Like a Former Nail
SEASON 2 Episode 6

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UNEDITED

My first meeting with Mas Abram went on to the next meeting. Today we also promised to meet, over dinner. Abram is a caring and gentleman. Several times he made my cheeks meet red, even though he only did small things, such as opening the lid of mineral water without being asked, or always ensuring my comfort first.

“Congratulations da—” I did not continue my sentence when I saw the figure of Devian who opened the door Aji Mart. I immediately took a slow breath and exhaled. There's nothing to deal with, he doesn't remember, my inner self.

“Welcome,” I say again.

Devian replied with a brief nod, then disappeared between the shelves of snack sections. Spontaneously I let out a long sigh, and immediately took out a water drink that was deliberately placed under the cashier table. Although I seemed to have made peace with the past, but the reaction given by my body was not in line. I felt my body wet from the sweat. My heart is still beating hard, too. Maybe it needs a process.

Five minutes passed, Devian approached the cashier table and placed two baskets on the table. “Fruit parts where?”

“At the very end Pak to the left of the entrance Pak.”

“There?” devian asked while pointing.

“Iya Sir,” I replied with a nod.

“What fruits are there?”

“There are bananas, pears, apples, and others Pak.”

Our eyes clashed before I chose to look elsewhere.

“There is mango?” ask Devian.

“There sir,” I replied with a little indifference and this time I hope he doesn't invite me to interact again. I feel like he did it intentionally. Fortunately, this time he quickly moved. He returned with a basket filled with fruits. “There's more, Sir?” ask me to talk, the procedure is so.

“Place processed products where?”

“That's sir, on the left side Mr.”

Devian turned his head to the side, then picked it up randomly. “Please count,” said.

One by one, I stick it to the barcode scanner. At first I did this scanning with focus, but long ago began to feel anger. I didn't see it, but I could feel that Devian was looking at me.

“All seven hundred eighty-three thousand.”

Devian handed me a black card.

“This is the card sir,” I said after the transaction was completed. I also handed him plastic bags containing the items he bought earlier. “Thank you,” timpalku.

Devian simply replied with a nod, then took his groceries and stepped away.

“I hate you so much. May we never see each other again.”

Suddenly Devian turned around. I spontaneously closed my mouth with my hands. Maybe he listened to my words, but I intended to say them in my heart, and they just popped out. Devian seemed to want to get closer, his legs had moved a few steps, but was undone when he saw that in front of my cashier's desk there were already other customers. I immediately felt gratitude.

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I glanced at the clock at the wrist, it was already nine o'clock past. Maybe in about five minutes, Mas Abram will be there. Like the chat this morning, Mas Abram and I are going to have dinner together.

“Can we talk to you for a minute?”

I decided to look at Instagram while waiting to look up. My pupils instantly enlarged when I saw the Devian who was already standing in front of me.

“I thought of what you said this afternoon,” lontarannya.

I took a breath and then stood up. “Just ignore my words.”

“You can't possibly say it for no reason,” Devian insisted.

“That sentence is not meant for you,” I said as I walked away. Can't he just ignore it. Consider it a phrase that needs no thought. But suddenly Devian held my wrist, prevented my departure, and I reflexively slammed. My eyes stared at the horror at him. “GO! GO AWAYL! DON'T TOUCH ME!” hysterical shouting.

My mind's raging. The memory of what happened five years ago is rolling, gnawing on all my brain cells. I want to run fast, I want to get away from Devian, but this leg is paralyzed. Even now my eyes are twitching. The ground that is being stepped on seems to sway, like a magnitude earthquake. I crouched down and grabbed my body, trying to protect myself. And after that, I had nothing but darkness present.

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My eyes opened slowly, staring faintly at the faded black ceiling, before my eyelids opened wide and my body rose. I was my head when I felt my head throbbing.

“How are you doing?”

My body spontaneously moved backwards until it stuck to the head of the bed when it noticed that there was another figure in this room.

The man in white was smiling kindly. “Don't be afraid, I won't hurt you. I'm Brian, I'm a doctor.”

“I where?” I asked, looking left and right. This room looks very masculine, with the majority filled with dark minimalist furniture.

“You're in Devian.”'s room

“Devian,” I watered with a vibrating voice. I was in a hurry to get out of bed. I gotta get out of here.

“You all right?” ask Brian while holding my shoulder.

But I immediately brushed it off. “DON'T TOUCH ME!”

“Devian is not here. So you need not fear,” explained Brian who sounded hesitant, not sure whether the sentence he uttered could calm me down. But in fact the sentence was able to make my fear fade a little. “Pull your breath and exhale slowly!” the instructions.

I took a deep breath and took it slow. This feeling of tightness is slightly reduced. Silent. No one spoke, as if Brian had deliberately given me time.

“I want to go home,” My voice barely makes a sound.

“It's late at night, let me drive you home,” Brian bargained.

“No need. I can go home by myself. Just show me where the exit is,” reject me.

“It's too late at night. Public vehicles are rare. If you are uncomfortable because I am that man, I can ask my girlfriend to deliver you.”

“B-well,” I finally decided to approve, considering his words were indeed true.

“I'll call him now.” Brian reached into his pants pocket, pulled out his iphone and made a phone call. They seemed to talk for a while. “Please wait a minute, in five minutes he will be there. The place is on the top floor of this apartment.”

“Thank you,”.

“As you wait, can I check you out. Brian Devi—” did not so continue his sentence, probably because he realized the reaction of my body that suddenly stiffened. “As a licensed doctor, I just can't ignore someone whose face looks pale. It's instinct of the heart,”.

I chose not to respond, just looking at the door of the room.

“So can I check you?”

“I'm fine,” I replied.

“I advise you to see a doctor. It doesn't seem like it's the first time you've fainted all of a sudden. If you often faint, sometimes it can be a serious medical problem.”

I just kept quiet, just walked towards the door of the room and coincided when the door opened, stood a woman with waist-length hair with a green hodie.

“Just use my car, Clau?” ask Brian from behind my body.

“Mobilku only,” answer.

I don't pay much attention to what they're talking about. I just want to go home and lay my body on the bed. Brian escorted me and the woman named Claudia to the door of the apartment. I still kept quiet even though I got to the elevator door that was right in front of the apartment door. This mouth inexplicably refused to make a sound.

“What's up?” claudia asked in astonishment as I suddenly just held onto an arm and hid behind her.

I did not reply, instead lowering my head and hoping that the elevator doors would close tightly. Brian's lying. Brian said that Devian wasn't in the apartment. But in fact, Devian was standing behind Brian and looking at me.

THANKS FOR READING. MAY YOU WAIT FAITHFULLY.