I Love A King
The Hard Choice

* Part General Yu

It has been 1 year at this border, I am still a General who has not been able to help my people, I have not been able to reclaim the kingdom that my father was forced to leave.

Here every day I have to see their suffering even go to war with them, kill them.

I'm still waiting for that chance, if the Crown Prince were to revolt then it's actually the best chance for me to reveal my identity and reclaim my kingdom.

But at this border I've been waiting for 1 year and no word from the palace yet.

I'm also getting scared because the longer I like her and there's a sense of belonging, I'm afraid she'll stay away if she knows my identity.

Although General Meng supported me, but I didn't want him to feel compelled to be with me.

Here he and I are always focused on training and training, focused on people and robbery, we are very busy.

While eating together yesterday, I knew General Meng's intention was to try to help me, but we really are still friends, if he knew I really wanted to have him.

It is now in addition to the arrival of Princess Xu and General Gu that seems to be a little disturbing our relationship.

Me and Princess Xu were friends since childhood, she knew of my identity, because my father was good friends with his father, actually since childhood we have been betrothed, but I only consider him as a sister.

As for General Gu, I was very annoyed at him, as it seemed that he was always looking for Xiao Ying's attention and I also knew Princess Xu was trying to help him get Xiao Ying.

That night when Xiao Ying was injured it also felt like I was the one who was injured, why was he so foolish as to use his body to protect that child, but if I was in his position maybe I would do the same.

It was fortunate that the arrow did not stick too deep, but I was still worried, so I decided to accompany him in the treatment room.

That morning, I knew he was looking at me, not knowing what he was thinking so I just let him go, I wanted to see how long he would look at me.

It was unexpected that his hands were starting to approach and actually my heart was feeling elated.

The excitement of the morning was shattered with the arrival of General Gu. Xiao Ying received the medicine from him, he tried to seek Xiao Ying's attention again.

that pisses me off.

Xiao Ying doesn't know how I always wanted to protect him, even when he was injured, he was stubborn.

So rudely she refused my hand, it seems she was still angry at me because I told her to come home yesterday.

...

It was already dark, I saw Xiao Ying shooting himself and it seemed that the arrows released were impingements, as none of the arrows hit the target.

I approached him and he did not look at me.

"Look, there's no one on target, how can there be a bad coach like this."

He didn't answer me and continued shooting with an annoyed face.

"Okay, maybe it's because the hurt's not on target."

Suddenly, he pointed his arrow at me, with a very serious face, then he took off the arrow and it just passed by my hair, then he slammed his arrow and left without a single word.

I was a little surprised by his attitude, since when did he turn out to be so fierce.

The soldier who was accompanying him from earlier asked.

"General Yu, is General okay?"

"Since when has he become such a ferocious?"

"Today the Coach was very different, not as usual, our little mistake in the law."

Not accepting his attitude, I went after him, I pulled his hand violently, when I turned around I saw him crying and the wound in his hand was bleeding again.

I took him to the treatment room, because there was no healer so I helped him apply the medicine and bandaged his wound.

"Are you angry with me?"

He was silent and did not want to see my face.

Suddenly Waiter Lee came in.

"Miss..."

He was still silent, then left just like that to leave me with Waiter Lee.

"Servant Lee, what's my fault with her?"

"I don't know, maybe the General himself understands."

Waiter Lee left too, I really don't understand.

...

A soldier came.

"General Yu, General Meng is looking for you."

I went to see General Meng.

"General..."

"Sit down, there's something I want to talk about.

I got word from the palace, the Emperor's health is decreasing, so we have to be on standby."

"Okay General I understand."

"Then how is your relationship with Xiao Ying?"

"Don't know why he's mad at me and doesn't want to talk to me."

"Really, the waiter told me yesterday that he came looking for me, but I wasn't there and he came back while I was discussing with Princess Xu.

It seems like Princess Xu is harboring a long-standing feeling towards you."

"I just think of him as a little sister."

"Tomorrow they will return to Mongolia.

I'm afraid he'll pass on his intentions to the King of Mongolia."

"Sorry General, I don't understand what kind of intention?"

"Surely she wants you to marry her.

if you marry her then you will have great power to rebuild the kingdom and save the people."

"But the General."

"I understand you like Xiao Ying, but this is your choice, before you really get into Xiao Ying's life, you can still choose, Don't be like the Crown Prince just yet."

"But this General is a very difficult choice for me."

"I think Xiao Ying started to have feelings for you, when Princess Xu tried to convey her intentions, Xiao Ying heard her, maybe that was the reason why she was angry with you.

Well you think carefully, I won't force you, whatever your decision, I will support."

...

I sat pensively alone, recalling all the memories I had with Xiao Ying.

The more I remember the more I felt sad, the more I wanted to have it, the more I was forced to face difficult choices.

General Meng said Xiao Ying was starting to have feelings for me, I should have been happy to hear this, but now it became a sadness for me, I did need strength to rebuild the kingdom that my father had been forced to leave behind, I can't stand to see my people suffer.

This was the reason from the beginning why I was always cold to her, this was the reason I avoided her.

What am I supposed to do? I don't want to be like the Crown Prince. Maybe from now on it's better to stay away, it's also good that he's angry with me at this time. Before it was too late, before we hurt each other.