I Love A King
Choices Make Me Powerless

*Crown Prince Party

I was caught back in the palace while Xiao Ying was already taken by the soldiers to the prison. Then I was taken to the Emperor and with great anger a slap flew into my face until my father drew his sword and wanted to kill me, but there my mother helped me and stopped my father.

"How could I have such a descendant, for the sake of a woman you sacrifice the throne that everyone wants."

Then my mother helped me to talk.

"That's him, he's not aware of what he's doing right now, please give him a chance."

"It's all because you spoiled him too much, he's the Crown Prince of this country, I sent him out to war and planned this wedding all for the sake of building strength for him, I'm really disappointed."

"Of him, it's my fault I didn't educate him well, give him a chance, I beg of you."

"The empress.I know what you're doing, you're sending people to help her escape, I'm very disappointed in you two."

"Though me, I admit my guilt and I am willing to be punished, but please forgive my Son."

I was surprised to hear it, but it was my mother who sent that person to help me.

With eyes that wanted to cry I looked at my mother and said.

"Mother why are you doing this to me?"

"I'm sorry My son, I just want you to be safe."

Suddenly my father punished us.

"The soldier.Take the Empress back to her place, she will be put to death, as will the woman and another man caught with the Crown Prince."

The death penalty for my loved ones, how is this?

"This father is all my fault, I beg you not to do this to your mother, let me bear it all."

"I'm not going to punish you, I want you to see how I punish them, so you know, every action you do will sacrifice the people around you."

"Ayahanda.I beg of you. Forgive my mother, I admit my mistake."

"Now it's too late to admit your mistakes, you should know from the beginning you'll sacrifice them all."

Then suddenly the soldiers reported the coming of the King of the East along with his daughter. The king of the east said.

"Emperor, the escape of the Crown Prince was simply blind from love, seeing that the Crown Prince was very young, I beg the Emperor to forgive them."

I was silent for a moment and thought, and my father said.

"Well Crown Prince, the decision of life or death will be in your hands, if you are willing to marry then I will close my eyes to the deeds of your mother."

I saw the face of my mother who was full of tears and sadness, I was helpless to face with this kind of choice. I don't want to answer with a very sick heart.

"Okay father, I'm willing."

In my heart I feel guilty for Xiao Ying.

I'm sorry to break my promise, I'm powerless with this choice. Please don't hate me.

Then the Palace soldiers who had been ordered to deliver the punishment asked.

"Emperor what about the women and also the men who were captured with the Crown Prince, were they released as well?"

"No, I just said the Crown Prince's decision will save the Empress."

Hearing Xiao Ying on death row I just resigned, how I pleaded was no use. God, what do I have to do to save her.

I went back to my place and cried like I failed, I couldn't protect her, how should I save her?

I vented everything just by drinking until I got drunk.

Suddenly the Prince came, he entered my room in great anger, seeing me so failed and desperate that he could do nothing.

"I failed to protect him. What should I do." crying and half drunk I said to the Prince.

"If you can't save her then you think I can save her?"

"I'm begging you, you must have a way to save her."

The prince sat beside me and followed me for a drink, then said.

"It's my father's decision, I'm powerless, I feel so failed, that he bravely a weak girl saved me from those murderers, but now I can't repay her."

"You can tell my father that he saved you from those murderers."

"I've gone to beg my father and I've said everything, but my father has stayed to his decision. I also visited him in prison, almost dead, and he's still worried about you."

I hit myself hearing the Prince say so, repeatedly slapping my own face, why am I so failing, I am angry at myself.

Then the prince left me without saying anything.

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I heard from my personal servant, that the execution will be carried out tomorrow afternoon by hanging and tomorrow also the wedding will be carried out.

Right I have to let him die, am I really no way? is this how I should lose her? and I'm fine here.

I can't go on like this, tonight I'm asking the Prince for help to get me to jail to see him, because my father told the soldiers not to let me in.

With the help of the Prince I was able to go inside, how painful my heart was when I saw his condition, he lay unconscious with his whole body full of blood from being whipped. Immediately I cried, he heard a voice and woke up.

Then he said in a very weak voice.

"Don't cry, I'll be fine."

I try not to show my cry.

"How can anyone like you stand up still worries me."

"Did my brother know? please tell him I'm okay."

I had not yet answered him, he was unconscious again, my heart was broken and I ran out, I cried because I could do nothing for him.

The soldier who saw me there just took me back to my room and in my room was already hanging red cloth and the wedding dress had been prepared.

Under these circumstances I was angry and threw away all the things he had prepared for the wedding tomorrow with the messy state of the room I just kept drinking and drinking until drunk.

Suddenly I heard the voice of the Prince, he walked into my room and told me that Big Brother Xiao Ying came to see the Emperor.

But by then I was too drunk to drink so much that I was unconscious.