it seems that Arin is aware of our closeness" Tianing conveyed this to Harya.

"Can be..mata Adek it you know.not can lie. Tomorrow again be careful deck, control Adek's eyes full of love if there are many people" said Harya

"If Arin knew how ?"

"Looks like he knows, at least suspiciously" Harya replied lightly.

"What ?!!. Keep ?"

"I want to tell Adek now, yes." continued Harya.

"What story ?" Tianing started to put on a serious face.

" When that was when we had a big fight" Harya started to open up the conversation.

Tianing silently watched as he sipped his drink.

" I've told you before, right, that his mother Tika was more obedient to her father than me, her husband. His father who has not liked me for a long time. Who always insulted me because I was considered a nobody, had nothing, was not comparable to his family.I who was not considered, could not make his daughter happy. When angry always say sorry for marrying his son to me" for a moment Harya was silent.

"When there's a family meeting. I was asked to move to the Jogja Regional Government so that we could stay at Jogja's house. He will take care of it, considering he was once the Head of the Service there. The reason, because his new wife does not feel at home if you stop by my contract, which is considered ugly and not clean. Every time he comes, he must always stop by the hotel just to go to the toilet and clean the body. And her mother Tika asked to buy this just so that her stepmother felt at home when she came to our rented house. Since Ibu Jogja died, Mr. His attitude has become increasingly and uncontrolled. But her mother Tika and her brother were like people who had no such stance. They seem to have been indoctrinated from childhood Father so they did not dare to fight Father at all, although obviously the Father was wrong" Harya's face seemed increasingly sad.

"I said, I don't want to because I'm more comfortable in Solo. We finally had a fight. Her mother Tika defended her Father constantly and did not want to understand my feelings. He did not understand that my self-esteem would be further trampled if I lived in Jogja. His father would be more insulting and hostile to me. We had a big fight, until I finally asked him to choose his Father or me. She cried. Mother who happened to be here was also crying. Mom asked me to stick with her mom Tika. If not for Mother's message, I prefer to end my household with her mother Tika" explained Harya.

" Why is sister telling me now ?" Tianing.

"Why not just move to Jogja ? It's a pity that his house there is so big that no one is empathetic" said Tianing, although inwardly feeling sad as Harya moved in real.

"Are you sure you want me to move ?" harya asked as if understanding Tianing's heart.

Tianing gulped.

"Yes if that's the best." Tianing replied pretending to be wise.

"I don't want to" Harya replied firmly and a sharp look on Tianing's eyes.

"I don't want to be separated from Adek. I've told her many times how her big family behaved towards me. Can you separate from me ? If Adek forces me to move and separate from Adek I better end my life. I have often thought about that. And it was Adek who kept me afloat. Adek even often defended his mother Tika"

Tianing's esophagus was like choking. "Can't think so brother.yes sorry, I more often mbelain mbak Arin if brother confide, maybe because we are both women, maybe because we are both women, Arin said, so I'm just trying to explain to my sister in terms of women's thoughts and feelings. Brother do not divorce from mbak Arin.kasian Tika is still a child, kasian mother too, surely he will be sad"

Tianing explained at length, even though in his little heart he was actually expecting the breakup, but his common sense and logic were still the way and defeated his ego.

"Well, I'll stick with Tika's mom because that's what Mom and Adek are asking for"

Tianing. Verily his heart is as slashed with pain.

"Then, his relationship with it seems like he knows what our closeness is ?" Tianing.

"Tika's mother seems to have known, only she did not dare to bring it up. He was afraid I would divorce him.

Tianing auto dizzy.

While on the other hand, Fahri had started to protest loudly. One day he was angry because Tianing preferred to follow Harya's recommendation rather than Fahri's.

"Any word Harya, nothing according to Harya. Yes ! he is much better than me. But I am your husband ! Adek should listen more to me than follow all the words Harya !!"

Ever since she got close to Harya, Tianing had not realized, she had put more emphasis on Harya than her own husband.

One thing that Tianing later realized, It turned out that in his heart now there were only King and Harya...

His household, which he thought was getting better, was actually not okay, but because Tianing became indifferent to Fahri's daily attitude, so they rarely quarreled.