Fazila Tipan From Heaven
From Heart to Heart (Part2)

The car driven by Abi Fazila slid quickly, penetrating a fairly stiff road. Usually at this hour I get stuck on the street, stuck in a long traffic jam, and of course every time it happens it makes me always sigh rudely.

During the trip, not a word came out of our lips. We just sat quietly while focusing on each other's thoughts. I accidentally opened the glass so I could breathe fresh air, hoping that this awkwardness would disappear as the caress of the night breeze felt very soothing.

"Can we talk for a second? There's something important I want to ask you! I don't know if it's important or not to you. But for me, it's very, very, very important. I don't want to be happy on top of other women's suffering." I said while looking ahead.

I really don't know what Abi Fazila was thinking after hearing my brief words. He even stopped his car right in front of the magnificent building, in front of him were two guards on duty. I don't know where we are.

I faintly heard Abi Fazila talking to the two burly men while showing off her charming smile, a smile that for the first time I dared to secretly see. Was he also always smiling like that in front of that haughty woman? I don't know, I didn't know that myself.

"Ask whatever Ummi Fazila wants to ask. I know clearly that Umm Fazila is thinking about something right now, and it's definitely not a good thing. Am I wrong?" Abi Fazila broke the silence after we were in the room that read VVIV.

For a moment I fell silent while looking at Abi Fazila's beautiful face.

"Yahhhhhhhhh... Thas right. I have a question and I need an answer. Abi Fazila's answer will determine what our next journey will be.

A few hours ago, I met a graceful woman. It has a perfect beauty, a beauty that will make all men fascinated even glare by its beautiful charm. I just forgot his name. If it is not wrong, its name is Ses... Ser... Ahhh yes, I remember, her name was Seren." I said without further ado. My head is still down, I try to keep my eyes on it.

A few months ago I had heard Bu Yati and her friends talk badly about me, they said I was just a single parent who was insensitive to my daughter. Furthermore, they said I didn't need to be a picky woman and just get married without having to care about my pride. Honestly, I was very upset to hear their words. How dare they say I don't have to care about my pride!

A woman's self-esteem lies in her way of behaving, in her way of acting, and in her way of speaking. How can I ignore my pride while I know my God is always watching me, and one of the ways I maintain my self-esteem is by keeping my eyes on him, keeping him from a man who is not lawful to me, including Abi Fazila.

Huhhhhhh!

My sense of hearing caught the sound of Abi Fazila's rough breathing. Was he angry at hearing my words? Or did I open his old wound? I don't know, I can't guess just from hearing her rough breathing.

"Did my words make Abi Fazila feel burdened? I'm sorry for that. It's just..." I hung my sentence while being silent for a moment. In the meantime, not a word came out of Abi Fazila's words.

"I don't want to be involved in a triangular relationship. If Abi Fazila still loves him, Abi Fazila can come back to him. Don't think of us, I don't want to just because Fazila your happiness is delayed.

I don't want to be happy on top of other women's suffering. Five years engaged? I'm sure there's been a lot of good memories between you two." Say it again without hesitation.

The owner of the beautiful face showed off a smile, he looked at my face that was still perfectly bowed. While me? I kept quiet while hearing his short answer.

"It takes two hands to clap. While me? I can't be with that woman anymore."

Abi Fazila began to open his voice, and his voice sounded very upset, a few seconds later he fell silent again while staring in the other direction.

"If I'm not mistaken, I used to mention Seren."

Abi Fazila again opened his voice between the silence of the air. I, Fatimah Azzahra can only remain silent while hearing her defense.

"I'm just a workaholic. Many times Mama tried to match me with her business partner's children. Too bad, nothing has moved my heart, as if it were made of stone." Abi Fazila fell silent again, I think he was thinking about what he would say next.

"One day when Mama accidentally met a woman, he talked to her long enough until he finally decided his choice fell on her, Seren. The choice to set me up again.

Like Ummi Fazila said before! I was fascinated by the beauty in front of me. I didn't even blink while I was by his side. Being around him made me fall in love.

I never realized that my love for Seren grew as time went on. Can you get engaged to him? I feel like there's no one luckiest in the world but me.

I asked him many times to get married. And many times he rejected me when we were engaged for five years. He had only one reason that his work was so valuable to him. And of course I know that's why I never get in the way of being happy."

Abi Fazila fell silent again, he took a deep breath and then exhaled it rough from his lips. I was still late in silence, I was still digesting every hurup that he strung into words. There is a lot of love in her sweet memories. Again I thought as if my daughter and I were a barrier to happiness. He doesn't need to be responsible for anything.

"When I waited for his arrival and asked him to marry me, like being struck by lightning in the middle of a hole, I found the harsh reality that Seren had spent the night with another man.

I feel like I'm gonna puke seeing what Seren is doing behind my back. Compared to my anger at her, I'm much more disgusted at myself for loving the wrong woman."

Again Abi Fazila was silent while taking a deep breath and then exhaled rough from the lips. For a moment I ventured

to look at the netra. That handsome face looks frustrated, I myself was confused to see the facial expression of his look. Was he so sorry for the past that his face looked withered? I don't know, I didn't know that myself. Just guessing and then making bad comments is not my forte.

L'm... Fatimah Azzahra will never hurt anyone whether by oral or written. Every bad thing we say to others comes back to ourselves. What is the point of insulting others? And what's the point of hurting other people's feelings. Sad and happy? Likes and sorrows? That feeling will not last because I know only God is eternal.

"I was disgusted at myself for loving such a big person but there was nothing else I could get but grief.

I tried to escape from that harsh reality, and Umm Fazila knew what happened next? Worse things await me.

I'm an Alan Wijaya who's always trying not to hurt anyone's heart ends up committing the besssar's sin!"

Abi Fazila's tone sounded heavy, so heavy that I myself did not quite clearly hear every word he said and...

Bruckkk!

The big body sat down in front of me. He was crying while hiccuping. While me? Not a word came out of my thin lips. I was still shocked by everything I heard and saw.

Really am... I wanted to tell her not to kneel again. I've forgiven him and I don't want to burden his feelings. What's wrong with me now? Instead of saying something, I grabbed her arm and helped her sit back in the chair she was sitting in earlier.

I'm not an adulterer! And I'm not a liar either. What happened in the past is very sad. And the wounds of his pain I still feel.

Hhhmmmmm!

Now it was my turn to sigh violently, Abi Fazila's handsome face looked pale. I'm sure he's really sorry for what he did.

"I know what happened in the past is very bad. Had I known something bad would happen, I would never have shown my face in that place.

From whose womb we are born, we cannot choose that. And long before we are created, the Power has determined the destiny of life that we will live. My destiny is to conceive and give birth without a husband! And it's my destiny to have a daughter as perfect as Meyda Noviana Fazila.

Don't regret the past anymore, we'll both set the future in order to be the perfect parents for our daughter. I have the answers to every question. Now I'm ready to stand beside you, build a household with you. And share your joys and sorrows with you.

But... Before that, you should ask for Kiai Hasan and Nyai Latifa's blessing. They are like real parents to me. No need for a magnificent party or dowry worth billions of rupiah. I just want Abi Fazila to love Fazila and make up for every moment when she's never been with him. That's enough for me." I said in a soft voice while looking at the handsome face of Abi Fazila.

That problem can happen at any time, but better than that we all want to solve the problem immediately. Today, I tried to talk heart to heart with him. There's nothing better than that. I'm more and more convinced that the decision I made and choosing to stay by his side was a good thing for us to be together.

The past will always be a valuable lesson so as not to be repeated again in the future. The past remains the past, let everything remain behind and strive for a future, a happier future.

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