Lasta Qais(Not Love Qais)
Prolonged dilemma

Starting from a struggle, determination, and prayer to the almighty.Finally ustadz Zul get the love of his safina.Ustadz Zul, never knew the female figure in his life but his heart was not to make him crazy like this.And also, he also knew the woman in his life,the woman instead went to leave herself to marry others.Ustadz Zul a simple figure, with a slightly established family.Wish to step into serious stages with safinah in a short time,it should be set aside for a moment to obey the will of the mother.Although the mother did not say anything, but from a less pleasant response it can be concluded that to marry ustadz Zul is still in the red zone.

As for safinah, beautiful girl, polite, and never associated with men.She is principled, will not establish a relationship with any man, if not the time.Will but, because of the seriousness of ustadz Zul in asking her ta'aruf, and will soon get married, but,making himself agree to the invitation of the ustadz.Just like ustadz Zul, Safinah is also not allowed to bind an uncertain relationship by his mother and only brother.However, again because of the seriousness of the ustadz, the,make Safinah defend ustadz Zul in his ta'aruf process.

Kia and Nita, the best friends who always rejoice in any case.Entah how if they split up, and there will be a body left in the hut Al hidayah later.May the three be happy at the same time.

2018, begins the journey of the love story of Safinah with ustadz Zul.The initial intention to do ta'aruf.Namun, but,as time went on the mother of the ustadz still gave the same response.To make both survive in a bond that can no longer be said with ta'aruf.Keadaan had cracked, so that the two of them could not be,when ustadz Zul conveyed that his mother still gave him the red light.However, the affection of the sincere ustadz Zul for his safina, made them continue on his journey.

This is no longer talking for months, though,but for many years without the slightest certainty.Safinah is often frightened by this relationship.Relationship that eventually able to lead him to the wrong path.Lantas what sin Safinah bears, the,so that his life must live a love story floating in the ocean, without any one who wants to help even his lover though.

Four years have been the journey of love ZULFI.No direction, towards the same goal.The story of love today is no longer as beautiful as the first time met.If before Safinah was still a student taught by ustadz Zul.But now, even now,at the age of twenty-three, Safinah with her friends has become an ustadzah in charge of educating and teaching other generations of students.

Everything is no longer the same.Safinah has grown up, everything must be forced to mature even though the heart is not able to with all the reality.

"Ustadzah,,!, here's a gift from my mom in the village for the ustadzah." said one of the students while thrusting a bag of blue crackle, which seemed to contain a lot.

"Thank you aina, but say hello to your mom,!"safinah replied smiling behind her veil.As soon as the bell rang the mark of study hours was over, Safinah ended her studies and walked back to the room while carrying a bag of crackle that was quite heavy.

"Czech," said the door of the room that was opened.

"Assalamualaikum.."pronounced safinah on kia, who also seems to have just entered after teaching earlier.

"Ehhh, what the fuck is finnn,!?"ask kia curious.

"This is loh, he said by-by from his mother Aina.Murid I who often studied here." replied Safinah.

"Ohhhh, so this is for Safinah yaaa...!"said kia calling with ustadzah frills.

"Open dong finn, once there is a frog prince in it!," he chuckled.

"Yesa, the prince will come out right now" answered Safinah to chimed in.

"Kress kresss.."the sound of a crackle pouch opened by Safinah.

"Kiiii, there are mangoes.!, rambutan, samaaa rice boxes,!. Alhamdulillah.mama Aina very good loh Ki, kekemaren love meatballs two.This is even another.. Goddamn..!"exclaim Safinah smiled.

"The Sons of Sholehah..!"

"You dong finnn,," she asked.

"Take Kii, I'll know you one day, you know,!"answer Safinah.Kiaun sitting next to Safinah took a very red rambutan fruit.

"Fin, Anita Tumben long really back home, huh,?"say kia while peeling rambutan skin.

"What,?make people curious.."we narrowed his eyes.

"Eumm, maybe Nita was fooled, or not been saved from the past, now new in unboxing." said Safinah held back laughter hearing her own words.

"Hhhhhhh, don't say the words.!, almost a sprain of rambutann..uhukk" said kia patting her aching chest.

"Hehe,maaffff..I'm talking really."srettt, be careful if this really happens.

"Finn,,,"kia called Safina with teary eyes.

"Udahhh, don't be lebay dehhh..!"safinah avoids this melow atmosphere.

"Kii, the rice field is so good,,!"safinah said tasting a little of her sauce.

"I also want Fin, heukkk" said kia lirih withstanding her sadness.

Actually Safinah also felt the same thing if her suspicions were true.However, she had to be tough to face all this because what she had chosen was the destiny of the almighty.

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"Yes Allahhh, what is going on in my life,?, four years have I been in love with ustadz Zul.But all is the same,ustadz Zul did not also come to my family home.How much effort he actually told me.What just by asking his parents,without trying harder to convince their hearts.Or indeed he no longer put his taste to me, O Allahhh.."Safina screams, alone in the room reading a book.

"Huftttt, "Safinah moved from her seat to the bed.Safinah closed her eyes when she remembered all the words of her mother and sister at home at that time.

"Son, you've been waiting for a long time for your ustadzmu.Is he serious about you,?," said Diana's mother.

"Yes dek, I don't like your relationship that is not clear gini.Maybe ustadz just want to know about you deck, because you used to be discussed as much as many ustadz there."tipal brother.

"But Ma'am, kak,ustadz Zul did plan to marry me.. It was the first time ustadz Zul approached safinah, he did directly invite ta'aruf, and then married.He was just waiting for his parents to give permission."Safinah tried to explain, even though her heart was equal with her mother and brother.

"My love is sincere for you ustadzz.I can not imagine if the words of sister Shena is true.I have given my love and love for you.Ustadz, I put this trust fully in you.Don't disappoint me ustadz."the cry of Safinah's heart at this moment.

Safinah said it to ustadz Zul, so as not to disappoint him.

"Ustadz, don't let me down.!"Safinah.

However, Zul just replied.

"Safinah, your words make ustadz sad."That's the only answer.

"Let me reveal all the clumping chips on my chest, but I can't.I can't always say much with ustadz Zul, even through my cell phone,it is not the time to complain.I must be able to pass through the choices I have chosen from the beginning."safinah muttered to herself.