IMPLANTED APPLICATION [EXTREME PROPOSE]
[57] Between Feelings and Needs?

Mama was not seen at the dinner table because she went to bed this morning because she had just recovered from a sudden fever two days ago after returning home from bogor.

Before returning from the hotel to the house that day, Mama asked to go to the hot spring, then the next day Mama claimed to be unwell and fever.

“Eating, Brother ..”

“Bread only, Nin, do not rice.” On the dining table, Nina was about to lift the rice barrel but did not so after Dirga interrupts it.

The man's hand now moved in his right hand putting on his watch.

“Do not use jam, egg only.”

Nina had just laid bread on the plate, but Dirga had again intruded.

“The next is a little, just. I don't really like sauces, thanks Nin.” Dirga interrupted again.

Nina breathed her lazy breath, choosing not to answer.

“Don't, don't, mayonnaise I don't like at all. Mayo already has the egg content, later so double the egg.” Said Dirga again.

Nina was still patient with silence serving her husband who turned out to be quite picky eater.

“Sayurne?” Ask the woman at the end. Now it's her turn. Dirga looked at Nina, then smiled unusually.

“No, I don't like lettuce very much. Fresh, but likes bitter at the end.” Bright with a smile.

Nina then threw away her lazy face.

“It's not me who's mad ya later, but Mama.”

Dirga nodded.

“I know, origin don't just say.” Said Dirga while chuckling.

Nina nodded again.

“Nakwa.” The response was brief which Dirga answered with a snort.

The two sat together at the dining table. I don't know how much more time chatting like this will come between them. While after this, Dirga is more out of the house to continue his work.

“You don't look excited, Nin? Any problem? Just cill, just go for your regular kayak days.” Tegur Dirga looked at Nina who was only speechless with a flat face looking at her bread plate.

Nina was still silent. Maybe this is the effect of his monthly period coming last night. But considering what he was worried about this morning and Dirga who mentioned about ‘don't miss’ made his mood messy. Though Dirga's intention was to joke, but Nina took it too seriously.

“Who is not excited, Brother? Ordinary, maybe the monthly effect that just came last night.” Relaxed words.

“Do I need to buy something before leaving? Yes ... Usually women who are monthly feel comfortable if eating or drinking something, or other things. Sorry I couldn't be with you for a while. Or I'll just send it later, how?” Tawar Dirga calmly while biting his bread.

Nina glanced at the man at a glance.

“Nothing, Brother. Nina is not too ordinary to obey what Nina wants even peeng.”

“Nin ... This time let me work for you, huh? If you do not want to buy, just use the ATM I gave you this morning, yes ..”

Nina said no more, she took focus on her breakfast while glancing at Dirga once in a while.

He only felt uncomfortable even though Dirga showed attention that Nina thought was different from usual. Not understanding what exactly her husband did this because he felt guilty, or indeed wanted to build a good impression on the first day of his departure to work.

Nina tidied up her bag even though breakfast was not toilet. Not waiting for long, immediately stood before her husband while reaching out his hand.

The man seemed clueless as to what his wife wanted, but then Nina instructed for her husband to put his hand forward.

“Kiss hands, Brother. Nina leaves yes, hopefully Dirga is safe until work and healthy until she comes home later. No need to worry about Mama, insyaAllah later Nina who takes care of Mama.” Breaking up while kissing the back of the husband's hand is reverent.

Without waiting for Dirga to give her next response, Nina had already waltzed away.

But not yet at the door, Dirga called out to him.

“I know you're angry, but don't save your anger any longer huh, Nin. At least until I arrive later ..”

She only paused for a moment, did not heed her husband's words and quickly went outside.

Nina just does not want her heart too much to save the desire to love, instead of the responsibility that Dirga did solely that ability all along.

Live well, with excess treasure.

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“... So tired of damn! I swear that's just a lecturer. I can take my semester!”

“Iya, I'm really upset. Where do not imagine the money to add a semester. Not looking for sources, make research, prepare prizes for resource persons too! Ah ... really mixed!”

Nina was still silent in her position sitting in front of the building where she had just finished consulting with the supervising lecturer. He was quite distracted by the complaints of some fellow guidance friends with him. Nina knew that the scholarship had only finished in the eighth semester, now it would enter the eighth semester and Nina was not sure that she could finish half of the chapter at the end of this semester.

How to make extra money to cover scholarship costs that are no longer issued?

“Lo is so good Nin has acc in chapter three now. You want to start researching, right? Be prepared to find sources for research. Have you also thought about the gift of anything?” Kalia asked looking at him.

Nina turned her head to the side, Kalia who was sitting at the border of Tika waiting for an answer from her.

“It is ready if the question, grouping of sources, but if the matter of gifts .. does it have to be all? Isn't it just the best answer?”

“Ya .. if you want a lot of answers, a lot of research materials, certainly need a lot of sources. Even have to find a competent in their field, for example, need a strong source.”

Nina nodded silently.

It turns out that after the residential ordeal is finished, it now continues with the trials of college like this.

“Enak became Melani, I heard she was married the day after. Her husband is in that office, dear deh someone help the cost of thesis. Yes ... although getting married is not a solution to this difficult thesis problem, at least he is not so dizzy with small and trivial cost problems like this. Make us heavy too, kasa is the point.” Tika's words made Nina reflect on what the woman was saying.

Melani, who is married, earns an extra living from her husband.

Isn't Nina like that too?

The gang is too big to insert Dirga ATM cards on ATM machines. Imagine using her husband's money, Nina did not know. He was just afraid that he could not return it, or that all of that was going on as a mind.

Honestly, he did feel empty after Dirga chose to leave him without explanation after feeling stupid because he had expressed love first-wich means as cheap. Although it is natural, but Dirga's response is not the same. He was kind, responsible, but all that was simply because he felt the need to do that to Nina.

She is not a worker, Nina does not always need money, even though she needs it.

Nina also needs to show love in her heart, which in the end is only one side.

Silly, he laughed at himself.

Should Nina ask Dirga to let go, or choose to use the money her husband gave her, and then turn a blind eye to everything she felt?