Grabbing Asa
I Missed you, Dad

“Ris, fast! It's late!” I shouted from outside

“sever, Mbak”

“Come, Ris”

“In the meantime, Ma'am, Faris is looking for book” Faris rummaging through books that have been neatly arranged on the table

“Ck, Mbak can be late if you wait!” my mouth is upset

“Yaudah, Mbak go first Sana, why wait for Faris?!”exclaims

“Yasudah, Mbak go first, You do not get late” said I

“Iya” suhut lazy

Time shows at 06.00 wib. It still looks morning, but the distance from home to the store is very far for me. I don't want to be late, because this is my search. I worked there for three months, and until now I can still divide my time, to study and also work. Now I am the backbone of my family. In this town there's only me and Faris, we don't know anything about relatives. Because my father and mother never told me about our origins. I have to be passionate so I can make Faris happy, the family I have.

I ran towards the store, but my steps stopped instantly. I saw a sight I wanted to avoid. Sis Rosa and her parents were talking in front of the store. They laughed and clearly saw the happy look on their faces. I pressed my chest tight, wanted to scream, told the bitterness of my life without a father.

“Excuse me, sir, bu” I said as I passed them

“Ros, he's your employee?” ask the father I can still hear

I did not listen to their next conversation. I'll do my job soon, and say hello to the other employees. My eyes returned to the mirror when accidentally the person I called my father kissed Rosa's soft forehead and hugged her as he said goodbye. I'd love to say “hai, Father, I'm your daughter, your real daughter, why don't you do that to me? I'm envious of you, I'm envious of your closeness to your stepdaughter, I'm sick of you, my heart aches at your attitude to Rosa's sister. If, if Mother allowed me to hate you, you are the person I hate the most in the world, Ayah” those words are only up to a throat, I can't say it, I can't say it,

“Kak, sorry today I can permission? My body feels bad,” I said

“Please, Fah, hopefully get well soon,”, said sister Rosa

“Thank you” I smiled, I swiftly tidied up my things and left the store.

I walked through the city, my tears I couldn't stand anymore, I cried along the way. People look at me with pity. I don't care about that look, because they won't even understand how I feel right now.

I set foot in the garden, the garden that had been a silent witness of our togetherness, the garden had many memories of my father, mother, me and my sisters. I sat languidly on the green grass, I looked down over the flowing tears.

“Dad, I miss you, I miss everything about you, your gentle strokes, your warm embrace, your sweet smile, your spirit that makes me feel good. Dad, I miss you but also hate you, I have to how dad? What should I do about how I feel about you?” razuku

“Mbak” call someone and I turn

“Ris?,”

“Faris kangen, Dad,” Faris sitting next to me

“Faris misses, Dad, Faris miss Mom, Faris miss Rara,” He said again, I was silent, I was still silent

“Faris met with Dad, Mbak” he said

“Mbak know? Dad like forgot with Faris, Can Faris hate Dad, Ma'am?,” he said in tears

“Ris” call me slowly

“hahaha, Faris crybaby yes, Mbak” she wiped her tears and tried to smile. I looked down at her, her eyes radiating hatred accompanied by longing

“Daddy, a simple but meaningful word,”

“Faris, you remember? We used to go to this park a lot,” My words broke the silence, Faris was silent, her eyes straight ahead

“we used to play on the swing there” I pointed to the swing where I used to play with dad

“Iya, Ma'am, Faris remember, Mbak fell there” Faris looked at me for a moment, before long his eyes returned to the swing where we played

“Haha yes, I used to be pregnant with Rara right?” I laughed but my eyes shed tears

“eh, tomorrow Mother gives birth” said Faris with a smiley smile

Again, we went back to being silent, nostalgic making my heart feel pain, wanting to forget but it was too beautiful, wanting to be remembered, but it also hurt too much.

“Mbak, know? Dad used to say, ‘be a tough guy, Ris, someday you will protect your Brother and Sister’, used to be, dad also often said ‘Ris, later you will protect your Brother and Sister, You are the only man in this family, your job is to look after Mom, Ma'am, and Rara’”, he said with trembling lips to hold back tears

“Faris thought... Faris thought it was just an ordinary strand of the word, but it turned out..” He could not continue his speech.

I rubbed Faris' back slowly, and hugged her. “Thank you to Dad, Ris” said I let go of the hug

“Thank you?” tannya

“Yes, thank you” I said smile

Faris was silent but before long he smiled “thank you, Dad,”

“Thank you for giving such a valuable lesson,”

“Yes, and thank you for being a hero by showing that I can stand on my own feet,”

“although a few memories full of smiles and colors that revolve in my memory, I still love you even accompanied by hatred” said me and Faris, laughing loosely.

We did not care about the gazes of the people around us, the most important thing is that we can laugh. Ah, it is rare that we are like this, laughing without a burden.

“Eh, Ris, Mbak just realized,”

“Why, Ma'am?” say it without burden

“You're in school, Ris?!” yell at

He just smiled sinlessly, making me grow furious. I pinched it very hard.

“Aaaaa pain, Ma'am, yes jeez” Shouts while trying to escape and avoid. But soon he laughed again.

“Sorry, Ma'am, Faris gk will repeat again” said while showing the little finger towards me, I did not rub it until he sighed softly.

“huuft, Ma'am too, why are you here? It should be working hours Mbak” said later

“Like dong, Ribet aja You,” I say annoyed

“Sabar, Ris, maybe your Mb is PMS,” he said while stroking the chest

“Eh, just any time,” I'm furious

I pinched him again but he managed to run, I chased after him while scolding him, while Faris just laughed and mocked me. We ran around while occasionally laughing in this park, making us the center of attention.