HEARTBREAKS
THE CHAPTER 54

Evelyne had already returned home, the home of someone she would never see again in the world. A house that holds many memories.

Evelyne was sitting by the window of her room, today the weather was not good, the sky was covered by dark gray clouds, water droplets began to fall slowly, not a heavy rain but able to make the cold burst into Evelyne's body.

Evelyne swiped the book of her gift that Edzard should have given her on her birthday, but what could have been done.

Evelyne began to open the book, there were many photos attached. Evelyne swiped a photo of Edzard.

Hi Evelyne Chalesthane Mariolin

Would she? I know it's pretty tough and we can't avoid this.

Sorry for not letting you be there in my last moments. You need to know, giving you a smile is mandatory for me, so I cannot stand in front of you without giving you a smile, I hope you understand.

Leaving you is a difficult thing in my life, but I'm not alive when you read this hehe.

Getting a kiss from you is a beautiful farewell

I know you have good intentions

I'm just trying to find the right words for you

I promise I've learned from the past

But now I'm not okay

I'm so tired

'patience you'll heal'

How many doctors say that

In the end it will always stay the same

There's no hope for me for much longer even if I want to

Let me stop trying

Let me stop fighting

Let me give up

Let me go

If it's not good for you

Sorry

Have I ever crossed your mind?

Have you ever thought about 'is he okay?'

If yes then that is enough for me, I know I can't expect more.

I have no problem being forgotten

It's okay to be a faraway place

Now no “kita”

Don't cry, don't cry

One day, when you look back at us

If your memories of me are beautiful

When you walk alone without a backrest

Many tears fell unbearably

Close your eyes

I'll be there, in your memory

I'll sleep there, in your heart

On the birthday card you held, blew out the liin

And at your door

When I kissed you good night

I'll be there, always by your side

I'll breathe, without a sound

Let's meet at the end of our memories

I miss you so much

I know this can't happen, but I want to see you

Sorry I ruined our love with memories

Don't look for me because I'll only be present in memory

I may never forget

All the promises we can't keep

I'll be there

I'll be there

It's okay if you don't see me

All you need to know is, I'd love to see your happiness from here

Promise me to be happy always

So that my struggle will not be in vain

Evelyne...

I'll wait

"Edzard when you ask me to wait, you'll never know what it's like. But rest easy I'll be happy here, keep missing me" Evelyne smiled with tears flowing.

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Evelyne wore an all-black outfit with a black umbrella that she held as the sky was still lowering her water even though it was not so swift, just a light drizzle.

Evelyne put her umbrella on the ground, rubbing a gravestone that read Edzard Zachary. The name engraved in his heart, the name that will always cross his mind.

Evelyne did not speak anything, Evelyne did not cry either, she just silently stared at the tomb silently. The peak of a person's grief when he can no longer cry.

Evelyne tried hard he did not want to make Edzard disappointed with his crying, it was enough he was sad and felt the pain of the world, this was indeed the time Edzard felt eternal happiness. Evelyne did not want to disturb Edzard's happiness because of his crying.

I don't know how long Evelyne's been here, until his body starts to feel sore. Evelyne stood up actually he did not want to leave now but the sky was getting dark, even raindrops were no longer there.

"Edzard see you" Evelyne would rather say goodbye than goodbye. Because he was sure they would meet again in better circumstances.

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Evelyne rubbed her palms because she felt cold, just now when she was at the funeral did not feel cold even though she had stayed there for a long time, but why now she just felt cold.

Suddenly Evelyne felt that something was covering her jacket, Evelyne turned her head back.

"Ax"

"Hi" said Axel as he waved his hand.

"How come you can be here?"

"Udah from earlier"

"Well?" Ask Evelyne

Axel smiled for a moment and replied. "Watching someone who is upset, hours of silence at the funeral, I'm afraid Lo is possessed"

"Basic stalker" Evelyne sneered

"Gue didn't accidentally see you really, because I'm either I'm afraid of Lo being possessed or something so I'm watching Lo"

"Not cold what?" Ask Axel."Put on my jacket" Axel's.

"Thank you"

"What kind of transaction do you want? Don't refuse dong, it could destroy my reputation as a fuckboy if you refuse my invitation" Evelyne accepted Axel's invitation.

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"You want what pesen?" Ask Axel

"Whatever"

"Basic, Lo the chick to... To how much do I also forget, it must be so if the food pesen guy who thinks? There is no menu"

"Same on it if that's it"

"Nothing..."

"Gue go home if so"

"OK-okay sitting. I order a meal first" Axel moved.

"Don't be sad, yesterday you can laugh at the present?" Axel Pinta

"Gue's not sad, I'm sorry"

"Heeem yes, it looks very sad that Lo knows not" Axel sneered but Evelyne just kept quiet. It was quiet and very awkward.

"How's Lo doing?" Ask Axel

"How about"

"Oohs. Where do you work?"

"The alsh galaxy company"

"Ooh, I forgot"

"Lo's girlfriend isn't angry?" Ask Evelyne

"Lo believe it? I'm single again"

"Axel singles? Can you?"

"It's actually kind of weird, but I don't want to waste any more time"

"Udah is conscious now"

"I've been aware of it for a long time, but that's it. It doesn't feel good if there are no friends"

"Keep Lo why dating if you really just want to be friends"

"Lo doesn't understand Cogan's suffering. Though I just want to be friends but they misunderstand, say I hang them, do not give certainty. If I said I just wanted to be friends, they would be disappointed... I don't want to have to be my girlfriend"

"You know, you haven't had the same feeling as someone?" Ask Evelyne

"There"

"Why aren't you dating her?"

"The problem is I don't know he likes me, if he refuses I can be ruined my reputation" Axel said to make Evelyne shake his head and chuckle amusedly.

"How do you think the love of SD children is?" Ask Axel

"It's monkey love when people say it" Evelyne replied

"But that love still exists today"

"Yes, that means true love"

"True love?" Axel and Evelyne asked.

"Gue can't be long, I have to work" Evelyne said

"Aterine gue, huh?"

"No need" Evelyne refused and Axel nodded in understanding.

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"Oooh" Azelvin was shocked when he saw Evelyne who was already in the room. "Are you feeling better?" Azelvin and Evelyne just nodded.

"There's a lot of work you have to do today"

"Good sir" Evelyne replied

Azelvin nodded briefly and then sat down in his place, finishing his work.

Evelyne felt cold plus AC which caused the temperature to get colder, before Evelyne never felt like this, Evelyne felt her head throbbing.

"Evelyne are you okay?" Azelvin asked and Evelyne nodded.

Evelyne continued to insist on finishing her work and put aside the pain in her head. Cold sweat began to wet his forehead.

He finally finished his job well. But Azelvin was still struggling with his computer, surely Azelvin would not allow him to go home first, so Evelyne chose to sleep at his desk.

When he woke up he was lying in bed, Evelyne was no stranger to this room, yes this is a secret room in Azelvin's room, of course Azelvin who moved him again?

Evelyne went outside the room and found Azelvin struggling with his computer.

"Want a cup of coffee?" Ask Evelyne

"Eeem" said Azelvin, nodding, "are you awake?" Ask Azelvin.

"Sure" Evelyne said and walked to the corner of the room, there was a french press, to make coffee.

"You didn't sleep well apparently" Azelvin said.

"Eeem I think" Evelyne shrugged her shoulders.

Evelyne offered Azelvin coffee. "Thank you" Azelvin, Evelyne nodded.

"Is it still a long time?" Ask Evelyne

"So, it could be like that"

"Need help?" Evelyne

"Aren't you dizzy?" Azelvin asked, to which Evelyne was astonished, where did Azelvin know. "You think I don't know, I'm watching you" Azelvin said.

"Ooh, it's okay to be better"

"Want to the hospital?" Ask Azelvin

"No need, it's too late" Evelyne replied

"You want to go home soon? Then let me finish this at home"

"There's no need I'll wait" Evelyne said, to Azelvin's amazement. "It would definitely not be convenient to work at home" Evelyne continued.

"Ooh, then go to sleep"

"Eem" Evelyne nodded, Evelyne pulled out her chair and placed her head on Azelvin's desk. Azelvin workbench is quite long and wide so it does not interfere.

Azelvin looked at Evelyne's peaceful sleeping face, a smile on his lips.

Azelvin stroked Evelyne's soft hair. Azelvin whispered something to Evelyne and briefly peeked Evelyne's forehead.

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"Can you accept me now?" Azelvin asked, they were now in front of Evelyne's house because Azelvin drove him home.

"How's it?"

"You know I have feelings for you, I don't want to ask you out, I want to be more serious" Azelvin said

"I'm sorry but, I haven't thought about that right now, I hope you understand"

"Eem, good night" Azelvin nodded and rubbed Evelyne's head.

"I'M FINE, I'LL WAIT FOR YOU" cried Azelvin and waved his hand. Evelyne smiled and was about to wave her hand, but she acted like she was repelling mosquitoes.

Evelyne finished cleaning up. He sat on the bed and wiped a picture of Edzard.

"I have to how?" Evelyne said, Evelyne placed a photo of Edzard beside her and wrapped the photo together with her body.

"Good night" Evelyne said in the photo.