Living in a Shield World
Understand Andy

UNDERSTAND ANDY

Being so cold to me, what do you mean Andy, after everything you've done for me, you can still act like nothing's happened? You're dreaming

"Hannah, I know you don't want to hear about Andy, but I have to tell you this. Upon returning from Kiehl, Andy experienced very high radiation"

"Of course, he lived there a long time ago, surely radiation affects his body a lot"

"If it were just radiation, but there's something else...."

"You mean what doctor..."

" Kiehl's anesthetic amount is too much in his body, he should be purified first. His blood is dangerous to Rossy"

" He.... sick?"

" It hurts Hannah"

"Bius Kiehl, isn't that very dangerous?!"

"Very Hannah, you were like you were dead when you were shot by Kiehl, and then that dope made you see heaven in your life. Then when you realize you're gonna forget how heaven is"

"Heaven?"

"Yes heaven, the happiest memory in life, you are willing not to wake up from sleep, only to see the memories played again, and again"

"Did Andy forget....."

"Andy forgot about you, everything about you"

"You mean...."

"You're heaven for him Hannah"

My tears were pouring down, I couldn't contain them, I was sitting limp hearing Doctor Brian's explanation.

Then will everything be fine, after he remembers everything? Wouldn't he feel guilty, and would make him sicker

I could say nothing, confusion and anxiety against me.

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I saw Rossy sleeping soundly, I also saw Andy standing beside her. When he came out of the sterile room he didn't greet me either. He immediately went with his guards

I can't say hello to him, it seems he doesn't want to be greeted by me

The blood purification process was too fast, making his body very different, whereas a month ago, his body was more stocky

I know, she forced her treatment, she felt so guilty about what happened to Rossy

I hate him so much, but lately, I love him so much. How I wanted to, clasping her hand, and saying "Why, Andy, we're all fine, Rossy's gonna get well"

But the coldness he looked at me, made me stop saying it.

*******

What I'm afraid of is happening, Andy collapsing, his body needs time to recover.

Rossy's stem cell development was very stable, in fact with the amount of blood coming in already very sufficient, he would recover in three years. But I'm glad he's making progress

Suppose I'm not so nosy, want to light a pillar too, of course Rossy wouldn't be like this

I trust Edward so much, he'll be able to keep an eye on Rossy. I was wrong, I was too impulsive, seeing an exhausted Andy, and the pillar light that was starting to blacken

I was reckless, leaving behind two lights of my life, alone. Saw me. Trapped in a magnetic net.

Enough of my stupidity, I don't want to hide from the obvious fact that I can deal with it with Andy. Andy is the father of my children.

I really don't care anymore about how she feels about me, I just want her to treat Rossy.

A simple wish, but very difficult if the circumstances are like this, we are a new family to Andy, the King of this country

I quite clearly saw Andy very carefully presenting himself in a public place. He is building an image for himself

I don't know how to live in the kingdom, it might be scary

He was a crown prince sent to Kiehl, the fiercest prison in Rock Collapse. My King was very fond of his own son

I don't even understand, My King thought, why would he erase the memories of those who knew us?

After Andy realized why he had to pretend he didn't know me? I'm trying to string together all the events. Everything is only possible in strung with a red thread that is the status of Andy as King

I can't accept this painful fact, the highest status in the whole country, it's ruining my life, our lives

Something's wrong, I know something's wrong. If this is the right form of government for Rock Collapse, why should it be this complicated to show existence

Then I realized "My Love", Andy's sword, was his mother's legacy. So when My Queen was alive, the strongest person was also not My King, but his wife

I and the entire population of the country have been obscured by history and news that says the royal family is the strongest

Actually no! They are strong, but not the strongest. I am the strongest now

I was thinking too far, I shouldn't be bothered about Andy's life, but I'm still thinking about it, my brain won't stop

******

"Hi Hannah are you okay?"

Miss Brenda, caress my hair like before

"No Miss, I'm not okay"

"Because of Andy?"

"Miss you called Andy not Andro...."

Didn't Miss not remember my relationship with Andy

"Your uncle, improving my memory, it's no use marrying a genius doctor" Miss Brenda smiled with her teeth.

"You remember....."

"Yes, Hannah I remember everything, I'm sorry, you have to face everything yourself" Miss Brenda hugged me, I knew I shouldn't have accepted her apology

He never asked to lose his memory. Crazy Spain, which made me feel alone, she messed up the memories of so many people

*******

"Mother.I miss Rossy, I want to see her. Tomorrow I go back to school, take me to see Rossy"

"Ok, go home to school, get ready!"

Edward was excited, until that day when Rossy was shot by electricity. Edward never separated from Rossy. This is their first time

They are above average kids their age. I'm proud and sad to accept the fact that after all this is done, I have to give Edward an understanding that Rossy can recover

Edward didn't cry seeing Rossy sleeping, "What's Rossy's mother sick? Why does he sleep on"

"You saw Edward, Rossy's wings went out"

"Oooh, but Rossy's sleeping very well, usually he's very anxious when he's sleeping"

" Rossy's still limp, so his sleep isn't moving"

"Is it good to sleep a lot moving like Rossy, mom?"

"All that sleep nourishes Edward"

"May I accompany Rossy here?"

"This room is only for the sick"

"Ooooh"

"Mother.....Rossy doesn't talk in his sleep"

"You're asking her to telepathize ?"

Edward nodded, "She's tired of Edward, she can't even talk to you"

I saw Edward was very lonely, his tears were dripping, then he quickly wiped them

"Mom, come home, I don't want to be seen crying in front of Rossy, she's gonna fucking tease me"

I smiled, she was so optimistic Rossy would wake up and play with her again

I carried Edward, all the way I smelled his hair, it was so fragrant. Lately I've been too busy going to the hospital, rarely hugging Edward

In the corridor of the hospital, Edward's body whirled from my sling, he noticed something that made him uneasy. His hand pushed away from my body, he wanted to get out of my arms. I put him down, Edward ran towards the people in black suits

The distance was quite far from where we were standing, he just ran, until near the group of men in black, Edward fell down. His little legs do like to link to each other when running, typical of small children

I ran up to Edward, and the men turned to look at Edward who had fallen. In the entourage, there was a very thin and bald-headed man, driven by a wheelchair, and in the nose was attached a small hose of oxygen.

"Dad.....!"

"Dward !!!!"