I Don't Understand
Go home

Dawn that greeted the earth indirectly ushered the moon in its resting place, gave work to the Sun who was preparing to replace the moon to keep watch.forces selfishly everyone began to leave his most comfortable place.

But different again with women who are still at home struggling in their blankets. ignore the dawn that voluntarily greet the morning, giving air that is so fresh even for a moment. She's Mayla.

Under the bed the sound of the hp alarm in cash almost rang every minute, but the master had no movement at all. until the sun began to replace the dawn, trying to wake up with the light that looks beautiful when the sun starts to release its rest.

but it seems that the presence of the sun for the day was in vain because Mayla still did not see the movement of wanting to open her eyes.

Underneath her phone brings up a reminder

'visit mamah' so fill in the reminder on his phone. Whether the dream is too beautiful or he is too afraid to see the reality because Mayla never woke up, until the clock shows at nine in the morning and the alarm hp was sounded but still, it was still, his sleep was not disturbed at all.

Back the phone under it works not to make an alarm sound like before, but a call, but already several incoming calls were mayla did not wake up.

The clock shows at eleven o'clock in the afternoon, the alarm ringing back Mayla bows her head to the side of the mattress, reaching for her phone in the face down position.

BRUISES....

"ASTAGA AT 11" she cried forcefully, Mayla immediately ran towards the bathroom ignoring the falling blanket. Out of the bathroom she cursed herself to forget the fact that it was Sunday.

"wait for rich people to forget, but what?" mayla asked to walk to her bed and pick up the dropped blanket, until a call came in from Rega's number made her a little surprised.

"uh ka Rega?"

[calling]

Rega

"yes, what's wrong?" ask Mayla, please,

"you just woke up, may? I've been calling" asked Rega in a phone call,

"he he yes" replied Mayla,

"your friend said earlier said you want to come visit, eat it I call" asked Rega.sound grasuak grusuk sound in sebrang seems Rega is in another busyness.

"oh, yes you are", Mayla seems to be missing something.

"i have the same permission to pick you up later, all of you deliver your mamah home" said Rega. Mayla was silent for a moment without answering.

"may me again at the cake shop, I close first until I meet later" said Rega was heard breaking the call, while Mayla was still silent even until the call ended her phone was still in the ear.

"why buy a cake to the store ka Rega, tumben???" his monologue went on the air while lowering his phone.

"give me mamah, do you think mamah is in the cake shop?" he asked again, which was greeted by silence. Mayla blinked until she remembered Rega's words.

"i have the same permission to pick you up"

"create to pick you up" Mayla parroted.

"AH WHAT SHOULD I DO" he yelled filled his room, he ruffled his hair many times while covering his head with a pillow. then threw it up. rolling right and left side.

"how is God, until this time I can't help but know if you're heartbroken it's hard to forget you" he said dramatically, covering his head with a blanket.

"why am I like a difficult earth out of its axis.eh doomsday dong ya" he said again.

Long he was silent looking at the ceiling of his boarding, until a message managed to make him surprised by the shock of almost falling from his mattress.

Ting!

"Campus", he quickly pulled the origin shirt, then ran towards his bathroom. In about five minutes he changed clothes.

" where is my perfume?" he said on the air while breaking up the messy bed, forgetting the fact that he often carried perfume in his bag. Because he never found it, he switched to lipstick.

"oh, I'll have to" he said he could not imagine the two with Rega, while keeping his lipstick he pulled the comb, letting his hair unravel to the back.

"ah use the laper again" he said as he walked towards the kitchen, opened a small refrigerator. took out a pile of fresh bread. had just been about to take jam in the kitchen cabinet, but a car horn made him curious. saving back his bread he knit a step towards the door.

"do you have a car? tumben" he said while opening the door, when Mayla Rega was the least like to use the car considering that Pradasa's only child was the least fond of traffic jams.

"Well, are you ready?" said Rega who just got out of his car, making Mayla flinch on the spot, busy admiring the good looks of the only child of the prepassa family.

"may's identity belongs to someone else" he murmured, he quickly cast out his thoughts that still had time to admire the boyfriend of the person, he said,

"wait a minute ka" cried Mayla as she returned to the boarding house, she took a bag and a hand for the mother. while running out she bit her bread because of hunger.

No one started the conversation just as the car was coming out of the car.

Mayla kept looking at the side, looking at the other vehicle with the buns puffing on her cheeks.

this intimacy should not be quickly passed..

there is a traffic jam in the direction...

A sense of regret at the heart...

for those of you who sit down and discuss..

while Rega had been continuously, changing his car radio channel that ended he turned off. Rega turned towards Mayla to see what the woman beside her was doing now.The corner of her lips was raised unconsciously.

"you still don't change yes" said Rega turned his head, as his gaze occasionally shifted to the traffic jam in front of him. Mayla knit her forehead trying to digest, the meaning of the word change that the male pradasa threw beside her.

"still childish, look at your breadcrumbs everywhere" the older one followed with a laugh, involuntarily making Mayla blush in shame, she quickly fixed herself.

"tumben didn't bring the car" Mayla asked as she opened her bag looking for tissue, as the bread was gone and her hands were slightly sticky.

"yes, I'll be at the cake shop again, the mall has a motorbike so use a mamah car" replied the elder while turning his eyes to the road back.

"mommy did I buy you a cake earlier? or how's it at the cake shop?" mayla asked a little doubt because maybe Rega did not understand the meaning of the question.if in the cake shop would have bought a cake, not buy fish. Mayla's question attracted older men to frown.

"loh, mamah you will work at the mamah may cake shop" said the older, did not release attention from the front vehicle that began to densely creep. Mayla was a little surprised, but she managed to cover it up. There seems to be a bit of information that Mayla missed.

"oh yes I forgot" he said a lie. because the mother had never told me if the mother was working.

"oh here apparently",

Rega frowned while looking at the young woman beside him.

"why?" tanyakanya. Mayla then showed me a perfume she was looking for.

"my perfume turns out to be here" he answered. His hand reached out again looking for tisue who seemed to be joining the items in the bag.

"what are you looking for, may?" ask Rega because he noticed earlier, the woman beside him just kept looking for something in his bag.

"tisue ka but I seem to have forgotten to take her earlier" , Rega shook her head as she pulled the tisue in her car.

"it's May, my goodness"

"oh yes may, sorry yes yesterday that.I'm really sorry, that was beyond my expectations May, I guess-"

"no papa ka, no big deal to me" Mayla interrupted immediately, as she understood where their conversation was headed. Rega nodded even though he was still not feeling well leaving Mayla alone.

"oh, where were you yesterday? go straight home or what?" asked Rega. because yesterday when he decided to go back to Mayla's place, the woman was no longer there. The message and call was not at all Mayla reply. Rega thinks Mayla might be angry.

"i did eat yesterday to go upstairs" Mayla replied, not entirely lying. Hungry, yesterday he went upstairs, only he did not tell me if he met Arseno.

"oh yes, I'm worried because you don't have to chat the same phone I may" said Rega while pulling the brakes, just as his car entered the SPBU area.

"i'll wait in front of ya"

Mayla came out she knitted her way to the minimarket on the outskirts of the SPBU area. pulled two canned coffee and white water, until her hands were airborne when her gaze found the panda cap. While pulling the drink, Mayla walked towards the cashier.

"anything else you want to add?", Mayla shook her head until someone came along like a queue grabbing, pulling Mayla's attention.

"loh ka Rega?"

"just put the groceries together" said Rega while removing a debit card from his wallet. Lamat Mayla watched the man beside her.

'remember may she belongs to people!!', as if being forcibly pulled by the fact Mayla shook her head.

"why?, does anything bother your mind?",

"eh no ka, thank you ka", Rega nodded as he walked out pulling Mayla's hand slowly.

The two now began to continue the journey back, until it was not felt that the journey that took two and a half hours was up.

A few minutes after that, the gate opens featuring a middle-aged woman who looks beautiful despite being eaten by age. Mamah Mayla— Aulina.

Mayla immediately came out, after Rega who immediately opened the second door of her car. took a paper bag containing cake for her mother Mayla.

"mah" said Mayla approached the mother while hugging her, in contrast to Rega who immediately kissed Mayla's hand shortly after she gave the paper bag.

"thank you son Rega already wanted to bother picking up Mayla" said the mother kindly . Rega nodded while saying

"yes aunt, this is Rega who asked earlier" replied Rega no less friendly.

"your family has helped us quite a lot, Thank you Nak Rega" said Aulina - Mayla's mother - while showing the paper bag that was given by Rega.

"yes aunt"

"may invite Rega in, Let's go in for Rega's son" Aulina asked as she pulled Rega's hand slowly, drawing her hand,

"i want aunty, but what about the mamah cake shop. Besides Rega is afraid to disturb your togetherness, Mayla already misses aunty very much" said Rega friendly, turning to Mayla. Mamah Mayla nodded in understanding at Rega's subtle rejection.

after Rega died, the mother brought Mayla into the house.

"mah is hungry" said Mayla spoiled shortly after she sat in the living room, making the mother smile while saying

"you know you must have not eaten, come here mamah has prepared your favorite food" said the mother, Mayla immediately ran to him kedapur.

"May what about your lecture" asked the mother while spooning rice into a plate for her to love her child.

"there is nothing special, only my lecturer is really varied" replied Mayla who did not take off attention from her mother, who is now busy putting side dishes into the plate for her.

"mama will make me have trouble breathing" said Mayla, remembering the mother, who never stopped adding food to her son's plate.The mother smiled, deep down she actually felt worried, in fact she was worried, the child who chooses to stay away makes it almost every morning and night thinking, whether the child eats well or not.

"let's eat together" said Mayla pulled an empty chair next to her that was directly sat by her mother.

After eating they also let go of longing by telling each other, ranging from Mayla's annoying lecturer to her work that makes Mayla feel cape, and tiring. for Mayla mother is the place to go home, to the, a place to complain, a place to cry, a place to share and a place to complain.

"mah Mayla wants to go to the room" he said.

Just when she opened the door her gaze fell on a frame kept in the nightstand.Look that Mayla does not miss her father, the proof when she saw the photo of the father longing it back teasing the recesses of her heart.

"i miss you father" he said, slowly wiping the photo of the father, he recalled when the father who always hugged him gave him a warm heart.

"may"—a call on the air quickly she wiped her tears, while keeping the frame she turned to find the mother who was knitting steps towards her.

"mom" he said,

"kari mamah wants to embrace you, has long been mamah not hugging the spoiled child mamah" said the mother while pulling her child into her warm embrace. Mayla came back crying as her mother rubbed her head gently and gave her spell words to strengthen her.

"no crying, you understand all this feels so fast and unreal to you. I'm sorry we may"

"you're not wrong, it's just Mayla who can't accept" Mayla continued immediately, withdrawing from the embrace of her mother.

"your father said, saying you never received any money from him, why dear?" ask the mother while wiping away the tears on her child's cheeks, which is why it is so difficult for the master to stop.

"that's enough father to pay the cost of mah, my life problems I can keep it myself with the results of my work" said Mayla, not he did not want to accept money from the father, but he did not want to accept money from the father, because considering the father who has paid the cost of boarding fees in each month, besides that both parents also pay the semester fee. for Mayla it is enough. when their love is still given, even though the two are separated. Mayla is still lucky to have both parents who love her.

The mother was silent for a moment, before she again stroked the baby's head while pulling the child in her arms. Letting the child cry again.

Tired of crying, Mayla fell asleep in her arms.

At exactly four o'clock in the afternoon Mayla woke up, she felt her burden slightly lifted after a long cry in the arms of her mother. She begins to prepare to go home, though Mayla is reluctant to leave the house. The room was still the same nothing changed, all that changed was the owner of the room was a grown up and the memories in the room were long gone. pulling Mayla's doorknob out of her room, locking in bitter memories that made her even more afraid of stepping forward.

"May you're awake" said the mother, Mayla nods her head at the mother, until her gaze falls on Rega who is sitting side by side with her mother.

"Rega has picked you May, do not be late to eat do not forget to tell mamah if you arrive dear" said the mother lovingly, she pulled Mayla back in her arms as if reluctant to let her child go back. Mayla nodded.

"yes mah"

"this make it there, aunt dianna also put the cake for you. have mamah put all in" said the mother while giving a bag full of food. Mayla nodded, accepting the mother's gift.

"thank you mah"

"tante Rega departs yes" said Rega while slowly pulling the food bag from Mayla's hand he did not forget to kiss the hand of mamah Mayla.

"you're healthy, if Mayla has time Mayla will go home" Mayla said back to hug her mother.

"be careful on the road may" said the mother smiling.

Mayla did not take her eyes off her mother even though Rega's car was out of the yard. Sighs for a moment Mayla occasionally stares at the car glass when Rega's car joins other vehicles on the highway.he again remembered the words of the mother, who was,

"don't hate your father, he's not wrong.we parted because we felt there was no match",

too late Mayla sank into her memory until she was unconscious from the moment Rega called her.

"Cry May" Rega said suddenly, making her pull attention from the vehicle turning to look at the older man.

"already full, I was already crying earlier ka", Rega chuckled inviting the nagging young lady beside him.

"you remember, you used to cry to me when there was a prank on you" said Rega who occasionally turned towards Mayla.

"i remember".

"and you will come to me asking for a hug" Rega said, his focus still on traffic jams on the road.

'can I ask you now ka'

"honestly, when your parents divorced, I was shocked by May, because there was no evil from them.not only me, my mom and my dad were just as shocked" rega said he remembered right when he heard the news, that Mayla went to court to attend her parents' divorce. Rega who was busy with thesis, because pursuing graduation could only hear the news because he could not take the least time.

"yes I was just as surprised as you were, because there was never a fight at home" Mayla replied because it was as long as Mayla was at home whether it was home from school or on holiday, her parents never quarreled, or stayed away from each other. It seems both parents Mayla is very smart to cover something, she said, until the child feels shocked by the news that he did not even have time to think about.

"they have a reason, I'm sure both still love you very much" said Rega his hand in the air about to hold Mayla's hand but he stopped. he turned it back on the steering wheel of the car, holding it quite tightly.

Lying that Rega doesn't know Mayla likes him, Rega is a grown man she can already tell the difference easily. Moreover, Rega had found out if the young woman beside him had liked him first.it's just that he did not understand who his heart wanted? because he always denied that what he felt, it was only limited to his brother's affection for his sister. But the more he denied why, the more his heart grew to monopolize as if closing the entrance of anyone, who wanted to enter it even though it was his own lover— Aruna.

Worried, the attention he gave Rega believed was only limited to the attention of an older brother, even though since when the young woman who was five years adrift of him, returning to fulfill his mind that gradually may be able to shift the position of Aruna, but again the heart was denied, the existence of Aruna is proof that all that is just ordinary.

Apparently the Pradasa man too often denied the sense of reason that was exactly the opposite, until without him knowing it might now be lost in the denial he made.

'i hope I did the right thing may'—batin Rega.