FOR HER SAKE
Living Safely Dead Not Want

Alvin ran along the hospital corridor. She was at home accompanying Tiara to play so as to divert the mind of her child from her mommy'nya who never came home. Until finally Alvin heard Nurin contact him and said if now he had to go to the hospital immediately signed an agreement for curettage because his wife had just had a miscarriage.

Alvin sculpted and dropped the phone attached to his ear when he heard the news. The news shook him, some time ago when they honeymoon Alvin hopes will soon grow a second child in the womb of his wife. And now when the news came he heard the moment of his loss.

Alvin told his mother to tell Karina's mother. Alvin went straight to the hospital right then and there. Breaking through many traffic lights does not matter with the screams of people driving around. All he cared about now was his wife lying in the hospital.

Alvin blames himself for the loss of their second child. This would not have happened if it had not been for her actions that she herself was unaware of. Tears poured down all the way to the hospital and the ER room.

When he got to the front of the ER where Ray, Nurin and his other friends were waiting for Alvin to ask the whereabouts and condition of his wife. Until the nurse came out and called her to sign the consent letter.

A crackling of steps sounded in the corridor towards them. Alvin didn't see who was coming. He was so overwhelmed with guilt and worry about his wife's current state that a slap flew to his left cheek.

" What are you doing with Alvin's daughter ??!! Even she left your house nobody told you ??!! Even though you have married her does not mean that you do not have the right to know the situation now ??!! " Mother Karina was very shocked when she found out her son had a miscarriage. And even more shocked when he found out that Shevi had not returned to the house of his best friend and Lyra's friend for two days.

" Sorry bun.. " Alvin stood up and looked down. There were no other words on his mind at the moment. Only an apology can he say.

" From the beginning it was just sorry you said Alvin.. But in fact again - again you hurt the mother's child "Mother Karina sobbed. Feel sad about his son's current fate.

" But bun.. Alvin did nothing - what "Alvin looked into his in-laws' eyes with a look begging to believe.

" Do you think you will believe.. while the mother's own child who caught you sleeping naked with other women ??!! Do you think we are so stupid vin... until you repeatedly hurt your children ??!! "

" If Julian finds out, he won't forgive you this time. Because Julian hates infidelity the most. Maybe he will immediately register your divorce at this time also "Alvin bought his eyes to hear the words - said mother and immediately knelt hugging the feet of his father-in-law.

" I beg bun.. Don't tell Julian.. I don't want to be separated from my wife and son bun "Alvin crying and begging at the feet of his in-laws.

Mami Lyra just sighed she was not able to defend Alvin because Alvin himself was guilty. Although he also did not want his son and daughter-in-law to separate but he could not prohibit if indeed Shevi wanted a separation between them.

" You are calm.. Mommy won't tell Julian.. Because mother appreciates whatever decision Shevi later "Alvin was relieved to hear it.

" Including if he wants to divorce you "Alvin immediately gasped to hear an additional sentence from Mother Karina.

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Shevi's eyes were empty. There was no more light in his eyes. Tears kept flowing in both eyes. But Shevi did not speak or was hysterical when she was told she was having a miscarriage by a doctor.

Mother Karina was even more worried about seeing her child like this. It is better for Shevi to cry hysterically and let out her sadness than to be silent like dying unwillingly. Shevi is alive but like a dead man who doesn't want to talk or eat anything. Once mother forced Shevi to eat, but Shevi was angry and hysterically threw the plate containing the food. So that no one else dared to force anything to Shevi. All he did was cry silently and fall asleep when he was tired.

Bayu and Shera also came. Shera sobbed - sedu hugged her twin sister who lost a child in her womb. Shera also felt the sadness and pain that his brother felt.

Shevi's friends also come every day and tell me about their activities. So are Shevi's parents and in-laws.

The word that came out of Shevi's mouth was only a soft whisper when Alvin first visited her.

" Let's kill my son vi... It's you who made me lose my son.. Before I even knew he existed.. Why vinn ??.. Why are you the same with me ??.. Why do you think my son left me.. ?? Why don't I go with him.. ?? Why does God love my son and I don't..?? Is it my fault that I suffer like this ??" Shevi never again made her voice.

Many came but were considered non-existent by Shevi. The woman was immersed in her own world. Drowning in sadness and deep loss. The sense of loss seemed to draw him deeper without letting Shevi take a little breath. That feeling stifled his chest. Shevi seemed to want to die because she could not bear that feeling.

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Today Alvin invites Tiara to visit his mommy. Alvin couldn't bear to see his wife like that. And hopefully Tiara can bring Shevi back into the world as it should.

" Why is mommy in the hospital dad ?? " The boy was confused when picked up at school by his daddy' and invited him to visit his mommy's in the hospital.

" Mommy's sick baby.. Mommy lost her baby sister.. You'll entertain mommy, baby "Alvin saw his son sitting in the seat beside the wheel.

" Losing a baby sister ?? " Tiara put her eyes out and opened her mouth making Alvin smile with both anxiety and sadness.

" Why did her baby sister go dad ?? Does the baby's sister not love mommy and Ara ?? " Task the girl plain.

" Baby sister is very affectionate with mommy and Tiara. But God loved baby sister more and took her back "Tiara bent her head sadly.

" Tiara can't be sad.. Tiara must be cheerful so that mommy comes back cheerful.. Mommy is currently very sad because of the loss.. So Tiara has to cheer up mommy.. Yes ?? " Alvin rubbed his son's head.

" Yes daddy.. Ara promises not to be sad in front of mommy "Tiara smiles towards Alvin.

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The child is a treasure in our lives.. Love our child while we can hold her.. Don't be sorry when we lose them or when they grow up and leave us to work far away or stay home 💕