Liebe Zu Maiza's
Maria Carey's

The hall was getting crowded with uuu sounds, some ptotes pitched asking me to come down. Someone raised my thumb upside down for me.

What if I go down, it might be better than being a laughing stock like Daniza.

A plan is being set in my head. I'm gonna go downstairs, grab a bag and then run out the side door. I've only been here a month, certainly still less who know me.

"Please start Maiza, this is your last chance!" resolute Bu Mirah.

I was very sure I would beat the shame, but seeing Azmi et al. enter, the shame re-emerged with excessive mules. Clear crystals spring up at the end of the temple.

Ayu and Daniza encouraged me even though in the eyeballs of both of them there was excessive worry.

Mama, Anaya and Aunt Yusnita face with their sweet little daughter. They are the ones who love me, some of their self-esteem is stored in my face. For their sake, the people I love I will do it.

The chaos in the hall is getting harder to control. Several times the host asked for the calm of the audience and participants.

I closed my eyes to be lifted from the unpleasant sight of those who were unhappy with me and started. The song Autumn Flowers reminds me of Dad, the first love in the world, the only man who fought to divide me until the end of his life. My voice had begun to rule the hall that had been silent since I started earlier. I tried to finish it without caring about the response of anyone in front of me.

The second song My All. I'm trying to kill him. The shadow of the shady-eyed man entered within my tight eyelids. He's all I remember. I open my eyes every now and then to remove her shadow. But the shadow comes back in if the net is tight.

I finally finished a hard job. A high tone I tried to reach even with great difficulty. Fortunately, it does not squeak or run out of sound.

These eyes are still tight. I dare not open, unprepared with insults and degrading views from anyone. Although I'm sure there's not the slightest false tone.

Someone applauded me for making sure I did well. I opened my eyes and saw in the distance, he stood up and looked at me. With a flat expression but the look in his eyes made this self feel drifting, he kept clapping, his movements followed the others. The hall came back boisterous with the sound of applause stirring with a whistle.

In the corner there, Mrs Mirah smiled. Behind him three human children look at me like they see disgrace. Azmi was furious, her facial water began to go out, her satisfied smile had disappeared, she clenched her mouth.

Afni's chest cavity was crammed with irritability, it was very visible in her chains. His eyes on me were full of threats. Maybe his heart was saying 'watch it when it's home.'

While the one friend, who until now I do not know his name, and indeed I do not intend to find out, still gives a monotonous expression as usual, as usual, smiling with unsymmetrical lips while playing with her curly hair.

Daniza and Ayu welcomed me. There was a sense of disbelief from them over what he had just seen. Their mouths are half open.

"He's my friend!" yell Daniza proud.

Daniza held her mouth close to my ear, her voice slowly dominated the air but it was clear, "You have done your best, your voice is character and color, you did it perfectly, you deserve a stage with Maria Carey," whispered.

"I'm backing out!"

"What?" yelled Daniza almost at peace with Ayu. Both eyes almost came out.

"I'm backing out!"

"Wait waiting, can it be repeated? You want to back off, you say?" Daniza assured herself that she had not misheard.

"Yes, I'm going to back off!"

"Don't tell me because Azmi's in the office chair!" suspicious Ayu.

"Ehe .. You're funny huh, we've just had a selection and are about to back off, sure you'll get away with it?"

"Your voice is good but not necessarily your vocal technique is good. Many applauders think your voice is good, it's because they're blind to music. Many participants whose voice is good, the vocal technique is right, the soul can also be, while those who will qualify as members are only twenty-five people. So please don't miss pede!" daniza's style of speech is similar to that of a dangdut contest jury.

Daniza's right. I'm late for pede. Maybe it was because of the influence of the arrival of Azmi et al., it felt like I was lazy to deal with them. It's only been two days in their circle but it feels like a century.

"Za, you have potential, why should it recede just because there are some people who do not like it. Just ignore them, show them that they are nothing in our lives, do not give room in the heart," Ayu's advice as Mama's advice. Both of my best friends have always made me brave.

The selection show has ended. Me, Ayu and Daniza parted at the gate. Their pick-up has arrived.

Today aunt Yusnita has an office until night, so I'm going home on the bus. It feels lazy to take the bus, but it must be how else, there is no other way.

I rushed towards the stop, but my steps were stopped with three demon-spirited human children standing in front of me.

"Eh, village woman, I remind you, from this moment far from my eyes. I'm starting to get sore eyes because I see you continue." he snapped.

"Your attendance at this school has made my day a mess!" snapped again.

I want to retaliate with more cruel, more stabbing insults [Eh, town girl, if you get an eye pain from seeing me, there to the drugstore, if you get sick, there are many ear drops that can make your eyes see nothing! And your presence also makes my days ravine!] but I say, I'm enough to hold him in my heart.

If it was with him, the look in his eyes was still like that, full of threats. I can't do anything, the kindness of her mother and sister can cover all the bad sides.

"Oh yes one more, if it passes as a vocal member, I suggest resigning or you will regret it!" a sharp warning before they leave.

At the stop I was waiting alone. Azmi's treatment is shadowed.

In the bus are still those who control this mind. My happiness is just a moment. They didn't let me enjoy my days at school so well after that spilled hot chocolate.

Isn't that problem over. The novel has changed a new one, though it wasn't me who replaced it.

What's wrong with trying, if I join a vocal organization, the problem of those who are administrators there is another matter.

Afni also followed. I am his cousin, my mother and Aunt Yusnita are still siblings, but his treatment of me is like an enemy. Where's my bad luck?

My eyes are fixed on the view out there. While my mind was scattered everywhere, my heart was in a mess.

"Where's it coming down?"

The sound of the conductor shocked me. I looked to the right, the people were down. There were only three passengers including me who had not disembarked. The two people in front had also stood up, meaning that they would also come down.

"At Sudirman Station."

"Halte Sudirman has passed from earlier Dik, this is already the third stop after the Sudirman Stop."

"What!"

I quickly got down. It's getting dark. At the Stop I tried to contact aunt Yusnita. The number is inactive.

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