Hot Couple: Inspiration From God (I Love You, Ustadz!)
Uneasily

For the first time that night we went straight to sleep without making love first. The reason is the feeling of Mas Ilham is disturbed, even it seems that he has trouble sleeping and moves restlessly on the bed. As for me, for the sake of not bothering Mas Ilham's feelings more deeply, I finally said nothing but asking him to shut up and close his eyes, while my hands hugged his body solidly. Whether he could sleep or not, but eventually he was silent and no longer moved.

A few hours later, in the silence of the night when I was asleep, Mas Ilham woke up, he got out of bed and performed evening prayers. While I, I woke up a while later, when Mas Ilham was pensive with prayer beads in his hands. Even in the dim light, I could see that he was not in his prayer beads. His mind was wandering in an awkwardness that I thought I could guess.

"Mass?"

He was a little surprised, then looked. "Yes, Honey?" said. "You awake?"

But I did not say, I prefer to get out of bed and berwudu, then participate in the evening prayer. After that, finished the prayer and I took off and re-attached my face in its place, I also approached Mas Ilham who had moved to sit at the end of the bed.

"You've been up a long time?" ask me, and then I sit next to him.

Mas Ilham nodded. "Lumayan," said he.

"I see, it seems that you are thinking of something heavy. You're thinking...?"

Again. He's nodding. "Well," he said, his voice sounded desperate. "You don't want me to even think that this has something to do with the past. If so, it means you are in danger. I fear that this terror will end in terrible things, not just slander. I'm worried about you, Zahra."

Shaking, Mas Ilham clasped my hand. "I will always take care of you. I-i promise. But when I'm not around you, promise me you'll never be alone. Including when you're at school, don't go anywhere before I pick you up, and you don't wait outside the gate. Promise?"

I smile. Although this situation feels so heavy, but I am happy because Mas Ilham cares so much about me. "I promise, Mom. Don't worry."

"Can't help but worry, Zahra. Especially if you are pregnant. This is not just about your safety from danger, but also about your psychic. I'm afraid this will affect your emotions and affect your womb."

I-i know. And really, I was just as worried. I lowered my head for a moment and then said, "I promise, I will be able to control myself and keep my emotions in check. Well, even though my personality is not as good as Mia's, but I can definitely be as strong as her. No matter what I'm going to face, I promise, Mom, I'll be fine. I won't lose my sanity while you're always with me." Then I woke up and immediately corrected my words. "Not so, anyway. Whether or not you exist, I will try to survive for myself, as well as for my son. Who knows if you will change"

"Hmm...what?" the question is a bit sewot. "I'm not a depraved man, honey. I will not leave you under any circumstances. Whatever happens."

And I got giggled. "Yes, yes, I believe" I said. "As with him once, right? You will also always be with me under any circumstances."

"Yes, Honey. Sure. We'll always be together under any circumstances."

Then she hugged me. But what I want is more than a hug. I want something more-something that can take my mind off. Make love.