
Leaving Karina's house in a confused state of mind, my footsteps were stopped by Nila's call waiting for me at Mark's doorstep.
"Erlan. I want to talk to you!" Nila tetiba.
"Hhhhhm.."
Not to mention, I was already tired of the conversation I was about to have with Nila in a moment.
"alright. Let's talk on the porch here, "I answer to Nila's request.
I chose to sit on one of the chairs on the front porch of the house. Shortly afterwards, Nila sat down in the chair beside my chair.
For the first five minutes we went through an awkward silence. I let Nila gather her own courage to convey what was in her heart to me.
Patiently, I waited in silence. While my view was busy looking into the yard of the house that looks shady with a variety of ornamental flowers that Mark put in the yard.
"Is your relationship with Karina still in the testing phase or what?" Ask Nila tetiba.
My gaze lifted for a moment.
'Karina was right. Nila really asked about the seriousness of our relationship. So, should I also follow Karina's advice? Tell Nila that Karina and I are ready to get married? Hhmm. I think it's too over. But.' My mind is so preoccupied with the choices of the best attitude I decide.
"Why is it? We're very close. Is this answer enough for you, Nile?" Ask me back then.
"I'm.." Nila faltered in words.
"Why.. isn't it me? I thought you were gonna be a long time to be able to move on from my mom. I thought you really loved my mom. But like her, the promise of love that you often glorify in front of me was just a mere remark," Nila said so cruelly.
Reminded of her mama, aka Laila, my eyes were not able to turn red.
"Shut up! You don't understand how I really feel about Laila! Don't judge cheaply what I've kept to cross the world. You don't know how her feelings were forcibly taken from your life and love and your own family, do you?!" Hardik me hard in front of Nila directly.
Nila didn't seem ready to take a snatch from me. So then his eyes immediately wet and red again.
I who felt that anger was still controlling to the crown was immediately decided to leave Nila. With the inner power possessed by Aro's body, I immediately darted quickly out of Mark's yard.
Go leave Nila and also all traces of my life left behind!
Blast it!
I keep running. Split the streets without even stopping to admire the beauty of the scenery.
I ran as fast as I could without even a second to give it a pause.
I passed through the bushes of the city, until my steps led me up a hill of trees on the outskirts of the city where I was.
Once I was among the dark trees on the hill, I climbed one of the tallest trees there, only to feel the feeling of falling from the top, because the tree is unable to support my heavy body weight.
The tree is a kind of spruce, indeed. So there are no strong branches, even though the tree grows lush even once.
Bagh's. Bugh.
I climbed the trees there many, many times. Just to fall again and again. I didn't care about the pain from the blisters and also the minor fractures I felt. Because it is precisely this pain that I hope can relieve the tightness that is squeezing my chest at this time.
I'm too angry at the moment. But my anger is not directed at Nila. The spicy words uttered by my daughter were just like the trigger button for a series of bombs that were actually lodged so large in my heart.
A bomb ready to explode at any time. And it's ready to destroy myself, ever since Laila left this world. Or ever since I was dragged to abandon my destiny in this world many years ago.
"Yahoooooooooooo!!!" I screamed so loud. For the sake of venting all the anger that is entrenched in the heart.
My body has been scuffed here and there. With a little blood there and here.
After releasing that bomb-like scream of anger in my heart, I'm still crying. I sobbed so badly. Until the silence of the night on the quiet hills of the man became disturbed by the sound of my discordant stuffing.
"Laila.. hiks! Sheila....!!"
And I finally arrived at the no-man's hill..!
***
I just got back to Mark's old house after a new day. Maybe around three in the morning?
I didn't want to go back to Mark's house. However, my life is now tied to my promise to look after Mark and Nila.
The promise I made solemnly in front of Laila's body had been stretched out rigidly.
...
As soon as I arrived in front of Mark's house, I was shocked to find Mark penniless on one of the chairs on the terrace.
For a while I watched Mark's face closely. The face that has a copy of Laila's face so much her. Whether it was her eyebrows, her lips, and the most obvious one was the two dimples on her two tapered cheeks.
"Hh.." I took a deep breath.
Right now I am truly sorry for having vented my emotions in front of Nila.
Somehow his current condition. I was determined to apologize to her as soon as the day became brighter later.
"Bang Erlan?! Thank goodness you came home finally.. ! Mmmm..what time is it now, oh my goodness! Half an hour four! Brother actually just came home or Brother deliberately let me sleep here until this morning, Bang?!" Mark looks raging.
Strangely enough I even chuckled at Mark's behavior trying to melt the awkward atmosphere between us. I know for a fact that he's pretending to be angry at the moment. Because sometimes, after getting angry, you always have a reason to apologize and repair the relationship again, right?
I immediately took the position of the empty seat next to Mark. While the tail of my eyes saw her about to rise to her feet, I hurriedly held her away.
"Can we talk to you for a second, Mark? Please please? I need someone to talk to right now.." I'm giving it to my own son.
Mark looks like he saw me. Or I guess it's like that. I didn't really look at him. Because my view is now not focused on ornamental plants in the yard of this house. While my mind goes everywhere.
Mark sat back in his chair.
"What do you want to say? Res.. Karina's planning to be Abang's pretend boyfriend?" Guess Mark to the point.
I'm appalled. My head immediately shot so fast and looked at Mark fixedly.
'How did Mark know?!' ask me not to believe.
"Of course I can tell, Bang. Because your acting is so clear in my eyes. If Nila is, don't ask. He does have a lower IQ than me, Bang. Hehehe, sorry!" Mark's words stopped as he watched me glare at him.
He could have called his sister a fool. If only I did not remember who I was in whose body I was, I would have snapped my son's head.
"Ehem! I mean, I'm really heartbroken, Bang. I guess, the pretend girlfriend's proposal came from Karina right? Because of my judgment, you can't think of such a crazy idea," continued Mark casually.
"How did you know?" Ask me then.
"Know what, Bang? Know.. tempe? Know.. round? Aw! Just relax, Bang! Don't just play at everything." added Mark who is now rubbing his arm that I just patted quite tight.
"Seriously it's Mark!" I reprimanded her.
"OKAY. Okay. Sorry, Bang! I'm serious!"
***