Last Page Story of Shabira
08. The real feeling

"Aarrggghhh shit, shit, shit! Aarrggghhh!"

Renita throws the remaining books on her desk, after dropping all her books in a very brutal way. The room that was usually neatly arranged, now became very messy like a broken ship. Pillows and blankets neatly arranged on the bed, now scattered on the floor of his room.

"Why have you always been a parasite in my life? And why do you have to be in my family, damn it!"

Renita screamed again, pulling her hair. Thinking of Shabira's engagement plan with Austin made her mind so messed up, she really didn't want it to happen. With her sharp eyes, Renita walked over to the nightstand. His heart was interested in wanting to take the clear cup that was there, then smash it.

Pyarrs...

"Gue swore you'd make your life shatter like this glass!" renita swore. Highlight his eyes still stared at the glass shards on the floor without blinking. Until not felt, the tears that he had previously filled, now melted perfectly wet the cheeks.

"Renith!"

There was a loud voice of a man, and several times knocked from the direction of the room door. The door, which was originally still perfectly closed, now began to open showing the figure of Justin who came with a worried face. Without a second thought Justin immediately approached Renita who was crouching while holding her hand that issued a red liquid.

"Ren, what's wrong with you?" justin asked worried. Previously, he had heard the sound of objects falling several times from his sister's room. Justin who was about to open the laptop, finally decided to come to Renita's room because of worry.

"Revelation!" Roughly, Renita brushed off the hands of Justin who was about to touch her. "This is what you all want? You all want my life to suffer, don't you think?"

Renita looked at Justin with eyes full of sadness, not infrequently tears still flowing down the cheeks. Red liquid still flowed on the index finger of his right hand, until several times dripping on the white floor.

"Ren, what are you talking about?" Justin frowned not understanding. Without a second thought, he directly held onto Renita's shoulder, leading her to sit on the bed.

"Lepasin, I can be alone. Don't help me, if the end will stay me!" Justin doesn't care, though Renita still rebels don't want to be held.

"What the hell are you talking about? You why?" Justin sat down next to Renita, then grabbed the injured girl's hand.

"No, don't care about me!" renita said as she shook Justin's hand.

"Renita! You why? If there's a problem telling Brother, don't be like a little gini!" justin's nagging, began to be confused himself to see his sister behave like that.

"Little boy? Yeah, you guys always thought I was a kid. You never even want to understand my feelings, you only care about Shabira!" said Renita memgebu.

"Who said? Brother cares about you, Brother loves you and Shabira. Don't even think that way!" rebut Justin held both of Renita's shoulders.

Renita's tears flowed back to look at Justin, as if he wanted to share his sadness with his brother. Renita leaned her head against Justin's chest while sobbing. "Why Brother? Why must Austin? And why Shabira, not me?"

Justin was silent for a moment, wiping Renita's hair. He knew enough about what made Renita say that. Justin has known for a long time that Renita has a taste for Austin. Austin is Renita's first love, just like Shabira.

Justin understands that. However, Austin is a famous guy at school. With his cold attitude, the man was able to attract the hearts of women in school. Including Renita and Shabira. Even though Justin himself really hates Austin, because his attitude is too trivialize the existence of others.

Seeing his brother still crying, Justin pushed him back to sit up straight. Holding both shoulders, while looking seriously at Renita's eyes. "Listen Renita! You don't have to be sad like this, there are still many guys in this world who are much better than Austin. You're beautiful, you're good, brother is sure you can get better than that guy."

"But, brother, I can't. I've liked him for a long time, but why Papa is even a match for him with Shabira. I'm not a tormenter," isak Renita showed herself. "Why don't Mom and Dad ever want to understand how I feel, sister? Who are Papa and Mama's real children here?"

Justin was speechless, a little dislikeful of Renita's questions just now. However, he is not the son of Papa Antonio. Just like Shabira who is not the real child of Mama Shinta. Justin knows that Renita is the only daughter of the couple. Mama and Papa never talked about this, probably because they understood it would only hurt their families to each other.

"But Brother---"

"Sstttt, your future is long. Tomorrow you may meet someone much better than Austin" Justin said, pulling Renita into his arms.

Renita is still pretending to sob in Justin's arms. A little grouchy because he failed to get Justin to side with him. But, he will not give up. Slowly, he would make Justin side with him, as he wished.

I won't stay silent until they're really engaged! Because Austin only has me!

"Calm down, I'm sure you can. Okay?" Justin smiled to see that Renita had stopped crying. "Yes, try to see your wounds. Let's get brother medicine!"

As Renita slowly hides her hand, lest Justin know what really happened. "Eum it, do not need sister, let me just medicine it. The wound is small, I can do it myself. Brother mending to the room, rest, it's too late."

"But what is your room?" justin hesitated to leave.

"Udah Brother, no papa. I can sort it out myself later!" renita said while expelling.

"Yes, I went back to my room first. You abis is directly sleeping. It's malem!" Justin rubbed the top of Renita's head, before leaving the room that was still very messy.

"Huft is lucky not to be caught!" Renita rubbed her chest breathed a sigh of relief, then looked at her fine fingers. Before Justin opened the door, he did take a red liquid in the nightstand.

"I'm sorry, brother. There's no other way, I just want to defend my rights. I don't want to be in them anymore!" lirih Renita looked at the door of the room that was closed perfectly.

While outside the room, the new Justin closes the door immediately shocked by Shabira's whereabouts there. Justin, he doesn't want Shabira to hear all the talk of him and Renita before. As a brother, he only wanted the best for his siblings. However, now he feels guilty before Shabira for defending Renita earlier.

"Shabira, since when are you here?" ask Justin about it.

"Since Brother entered this room," Shabira replied. Just like Justin, Shabira also had heard the sound of some objects falling from Renita's room. The three of them were indeed side by side, in contrast to the rooms of Papa and Mama who were on the first floor.

"What are you ...."

"Yes, I'm beating everything. But I'm sorry, brother. Because I would never let Austin refuse this match!" shabira.

"Do you really like Austin?" ask Justin. Actually he was a little surprised by Shabira's current attitude. Usually the girl would give in when she heard Renita want something she had. But now Shabira wants to keep what she has.

"According to Justin?" ask Shabira flat. The girl moved her feet closer. "Just like Renita, I loved Austin a long time ago. If now you want to ask her for Renita, sorry I can't. I used to ask for my things just to give them to Renita and I always gave them. Even one time my sister never asked me how I felt at that time, when my favorite item was owned by Renita."

"If you want to ask for my favorite item again, I'm sorry I won't be able to give it again. Because now I have nothing, I only have Austin. While the biological Papa I had always even compared me to Renita, she always praised Renita in front of me. Then what would Brother do if I was in my position?" shabira asked after speaking at length.

"I knew Big Brother would definitely choose to maintain that love, just like me!"

Shabira left, after successfully making Justin speechless a thousand languages. Now Justin just realized, that all this time he always sided with Renita without thinking about the feelings of his youngest sister. He was never sensitive to Shabira, because Shabira had never been seen complaining before everyone. Unlike Renita who always expressed her complaints only to Justin.

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