Living in a Shield World
Perturbed

REMORSEFULLY

Every time I look at that woman, I know something's wrong with me. I, who could always keep myself in front of the opposite sex, became devastated, helplessly reacting very emotionally

That woman named Merryl, stole my attention. He was just a servant, a shield-nosed, his gray hair, his scent, and the way he said move, making me forget where I am right now

I remember when Macbirth patted me on the back, I was now a king

My friends said she might look like Hannah, the woman who was my wife and died in the chaos of Sammy's attack.

I couldn't think clearly if he was in front of me, wanting to meet Hannah, and expressing my regret, maybe so when Merryl was in front of me

How could the dead come back to life?

When I was alone in the office, looking out from the glass, the trees outside, I always remembered Hannah's barn house, which had been a silent witness to our togetherness for almost a year

I'm too jealous, I can't deny there are negative thoughts about him coming out at night

But, I have no right to judge him, I should have approached him, to have him open to me. He doesn't trust me completely, doesn't tell me much about his personal life. Just like me who also kept my status a secret at that time, who was still the crown prince

I shouldn't be too demanding, because I'm hiding a part of my life. But my regret is too late, Hannah can't come back

That afternoon, the day went on as usual. I can already reveal my identity, without a half shield. But of course, my name is not Andro, but Andy.

I even visited my father a lot, in the administration. To just see Hannah getting thinner. All the administrative staff don't know me, my body is full, and my real hair is no longer hidden

Although Hannah saw Andro's face without a half shield, I'm sure she wouldn't have expected Andro and Andy's crown prince to be the same person

Busy afternoon in administration as usual. I went to see Dad, after almost a month I didn't say hello to him.

Usually before entering the office, I have telepathized with my father, he does not like to be disturbed when there are guests

From outside the administration room, I tried to telepathize with my father. Silent no answer, usually there will always be an answer, "Later Andy, I'm still busy" or "Hurry up, son"

But this time it was quiet, I went into the administration room, everything was busy. As I was about to knock on the door, Tang Wei approached me then said, "So My King received a guest, his guest hasn't come out yet"

"How many hours has the guest been inside?"

"Three hours"

"What?", anyone who is not the closest person will not visit you that long"

I forced my way into the room, Dad was lying on the floor on his face, no one was accompanying him

I'm late to arrive

The medical team came right away, helped Dad

I saw the entire administrative staff in shock, they were confused. Millard fainted, while dad was on a stretcher. "Your Highness the crown prince, I was accompanying the king to receive a guest, an old friend he said, they spoke for almost two and a half hours. I'll prepare lunch for the two of them.but, My King.."

Millard's explanation brightened my mind, at least I know how long you've been unconscious. And not suspecting the administration

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Dad, declared a stroke, it took a long time to recover. I will soon be king

I asked dad to explain who the guest was that made dad have a stroke, but ', "I'm indeed guilty of Andy, I deserve this", a very desperate answer to a king

Next week I will be crowned as the new king, because my father is sick, and can no longer serve as the supreme leader of this country

For a while I was in the administration, preparing the move of the king's room to the main hall building, the place that should be for a king

I asked the entire administrative staff to prepare everything. With a little emotion everywhere, I scolded the one that worked so slowly.

Hannah was so strong, despite getting thinner, she ran around and around preparing for everything

"Sorry Your Majesty, all reports of royal documents are ready to be transported for transfer"

"Hmmm"

"This is the main office plan, Your Majesty wants an office where, then the entire document wants to be placed where?"

"This is my study, and this is the document room, this is the staff room, this is the waiter room, this is the room for large guests, "Hannah observes my wishes carefully without taking notes.

Hannah my very intelligent wife, I know her memory skills above filler tribes. God, I really want to touch and feel her scent again

I thought too far as I looked at Hannah's face, reciting my request, "His Majesty? Anything else you want to fix the room?"

"Repurbish the room, change the entire interior, and the color of the curtains, turn it into my room in the military office" Hannah nodded

And that was the last time I saw her face, Hannah went with me to go downtown, buy some pretty rare stuff for my office

I'm the one who made Hannah not here anymore, if my demands weren't too much, there's no way the administration staff would have interfered with me

The center of the city was paralyzed, attacked by pain-resistant soldiers, and attacked blindly, whoever was in front of him

Those deserters, they can't be saved anymore. My winged army, wiped them all out

The city centre was destroyed, flames everywhere, including civilian casualties charred by fire, as it was trapped

The large number of troops that arrived late, making the civilian casualties too many

A bustling city center, deliberately targeted, Sammy has completely lost his mind. They no longer want to kill civilians

The mad soldiers, secured by his body, were identified. And civilian victims too

While working in the administration room, I saw the administration staff grieving, flowers on Hannah's desk

I caught a glimpse, then entered the office with the military generals discussing the steps of handling post-attack

But my brain isn't in its place, my body is lung lai. On Hannah's table, there were lots of flowers, Hannah was a victim.

I can't focus, I'm asking Sam and Macbirth to represent me.

I rushed to the barn house, maybe Hannah was just sick. There's no one. The house is still quiet, I have a duplicate key, in a house with Hannah's signature flavor I cried all the way

I slept in Hannah's bed, looking for her scent that was still left behind. If only my pride as crown prince was not too high, I would have apologized and made up with him again. Now grieving doesn't bring Hannah back

I slept all day. The door knocks, "Andy, it's me Brian, are you okay Andy?"

I opened the door, Brian, the doctor Brian stood anxiously in front of me. "You okay, man?"

This one friend of mine, doesn't have telepathic powers, but he can find me here.

Suddenly it's all dark. I woke up no longer in Hannah's house, but in a hospital room.

My tenth friend stood by me in the room, busy with his coins. But then they ran over to me who was conscious

They seem to know I am sad. Brian investigated my life as Andro, and he found out about Hannah, and her death

"Relax Andy, we will accompany you to forget Hannah", Wei Long comforted in a brutal manner

"You are this, you never lose....?!", Meridians were angry, her eyes were pushy at Wei Long

"Why do you want Meridian, I'm just trying to comfort Andy, who no longer exists should be forgotten", Wei long did not accept in the pelototti

"It's a pity that Andy just realized", Hans tried to mediate

But the fight, it doesn't end. I'm not bothered, they do like to have different opinions like that

I enjoyed this noise, a little to the relief of my sadness and regret over Hannah's departure, for good

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I was sworn in unaccompanied, due to an emergency. A week after I was sworn in, there was a lot of gossip about my next door. One of them is I already have a wife

Until the buffer council calls me, I don't have to explain anything to anyone

My friends also kept their mouths shut, because my marriage was never officially announced, never even registered