Lasta Qais(Not Love Qais)
Between fret and longing

This afternoon, the invitation bus from the hut al hidayah is ready to pick up all the santri after his long holiday.If the heart is still heavy to part with the family, but the compulsion must be put forward to lead to self-sufficiency.

"Son, study diligently there!!, if you miss the same mother will stay on the phone." said Miss Diana to her daughter.

"Iya Buu,doain Safinah ya Bu."sap safinah held back crying.

"God, my mother always doain the daughters of my mother nakkk..!"miss Diana replied softly.

"That bus is coming,!"exclaimed Miss Diana when she saw a bus enter the Wonosari tea garden yard.

"Mom,, Safinah pamit ya..Mother take good care of herself, take care of her health, Buu, "said safinah while hugging her mother tightly before boarding the bus that was ready to turn back.

"Yeah son, you too huh.?"

"Yeah, my mommy.. Assalamualaikum Boo..!"safinah pamit.

Safinah waved her hand to her mother who was still standing there watching the departure of Safinah.Safinah eyes watery seeing her mother smile and return the wave of her hand.The further, the further away,his mother's body was getting smaller and smaller to be lost blocked by the distance traveled.After just looking at his mother, Safinah chose a seat next to the window that was open.

His eyes stared out, staring blankly into the streets filled with beautiful trees.Four years have traveled his life in the hut Al hidayah, teaching him about many things in the association.Santri is also human, he said,no doubt if the sense of love grows without permission.Many love that has been pushed aside by Safinah during her teens to grow up.But this time, why the heart gives space for someone who wants to reign in her heart.

"O Allahhh, I do not know what I have chosen.I look forward to your pleasure at every step of my life, O Allahhh, do not leave me with this choice.Keep me from speaking to you, O Allahhh."safinah whispered in her heart.Safinah turned her head up so that her tears did not fall.Crossed the incident last night when she spoke with Ustadz Zul.

"Safinah,,ustadz already talked about yourself to the mother.But the mother did not respond well.Pardon ustadz Safinah,ustadz feel guilty to you.But deep in the heart of ustadz,ustadz seriously want to make you as a companion for life ustadz.Sit is not even ustadz intend to play you.Pardon ustadz Safinah."safinah heart again crowded considering the words of ustadz Zul.New few days ustadz Zul asked him ta'aruf,but already said that.

"Keep what about me ustadz,?,"the question of Safinah sounded sad.If only Safina could continue the question, she would add a little more."Have we stopped ustadz,?"but Safinah's heart was too weak, and she was too innocent for romance.Safinah really did not think like a firm woman, because her heart was created from tenderness.Di when her heart was very fragile, she was very,ustadz Zul once again encouraged his beloved safinya.

"It's okay Safinah, we will step again.Ustadz will persuade the mother later."This sentence gives a glimmer of hope for Safinah who almost withered.

"Heummmm.."Safinah sighed deeply to neutralize her messy feelings.Today Safina felt the beauty of love, this time also love broke her soul.

Safinah leaned back and closed her two round eyes.Because her mind was cool to wander everywhere, Safinah did not realize someone was coming closer to her.

"Pukk,"Safinah was shocked to get a slight blow to her thigh.

"Astaghfirulhhhhh...!!"safinah was shocked.

Safinah opened her eyes wide looking at Kia who was stretching out her hands.

"Goddessahhhh....!!"exclaiming Safinah a little hard.They hugged each other to take off the miss.

"When have you been sitting next to me,?"safinah asked kia.

"Astaghfirullah,,,,!!, already from earlier Buu.!, did not feel anyone sitting next to you Fin,,!?geeznn..gimana nih nih son."celoteh kia at length.

"I was wandering into our subconscious, eating my lost consciousness for a moment" said a perfunctory safinah.

"The reason is very logical, yes,,!"ledek.

"Finn, how are you with ustadz,,?"whispers to Safinah.

"Sstttttttt.Don't ask that first here,,!!"safinah was alert.

"They don't cry finn, look at their tuhhh at sleep, sampe gawk at his mouth,, hhhaha.." said kia while laughing in a held voice.

"Hihhhhi,, yes, yes, too.see kiii pity them until his head nods that bell,,!"whispered Safinah chimed in.

"Hhhhhhaa,.uppss.."laughter accidentally broke.

"Kiaaa, I've said ahhh," whispered Safinah with a straight face forward, avoiding as a suspect.

"Hhuuuuaammm,,, Iyaaa sorry sorry.ff." replied kia feigning sleepiness in an indistinct voice.

"Where are you, then,,?"ask Safinah.

"Eummmmmm,, no tauuu.." answered kia while wailing forward and backward.

"Ohhh nitaaa...!"exclaim kia when looking at the image of Nita in the mirror love who is in the penangnya.

"Where,,?"tanya Safinah, looking back.

"Assalamualaikum everyone...!"said Nita with a face of sumringah.His other friends were awake because of the noise of the three of them.

"Yes Allah...kangen very much the same you.!!"said Nita while hugging kia and Safinah one by one.

"Finn,"call Nita while raising her eyebrows, hinting at something.

"What,,?"ask Safinah astonnn.

"Safinah said do not be noisy, then we will interrogate until at the cottage."said kia who understands the Nita isyarah.They sit one bench three.Since their bodies are small not too contained, because they are not too full,one bench was fit for the three of them.They deliberately did not close their eyes, in order to enjoy the journey to the cottage.

"Heumm, why do I suddenly miss the same ustadz Zul?" said the safinah in my heart.

"Yes Allahhh, what if we meet each other later,?,, duhhhh, very deg-degan ya rabbb..kia and Nita must be tempting me desperately later.I have to mentally prepare from now on, I have to be mentally prepared from now on,before being bombarded by the same question they both asked."whisper Safinah's heart again.

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"Three more days I will meet Safinah in class.Huftt,, I feel guilty with Safinah, but I want to fight for her first.Maybe in the future the mother has agreed to me married." - mumam ustadz Zul, I have to say,after lunch at a lesehan stall.

"How about me ustadzzz...how about me ustadzzz..?"the sound of Safinah's poignancy rang in the mind of Zul.At one side Zul ustadz loved Safinah very much, wanting to make her as the queen of her household later.On the other hand, Zul was very fond of Safinah,there is a mother who is also the most important queen in the life of ustadz Zul.Ustadz Zul sure, the heart of the woman is soft.As time goes by her parents will definitely give permission for her to marry.

"Patience my safinahhku,,,ustadz will retain you as a future mother for the children of ustadz later. hhhhee.."cuckold ustadz Zul at the tip, he said,his love for Safinah makes himself far from dreaming to have cute children with Safinah.Dan ustadz Zul is very sure if Safinah is a good mother figure for his children later.