Dejavu
First Kiss

Almost three years Tianing had a special relationship with Harya. Many changes occurred in Tianing's life. But until now he did not know where the relationship was going.

"Sister.I want to have a serious talk with brother" Tianing asked that afternoon.

"Yuk. Let's get out first yes. Find a good place to chat" Harya replied quickly

Then they left the office that afternoon and headed to a place in the hills. A cool, beautiful place, with views of mountains, hills and cities that look far below. The place is only crowded visitors during weekends or holidays. So the afternoon was quiet, and the two of them could chat casually.

"Sister.actually our relationship is going to be taken where the hell.." Tianing's voice looked desperate. Harya silently looked at Tianing.

"We're actually just messing around, right?" those words just slid out of Tianing's mouth. While his eyes were blank, his facial expression was flat.

" Three years is not a short time. And my feelings for my sister are getting stronger and stronger. I told you that I also often experience dejavu. Every moment with my sister, I feel like I've experienced it before. I feel like I've known brother for a long time" Tianing's eyes started to tear up.

"I want to be with my full brother.For the rest of my life I have never felt the happiness, tranquility and comfort that I felt when I was close to my sister. For me, you are my guardian angel. Brother saved me from the destitution of life..." Tianing was already unable to stem his tears.

" But brother. lately I've been feeling very sad. All the attitudes, words, even the way people look at me are painful. It's not fair that I'm the only one feeling stressed about people, while my sister is untouchable. I noticed that people are still reluctant to share with their siblings, yes I know that because they are smart to hang out and behave with people. But while I. people blaspheme all out. I sometimes to think.indeed I'm cheating the same ghost what yes, why the only one who is blasphemed is me, while brother is not"

"Who say I no one blasphemes ? Many Decks, just all I did not respond and I did not think" replied Harya

"Many naughty friends who convey their astonishment Dek..Why I choose Adek.Why do I take the risk to deal with mas Fahri while all know what kind of Fahri mas ? they said I should be able to find a young, beautiful one. But if I am asked why Adek, yes I do not know.which I know I love Adek" explained Harya with a smile and ruffled Tianing's hair.

"Yes anyway. It is also painful to see beautiful young mothers who like to be spoiled like sister. As if their eyes were saying, He Tianing Loe was not worthy of Harya's tenets. Beautiful baseball, slim baseball, tall baseball, pinter baseball, friendly baseball, meek also not soft. There is no special-istimewanya but dare to be close to the handsome, supple, friendly, pinter Brother anyway" Tianing chimed in jealousy. Harya just smirked at Tianing.

"I feel as if all the blame is just being inflicted on me, while Brother is not being blamed because brother is being nice to everyone. That hurts brother....I also think we can't possibly unite. There are too many walls separating us." Tianing said sadly.

"What wall of separation does Adek mean ? every day we're together, yes even though it can't be completely anyway"

"Sister.the brother thinks not tho. We both have families.In addition, which is clearly impossible as well.we have different beliefs" Tianing difficult to continue.

"Sir.all of that depends on the way we think. If we want to make a difference, we have to make a difference. But if we're looking for similarities, we're going to have some similarities"

"But I don't think I can take it. It's painful to remember we have no hope and no future. Looks like we should end our relationship. If indeed we are paired, it will definitely be reunited" Tianing said stammered as he rubbed the clear feather on his cheek.

"Who say we have no hope ? If we separate, we have no future. Don't deck, we don't split" Harya assured.

"But we walk in place, sister. We both don't have the courage to make a big decision. We are both cowards" Tianing lowered his head.

"Not a coward Deck.but we still have to use logic. I just don't want to hurt anyone, not even Fahripun. Adek wants to hurt ? no. kan. We just go like this, I'm sure someday there will be a way, if it's time"

"One day when ? when is it sure ? until old ? grandpa grandma ?"

"If it's time, why not ? I'm just trying to be smart because I don't want to hurt anyone, things haven't been on our side, that's all. But I really depend on Adek. If indeed Adek is ready and brave, come on.we both leave our families, even resign from PNSpun I am ready. Is adek ready ?" harya said suddenly firmly.

Tianing was shocked, his heart shriveled at Harya's statement, as he actually did not have the slightest bit of courage to do that. But his stubbornness did not allow him to give up so easily.

"Trus finished it ? brother want to follow my religion ?" just say Tianing

"Why isn't Adek coming with me ?" Harya tried to reverse the question.

"Because it'd be easier for us if brother came with me. Our circle will be more accepting if it is like that" Tianing argued.

"Aren't you going ?" Tianing pretended to be challenging, but did not expect Harya's answer

Tianing became speechless, thinking of seeking denial again...

"But I want the King and Tika to come with us"

Harya sighed..

"I can't force Tika to come with me or not"

"But I can't live without the King." Tianing's voice softly.

"Well, right....Adek was actually aware that Adek actually did not have the courage to make a big decision.

Actually Tianing was aware of that...

"Sister love me ?"

"sad"

"Just baby ? brother does not love me, is it the same ?"

"love"

"but sister also loves her mother Tika"

"Because she's my son's mother. But if I can choose, I choose Adek"

Tianing cried even more. She was really upset, not knowing exactly what she wanted.

When logic speaks, he wants to end his relationship with Harya.

When the heart speaks, he wants to have Harya completely.

But when the opportunity was had, he had absolutely no courage.

He really felt like a loser and a coward.

"Here-here brother hugs" suddenly Harya grabbed Tianing and hugged him tightly.

"Patience is.Don't cry. Brother ask us not to part, there will be a way. Brother dear Adek, brother is already at the level of can not be separated from Adek, it's as deep as that deck.." Harya's voice calms.

Tianing looked up at Harya. Trying to find reassurance in Harya's eyes, Harya looks at her closely, and finally their lips fuse together in a soft, warm, deep and long kiss to strengthen each other. Trying to embrace each other's souls.

It was their first hug and kiss after three years they were almost every day together, after three years of trying to survive the abuse and bad judgment of people.

They hugged for a long time.as if they didn't want to let go. Strengthening each other to face the world..

It doesn't feel like it's afternoon...

"Luvy.." Harya kissed Tianing's forehead gently

"Luvya sis.."