I'm Not Dead, My Husband
Jealous

Amanda then realized the tears that were now starting to flow down her face.

"Good God, why am I crying? Why do I suddenly feel this way? Oh no, this can't happen. My relationship with Rayhan is professional, nothing more. I must not use my feelings, I must not, I do not want to if I have to feel pain again, pain that is terribly because of unrequited love. I'm not ready for that yet" Amanda said, wiping away the tears that had soaked her face. He then tried to close his eyes even though it felt so difficult because of the various thoughts that were so raging in his mind.

TOK TOK TOK

A knock on the door made Amanda wake up, slowly she opened her eyes and looked at the wall clock in the room.

"Gosh, it's eight in the morning. I really had a bad luck."

TOK TOK TOK

"Amanda, I've prepared breakfast for you."

Amanda got up from her bed and walked to the door and saw Rayhan who was standing in front of the door.

"Sorry, I woke up bad. Last night I couldn't sleep, and maybe I could just go to bed in the morning, so I'm sorry if I woke up a little bad luck."

Rayhan then smiled. "It's okay, Amanda. You haven't slept at home in a long time, maybe you need to get used to it."

"Yes Ray."

"I've bought you some food, let's have breakfast."

"Well, I'll take a shower."

"Yes, I'm waiting at the dinner table."

Amanda nodded then went into her room again and rushed into the bathroom. He then stood in front of the sink and washed his sticky face from the tears that had dried up.

"Gosh, Amanda. You can't be like this Amanda, you have to focus on what you're aiming for now. Yes, I have to focus, I have to focus on improving my life, I want to live happily with my son, with my mother, and without Abimana, I have to teach Abimana a lesson, I'll make you rot in jail, but before, you must feel such a painful retribution from me first!" said Amanda while adjusting her breath holding back the emotions that were re-present inside her chest. Amanda then exhaled her long breath and began to wet her body swallow*nya then felt the scar of stitches on her chest.

"Well, you don't even know if there's a sewing wound like this on my body? A wound that has given me a new life in my life, you never know if I'm still alive, living a new life that will destroy your life. Now have fun first, Abimana. But look at it in a few months, I'll make you cry blood, even just to breathe out will be so hard for you!"

"YAHAHHHHH!!" amanda shouted under the water that was soaking her body.

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Amanda exited her room and walked to the dining table. Rayhan was waiting for him while playing his phone.

"You're done taking a shower, Amanda."

"Yes." Yeah."

"Let's eat."

Amanda nodded and ate the food in front of her.

"You look a lot fresher, Amanda."

"Thank you."

"You look beautiful too" Rayhan said with a smile.

"But much prettier Doctor Vallen."

"Vallen?" rayhan said while frowning.

"Yes, isn't it much prettier Doctor Vallen? Don't you want me to be as beautiful as Doctor Vallen? Doctor Vallen is the prettiest woman you have in mind, which is why you asked me to be like her. Isn't that Ray?"

"Amanda, I just want to change your appearance to look different, that's all. Vallen is not a beauty benchmark."

"But you really admire her beauty, don't you?"

"Why are you saying that, Amanda?"

"Because she's the woman who became your past, and until now you can't forget, that's why you told me to turn into Doctor Vallen, isn't it Ray?"

"That's not true, Amanda. I did it that way because of circumstances, right now all you know is that you're alive is Brother David, Vallen, and the Word. We're all men, we can't possibly help you change, and the only one who can do that is Vallen."

"But..."

Not yet had Amanda finish her words, suddenly there was the sound of a bell at the door.

TETTTT TEEETTTT

"Amanda, it must be Firman and Vallen, I opened the door for them first, you're ready right?"

Amanda nodded then walked to the sofa, while Rayhan headed towards the door to open the apartment door. When the door opened, Vallen's voice began to be heard.

"Rayhan, where's Amanda?"

"It's inside."

Vallen then rushed into the apartment and approached Amanda who was sitting on the sofa.

"Haiii Amanda, you look so beautiful today."

"Thank you Doctor Vallen."

"Yes." Yeah."

"You ready for Amanda?"

"Yes the Word."

"Can we start now?"

"Yes." Yeah."

Firman then sits on the sofa next to Amanda, while Vallen sits in front of the television watching her favorite Korean drama, while Rayhan is engrossed in reading books at the mini bar. Amanda looked at Vallen with a smile.

'She's really the woman in your past you told me about, Rayhan.'

Up to two hours, Amanda seemed so serious about learning everything the Word taught her.

"Amanda, it seems like today is enough. Your body condition is not yet fully healthy, we continue tomorrow."

"Yes, thank you very much. Your explanation is easy to understand."

"Yes Amanda."

"Emhh Word, may I ask you something?"

"Yes, of course."

"Word, do you know the past of those two?"

Hearing Amanda's words, Firman then smiled.

"Of course, Vallen and I met while we were heartbroken. At that time my ex-lover had just married another man, while Vallen was also heartbroken because Rayhan was betrothed to Inara."

"Oh, do you know how long they've been dating?"

"Seven years, Rayhan has liked Vallen since he was in High School."

"It turns out they dated for a long time. Then how do you feel seeing them?"

"It's normal."

"Okaya?" said Amanda while frowning.

"Yes, normally, to me it is a part of the past they have lived in, it is inevitable because it is part of destiny, but it was fate that finally separated them and finally reunited me with Vallen. Amanda listen to me, everyone has a past but it doesn't matter because the most important thing is the present and the future. No one can escape the past. I'm sure there's no feeling between them."

Amanda was silent to hear the Word.

"What's up Amanda? Why are you asking me that? Did something happen to you? Is your heart beginning to link to Rayhan?"

"Ohhh.. E...E... No Word, no, I just wanted to ask you out."

It was then that Vallen approached them and sat down beside the Word.

"You guys are done yet? I'm hungry" Vallen said grimacingly.

"It's over, Vallen. You guys just have lunch here."

"No, Amanda. I'm gonna eat some sour Thai food,"

"Well pregnant women, but sometime you should have lunch with us."

"Yes of course, you take it easy Amanda. We go first."

"Yes." Yeah."

They came out of Rayhan's apartment, and Rayhan came out of the room.

"Where's the Word?"

"Oh they're home, Vallen's starving."

"Oh."

"Rayhan's."

"Yes,"

"I'm sorry."

"For what?"

"Because you've been jealous of your past." Amanda replied as she walked away from Rayhan who now looked confused.

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