Like a Former Nail
SEASON 2 Episode 1
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“Bukde, I go home first yes,” my goodbye while taking a sling bag hung next to a wooden cabinet.
“You go directly to Ajimart?”
My head shook. “Ngak Bukde's. I'm in at two. I want to stop somewhere.”
“This was still a side dish left over. You just take it.” Bukde Rini offers a bag of black plastic. “Be careful on the road,”.
I received the plastic bag without hesitation. It can save money on eating. “Still Bukde,” my word.
After traveling for thirty minutes by bus and continuing on foot, I finally reached my destination, at a retail toy store. I looked around for a while before picking out a toy car bearing a police car and asking to be wrapped in wrapping paper. Hope he likes it.
The return journey continues until it stops at a house that seems abandoned. I put the gift in front of the closed gate. Almost every year on this date, I always come here, even though I know all of this is nothing but futility. But at least this as a form if I always remember its existence. So that he is not lonely in nature. “Happy birthday, Son,” I'm moving slowly.
I'm starting to wonder. As I often do when I stand here. Suppose that... If I hadn't eliminated him, he might be seven years old by now. He must be smiling right now, happy to get a present.
My eyes glazed over and I forced my face towards the sky, trying to hold the clear grains that were about to flow.
Suppose that... I'm back to dreaming. If time could turn around, or the police could be a day faster just dive the abortion clinic, maybe El—call for my little baby was—can be present to see the world. Or if I had a bolder and more vocal attitude, maybe I wouldn't have fared like this.
“Pardon Mama El and hope we meet soon.” My hand rubbed the fence as if it was rubbing its head. I wanted so badly to meet my little baby that I even tried to commit suicide. The scar of the incision was still clearly visible on my wrist. “Im sorry Mama El. Don't be angry again Mama.” I suddenly remembered her angry look last night.
“Later Mama will be here, bringing a gift that...” suddenly the sound from behind the sling bag pocket diverts a little of my attention, and my chest instantly thumped at the sight of the screen. Why did the figure suddenly call, did something happen. “Halo Tan,” I took a deep breath before saying it. There was such a great reluctance to pick up the call, but ignoring it was a big mistake.
“Tomorrow you have to come here!” change the voice from behind the phone without further ado or return my greeting.
“But tomorrow I have...” I no longer continue my sentence because I heard a call that was cut off unilaterally. I exhaled a lethargic breath. The middle-aged woman never changed.
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“Tumben Late Sya. Where are you from?”
“From somewhere,” I replied with a small smile. After the call of Aunt Ria thirty minutes ago, I suddenly felt heavy to move on. I sat in front of the fence, wishing that one day a miracle would come, realizing all my desires. Or if I can't, God can take my life. “Mas Yudi is in his room, La?”
“There. Why Sya?”
“I want to leave for tomorrow.”
“Kok tumben Yes. Just this time I heard you wanted to take a leave of absence, usually never. You always make your cut scorched every year,” Lala stared in astonishment.
“There is little business.”
Lala took the clipboard and grabbed it. “You want to keep a cashier or recap stock items?”
Lala breezed happily towards the only door at the end of the room, and I started counting the money already in the cash register while waiting for the picky buyer.
“Good day buk, anything else to add?” I said with a big smile and the buyer replied with a shake. I'll process it immediately. Do not forget to say thank you when handing over your groceries.
Next line forward. As a cashier who has been working for five years, I would like to greet you kindly. But my mouth suddenly became silent when these eyes saw that face. My heart rate is beating fast. My forehead began to appear grains of sweat. My head was also in pain, once a shadow appeared.
“How much is everything?”
Hearing her voice, my throat suddenly felt sour. I try not to spit it out.
“How much?” Once again the thick-browed man asked.
With trembling hands, I took the items he bought and brought them closer to the barcode scanner machine. “Se-everything de-eighty li-five thousand.”
The man gave a hundred thousand dollars. “The rest is to make a donation only,” he said. He took his plastic and walked away.
My body immediately sat on the floor with hunting breaths and an increasingly painful head. I close my mouth when I feel like something is coming out.
“Keiysha, what happened?” Lala came with a surprised and worried look.
“I ti...” My head was getting sicker, my vision was also blurry before it finally darkened with Lala's voice calling my name.
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I smelled an unpleasant smell, so stinging, like the smell of drug alcohol. I tried to open my eyes, but I felt very clingy.
“Your body is really scrumptious.”
My eyelids spontaneously opened wide and this retina found a male figure that was on top of my body. I couldn't see his face clearly, because it was quite dark here with lighting just from the lights outside the window. My eyes grew even more wide when I saw the bare chest before me. My hands tried to push him away, trying to keep him away from the top of my body.
“Ahk!” I suddenly screamed as I felt pain in my private area.
“Newly this time I felt this kind of pleasure,” said the man in my left ear before biting him.
Cry broke. I tried to rebel, trying to let go of this painful union. I can't remember why I was here, because I remember I was at Aji Mart and counting the buyers.
“Ahk!” again I screamed when something stabbed me deeper and felt very painful, like being force-torn. “Let me go! Let go of me!” With the remnants of the energy getting weaker, I kept trying to break away.
Disturbed by the movement of my hand, the man took both of my hands and put them together on his head, then he brought his face closer to mine, about to approach my lips. I tried to dodge, shaking my head. But with another hand, she held my face to keep quiet.
My eyes stared at the horror as our gaze met. The fear is getting worse. Then suddenly a flash appeared followed by a rumbling sound and that was when I could see his face. That guy... The guy who was shopping at my place of work.
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