Honey Sister Sister
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Venessa POV

I just realized that I came out of the room and Lio didn't bring my bag. I might have left my bag on the sofa, where I sat while waiting for Lio to come.

I returned again to pick up my bag left behind in Lio's mas room.

When I got to the front door of Lio's room. I listened to Lio say something. I had to cancel my intention to enter.

It's not that I intentionally want to eavesdrop on what Lio said to herself. But I can't break in there.

Mas Lio is obviously talking about me and Vanya. He compared me and Vanya.

There was a sudden chill that scratched my heart slowly but surely. Because the pain is so obvious I feel.

The clear circle suddenly fell slowly from my eye. I tried to hold the clear circle, but it was not strong.

Vanya and I are indeed much different, she is a very gentle girl and does not know how to treat others harshly. Vanya also does not know how to perform. It can only be flat and what it is.

Why I cry, why I feel sad and why I feel hurt and even hurt. Isn't this what I wanted all along.

I want Mas Lio to love Vanya and give all his love to Vanya.

But why did tears spill when Lio compared me to other girls. Even though that girl is Vananya, the sister I love.

I wiped my tears that spilled on this cheek. I walked up to Pandu who had been waiting for me in the car.

"Guide, can you get me my bag left in the room of Mas Lio?" I said a little while as I pleased.

"Are you all right, Ness?" pandu asked back.

"Have it, I asked you to get my bag, and you asked me if I was okay. As you can see now, I'm fine."

"What Lio did to you actually. Why are you crying when you get out of the room."

"Nothing he did to me Pandu. Just get me my bag, don't talk much anymore."

With heavy steps, the guide left me in the car. He left while occasionally looking at me who was silent in the car.

Apparently, it hurts a lot when compared to others. What compares us is our husband.

I realize, this isn't Lio's fault. It's not my sister's fault either. It's purely my fault, a mistake that's how I did it. But it's very complicated for me to explain.

The man came with the bag in his hand. He carried the bag inside with him. Then handed it to me while showing his curious face for what happened earlier.

"Are we going straight to the office, or is there a place you want to visit first" Pandu said while turning on the car engine.

"We'll just grieve my parents first" I said without looking.

Pandu did not answer, but he ran the car leaving Lio's office.

Pandu is the person closest to me. He always knew what I needed.

Apart from being my personal driver, Pandu has been a special person to me all this time. But no one knows that Pandu is a special person for me.

I sat down between two meals. This tomb is the tomb of my father and mother. I always come here, if my mind is not calm.

Not that I came to mind. But, I would feel calm if I had read al-fatihah to my mother and papa.

"Mama, papa, Nessa came to see mom and dad. Nessa wouldn't be alone if mom and dad were alive. And, this complicated way of life, Nessa wouldn't have taken it, if mom and dad were here."

Once again, my tears spilled very hard. I imagined, when mom and dad were next to me.

I was a very happy little girl, when my parents were alive. They will always take me, wherever I want.

When they left, I thought, I won't live anymore. Cause I don't have anyone else when mom and dad leave.

But, that small hand was able to grip tightly. Gave me warmth, and my life came back in color.

That little hand, belonged to the little girl that I will never forget. Always ready to share anything with me. Including, sharing his life and death for my sake.

"Nessa, it's noon. Don't you want to go home" Pandu said as he touched my shoulder.

"Guide, can't we stay here longer. I want to be with my mom and dad" I said, sweeping away tears.

"It can't be Nessa, but it's been a very afternoon. The sun is so hot, you don't feel the sting huh?"

"I didn't feel anything Pan, when I was here. I won't feel a thing when I'm with mom and dad."

"Other times, we can come here again, right? It may come a little late in the afternoon, or come early."

I didn't answer, just shut up. But I also did not move from my previous position.

"Nessa, we can come back later. Today, we'll go home first, okay."

The guide helped me stand up. He knew it was hard to get out of my parents' tomb. If I get here, it will take me a long time to leave them.

"Mama, papa, Nessa has to go home now. Next time, Nessa will come again huh," I said as I walked away.

"What time is Pandu?" I said as I followed Pandu's steps from behind.

"Nearly one o'clock Nessa" said a short guide, looking at her watch.

"Geez, why is time so fast. I have to meet Mas Lio at the cafe this afternoon," I said as I rushed ahead of Pandu.

"What the hell is Nessa, why do you look so shocked and hasty?" pandu said astonished.

"Mas Lio said he wanted to meet me at Pandu's cafe. You didn't hear me say that just now."

"I'm with Nessa, I'm asking you what the hell is wrong with that. I asked if you would like to see Mr. Lio there. Tumben you guys met outside."

"There are things that Lio and I need to discuss. It's about work," I said.

I know, Pandu will always look jealous when I talk about Mas Lio in front of him. He will suddenly be cynical and not cool. If I talk about Mas Lio.