Grabbing Asa
Grief News
“aaaaa sick, Mbak” shouted Rara from inside the room, I approached Rara who was already lying limp holding her aching stomach.
“Ra, are you strong way to Hospital?,” Do you worry
“Mbak, where are we from?,” asked Faris
“sssst, it's none of your business, help Mbak bring Rara,”
…
We waited in front of the ER, waiting in a state of anxiety, Rara had been inside for a very long time but the doctor had not come out yet. Fear approached me, fearing the loss of my loved ones. Nah! God please don't take my sister. The doctor came and asked me to go to his room.
“We must check it further, Mom,” said the doctor
“How about further inspection? My sister is okay, right?” My voice was high, honestly in my heart there was fear, fear of losing my loved ones.
“Yes, we have to do amnanesis, then USG, blood and radiology check. Later we will know, whether the intestines are inflamed, red or blooming,” explained the doctor
“usus? Did you mean my sister's doctor had colitis?” ask me not sure. The doctor nodded
“What's the cost, Doc?,” you later
“About 8,000,000,” He said
“8.000.000?,” I asked again
“Yes, and this must be dealt with immediately, otherwise your sister's condition will get worse, for payment please finish to the administration,” he said
“well, thank you” I walked out, down the hospital corridor, accidentally I saw a man who was about 45 years old was holding a beautiful woman.
“Ayah” call me
The man turned around and looked shocked when he saw me. Yes, he's my father, the father who has left mother and us his children. Ah, the father who left just because I prefer the woman next to him. My father dragged my hand away from the woman.
“Don't call me Dad in front of a crowd!” he said full of emphasis
“What you need, just say, later I will love,” he said later
“Rara is sick, she needs to be operated,” I said with trembling lips holding back tears
“I will finance, but I can't right now because I'm in a hurry and don't ever show up in front of me again,” he said and left me
I cried, as sick as this did he feel rejected by his own father? This pain? The almost dry wound was now wet again. I pressed my chest that felt tight. It hurts! I hate him, hate the man who abandoned us. Hating people who have made you suffer.
“Mbak, Mbak is okay?” Faris came over and hugged me
I cried in Faris' arms, my mind leading me to reminisce, where we were still fine before the tragedy.
“Sick, Ris,” my word raucous
“Mbak, sorry Faris has not been able to help anything,” said Faris
“Mbak, Mbak” my eyes closed I heard Faris shout my name before my eyes closed perfectly.
…
My eyes blinked slowly, I saw Faris staring blankly towards the front. The same look as when Mom left us.
“Ris, what happened?,” I said approaching
“Mbak, Rara left,” she replied
“Why go, Ra? Mbak.. Mbak” I can't continue my speech.
Rara's body was brought home and buried near her grave. I lost someone I loved. I would never hear her sound again, no one would wake me up in the middle of the night when she whined because she couldn't sleep. Ah, I'm definitely gonna miss him a lot. Faris stayed in the room, I don't know what she was thinking. I'm not strong at home, not strong to see Faris silent. I ran and headed to the park, sitting there until late at night.
“Mbak, help Mom here,” says Mom
“Mbak, called Mom,” said Rara in a spoiled voice
“Iya, Ma'am listen,”
“Mbak, later if we have money we go for a walk yes, Mbak, Rara, same Mother,”ucap her cheerfully
“Mas, kok gk invited?,” said Faris
“No, Mas because it's nosy, Rara gk like” he said softened
All the memories that in my brain are twisted clearly in memory, nostalgia makes my throat choked, my eyes blurred because of the tears that accumulate in the eyes. Suddenly my feet were like jelly, I was no longer able to support my body. I sleep on the green grass.
“I want to be like a star, he was never alone” My free hand moves abstractly like it is reaching for a star
“Dad, we will take a walk yes,” I said
“iya, later if Daddy has off yes, Ma'am,” replied dad
“Mas also Want to come, Dad,” said Faris
“hmm later we all go for a walk,” replied dad
I went back to nostalgia, made my heart feel pain again, I learned a lot from Dad, Dad is a place for me to tell stories, a place for me to complain, but that was long ago, long ago when I didn't know the woman. I don't feel my tears falling back. If time can be repeated, I want to repeat it, a time when everything is fine. When my family revels, enjoy her beautiful happy little family. I miss my old family, long for a warm family.
“Why is everything so painful? I always say pain without anyone knowing, I never tell you where the hurt is, my heart is broken, I always try to be okay, even though I actually feel a very painful thing, I feel a very painful thing,” monologue
“I always ask, why? Why God, did you create me with a thousand troubles and misfortunes?,” My Monologue, again
The sound of lightning struck, it rained heavily but I was still reluctant to leave here. I wept in the rain, and the wind blew softly.
“aaaaa, universe why are you still silent?!,” I shouted
I went back to crying hysterically, letting out the sadness and disappointment I had been harboring all this time. I was banging my chest that felt tight.
“Why is this so painful?”
“ini is very painful, Lord”
“Why did you take Rara, Lord”
“doesn't you have taken my Mom and Dad?”
“I'm tired, let me go carry this wound”
I kept on messing around, no one understood my feelings at the moment. The people around me just looked at me with pity. I don't need that look! I need my family!
“Faris is still here, Ma'am,” said Faris who suddenly came to hug me
“Faris, gk want to lose the person that Faris loves, Mbak gk himself, there is still Faris here” he said again, I saw Faris shed tears, eyes that radiate wounds and hope. Faris hugged me tightly, as well as me, I returned Faris' embrace and cried in an embrace, with the rain that carried the pain away.
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