HOPEFUL
1.Unexpected
As a child Aya like not expected his mother during the cage.Mamanya once told Aya when sitting in the third grade SD who already understood his words.
"Yes...here mama wants a story!!!" call mama.
"Yes Mak" said Aya from afar.
"Finally after the last pregnancy mama (say Aya), mama thought the boy who came out according to the predictions of the doctor the same nurse who ngeUSG" said mama.
"Congratulations Ma'am, the daughter of a female mother at the time of birth" said the Doctor and the nurse with a smile.
"What doc, woman.......? Here look sister.I want to see first(haru)..!", said the mother who did not expect.
Though USG check pas predicted boys who will come out but God said another, girls exactly.
"Mama almost want to fall out of this last pregnancy because mama wants a daughter, not a boy anymore.Soalah the same doctor the nurse was also the one who helped twice the delivery of mama when your brother was born.
Mama's words involuntarily offended Aya.
"Four mama works hard to be tired.So fall by itself", said mama.
Aya feels good to hear it.
"So now expected or not Mak...? Especially if Aya can change the conditions, which according to mama !!" said Aya.
Mama who can only be silent in silence said Aya.
When Aya starts to enter High School, it is repeated that the mother is always favoritism between Aya and Ari(Abang both).
"Sir, yes get into SMA (secret) is a good thing there ?" said Aya.
"No, don't go there.....!!! Better SMA(secret) it's just" said mama.
Hearing that Aya was immediately discouraged and not excited.
"Mama yes, Asal Aya asked for something why never say yes because what aya asked was also Aya's own will.What mommy would want to go to school...?" said Aya.
"It's not that...it's just a massage !" sahut mom.
"Who of you can win the mama prize" said mama.
When Aya really proves that she is capable, three times in a row champion class but never given a prize.
"Master.....!! rumored homeroom mama came to take rapot", said Aya deliberately let it be seen.
Because her mother never saw Aya rapot during her school.There are parents like that...!!! Not thinking.
"Mama can't ya, I'll know mama sewing for a living you three.Mana had mama to school later rapot can't get our money if not ready this stitch, Yes yes".Said mom.
Aya was immediately disappointed, during her elementary school until her parents divorced.Mamma never gave special attention to Aya.
As if Aya is required to be independent from childhood to adulthood.
While when Aya saw the old photo album, the,when Zul (Abang first) and Ari every school activities her mother always participate.Such as the event of the drawing competition her mother also came and when Zul went for a walk with her mother taking pictures at the show dolphin.Sat Ari there is a Scout event also his mother nemani ngantar.Janya Aya who has no memories in old photos.
"Sometimes I think...Am I really a child or a child of my mother yes...?", thought Aya.
Love I never got from parents, plus again divorced.The figure of the father I never felt.
"When you see a daughter shopping with her father let alone joking.Always in the heart when can it be like that....?
hahahaha dream not to the distance Aya....!!! It must always be said in that heart because my family is not whole anymore".Say Aya in the heart.
His mother Aya only cares about his brother Ari.If his brother Zul often even envies Ari, because the treatment of more mama only focuses on Ari alone.
Because what Ari wants must be fulfilled by his mother, such as asking for money or goods.
"Mama wants a daughter, but why treat her indifferently as if she does not care" Aya said but never said directly.
because Aya must have known the answer, "If it wasn't so....!!!,
must be silent".