Fazila Tipan From Heaven
Grief

Since childhood, my mom and dad always filled everything I needed, there was no room for me to complain. I love everything my mom and dad have planned for me.

To my extended family, I am a person they are very proud of.

The world seemed to revolve under my feet, every thing I wanted seemed to be presented in a serving bowl without having to bother looking for it. Whether this is a blessing or a punishment, I really enjoy it.

"Today at 10:30 pm Miss Seren will arrive at Soekarno Hatta airport. The boss will pick her up straight away, or will I pick her up myself?"

Bobby, this secretary I hired two years ago is really noisy. He didn't let me enjoy my day for a while. Even so I trusted him deeply, there was no one else better than him who was suitable to be next to me.

Seren is the mother's chosen woman I've been betrothed to. She's the graceful girl who stole my heart at first sight. His face shone like the Moon, his skin was white, his nose was sharp, his lips were thin and his eyes were snaring at me. I couldn't take my eyes off her pretty face, as if that beauty had become an opium to me.

Five years ago I managed to pin the ring on his fingers, but until now he always refused to be invited to guarantee for reasons of his career.

Careerrr???

I hate that word, even so I always agreed to her request to remain a model that had a fairly solid flight clock.

This past year, I met him only twice. Maybe that's why I don't miss him too much. Even if I knew that, nothing could take its place in my heart.

I miss her fragrant body and her warm embrace.

I can't wait to see it. Even so, I will sit quietly waiting for his arrival in my study.

"What is my agenda today?"

"This afternoon the boss will meet with representatives of BC Group companies, and in the afternoon there will be a Malaysian party who will come to the company to establish cooperation according to the plan of the boss agenda."

"I'll wait in my office, call me right away if you find Seren."

Bobby nodded while thrusting out the cooperation file that I should sign immediately.

"You don't have to drive me! I'll go in by myself, I don't want Seren waiting too long."

Bobby nodded while bowing his level body, saluting in his way.

For the past five years I have been very busy developing a family company that has been around since the eighties. It can be said that I am a hard figure who is always eager to develop pent-up potential.

I'm a bitch, but in my dictionary, I wouldn't hurt anyone. Don't even think about teasing me because I hate people who dare to defy me. Once that man tries to point his finger at me, then I swear on my mother's behalf, I will break his hand with all my abilities.

"Hhhhhhstt. Lower your voice, Mr. Alan has come." Said one of the thin-bodied female employees while putting an index finger on her lips.

"Good morning sir." Everyone greeted with a smile, because it was the ethics of an employee at the boss.

I could only show off the best smile I had to calm them down. The better a superior is at his subordinates, the better they will be at his job.

My heart is pounding so hard, I can't wait for the arrival of Seren, the beloved heart I crave so much.

"What binds you until you're so hard pressed to say, 'let's get married' I miss the moment you woke up next to me for the first time." My dirty thoughts started to bother me. I have to control myself until you're halal to me.

It.tokk.Tokk.

The sound of knocking on the door managed to disperse the erotic thoughts from earlier dancing in my mind.

"Sorry to Alan. Bobby called, said Miss Seren not found on any flight!"

"What?" I was shocked as I stood up from my oversized chair. It feels impossible, Seren my pride is unlikely to cancel our plans without notice.

"That's right, Alan. Even Bobby checked all the Airline, unfortunately Miss Seren's name wasn't on their list." Said Iklima Bobby's cousin who at once crawled into his personal assistant.

My knees were limp, I grabbed my phone by the shirt, pressed Bobby's number with mixed feelings. Sad and hurt.

You're where? No way! How dare you! If you're wrong, I'll kill you. I turned off my phone when I heard Bobby say, how dare a lowly person like him insult my Seren. Even if I trusted him so much, I would not let him insult my love.

Clinggg...!

As promised Bobby sent vidio WhatsApp, vidio that I do not know what the contents are.

Bosses. Miss Seren won't be coming. Should the boss leave the woman, the boss deserves a woman who is much better than the wolf woman in sheep's hair.heard Bobby say my blood was boiling, it was boiling, I'd love to punch a mouth that dares to insult the woman I love so much.

Slowly I started opening the vidio that Bobby sent me.

My eyes widened, my breath rose and fell irregularly, my body felt like a bolt of lightning. It hurts, it hurts so much. Disappointed, angry, hurt, disgusted, all mixed into one. I threw the phone to pieces. The priest who saw me just stood there, I think he felt sorry for me. And me? I hate it when someone pityes me.

"Sir Alan, are you okay?" Ask Iklima still with a pity attitude.

There was not a word that came out of my lips other than waving a hand hinting Iklima left me alone in my sunshade.

I'm shattered. Completely destroyed. The happiness I am proud of is like dew evaporating into the air. I ran to the bathroom.

Huekkk. Huekkk. Huekkk.

Everything I ate for breakfast this morning came out. Seeing Seren's vidio making out with another peria made me vomit.

I feel disgusted at Seren. And I'm even more disgusted at myself, I could love a bitch like her. It was only fitting that every time he asked her to marry me, he always had a reason that I could not understand.

I grabbed the suit I attached to the back of the chair, leaving behind a company that felt like hell.

The climax I met at the door of my room was silent with a face that was almost crying. Does he feel my pain? Aahh it's impossible, we're not that close.

For a while I wouldn't be able to work, my sadness felt chest-splitting.

If I hadn't been so blind in loving her, maybe the pain wouldn't have been this severe.

This sadness? Can I survive the pain?

Did we not stretch out for you your breasts.

And we have removed from you your burden.

Which weighs down your back

And we raise up for you your name (name).

Because after the difficulty there is ease.

After the difficulty there is ease. (Qs.94:1-6).

Where I'm going to go, I'm not even that close to God. The Lord whom you have always spoken is Most Merciful and Most Merciful.

Bismillaahir Rahmaanir Rahiim's.

The Name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful.

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