Love Above the Heart
- Conscious -

I realized when I found my weak body was already in some place I knew.

My eyes blinked adjusting the light entering my cornea.

I opened and closed my eyes repeatedly looking for someone who seemed to have been waiting for my consciousness.

"You're sober?" Ask.

"A, why am I here?" I replied as I was astonished or rather surprised to find someone I knew was the wife of my former boyfriend.

"I found you unconscious around here, you don't ask too many questions first! Because I won't ask you anything but yourself who's ready to say it, I'm sure you already know who I am. Take a break, Gia!" said.

From the answer I can conclude that he knows who I am. In reality, we never knew each other.

Maybe it's more like just knowing each other. She knew I was her husband's ex-boyfriend, and I knew she was Lyra, Nico's wife. My ex-boyfriend when I was in school.

I don't want to ask as much as Lyra's advice.

Lyra went to let me in a foreign room that I just found out was part of Lyra and Nico's house.

I decided to think about why I was here. I remember that I had just arrived in this city with a very great ignorance.

I have no purpose but to run away from where I came from.

I don't know why I'm going to this town, maybe because I'm hoping for the help of my only friend in town. Yes my friend who I consider close but apparently he rejected me after knowing my situation. More precisely he was afraid I was bothering him.

I felt stupid until I finally got tired of being aimless, and I forgot why I ended up here. In this house. I was busy thinking about my whereabouts until I fell asleep.

...*Tick tock tock*...

Without feeling the time to continue playing the role, now I have found my body stretched out in the same place again in the morning after last night I realized my existence. Yeah, at Lyra's. More precisely at Nico's house.

I decided to get up and move my body. It felt heavy and heavy all over my body. But I forced him to stand up. Until I saw Lyra go into the room I was in.

"Gia, you better not move much first"

"I have to get out of here, I don't want to bother here. And I don't want to see Nico" I answered honestly.

"You can stay here first, or at least stay until tomorrow. Nico's got a job out of town. Maybe he's home tomorrow morning. Don't worry Gia, she won't kick you out either"

*"He won't kick me out, but I'll leave before I meet him"* I muttered inwardly.

"What's Gia doing?" Lyra kept asking me, making me feel bad for her.

"Lyra, thank you so much for helping me. Bringing me here. But I really don't feel good the more trouble you get."

"After all, I can't be here. I, I can't stay here" I added, rejecting further the kindness of the wife of the man who was once in my heart.

"I know, but your condition doesn't allow Gia, believe me. Tomorrow I'll tell Nico to let me take you wherever you're headed."

Lyra's words made me even more shocked. Why is this woman so willing to help me. Does he know how I am? Would he think that he didn't.

Seeing me silent Lyra urged me to speak, much different from her last night expression of not asking much.

Now he seems to want to know even really want to know what is wrong with me. Big question who's been gnawing at him since last night.

Seeing me shut up, Lyra made a sound again.

"Why are you in this town Gia? Do you really intend to meet Nico? Sorry Gia, I didn't mean anything. But give me a little explanation." Lyra paused her words for a moment.

"I want to know and nothing to cover if it has anything to do with my husband!" added again.

The question I can interpret is that it's true that Lyra kept a myriad of questions for me. And I don't think he's so eager to help me get to my destination.

More precisely she wanted to make sure on her own that I actually went and made sure not to get in touch with her husband again.

"Lyra, I don't want to cover anything. And my existence here has nothing to do with Nico. I'm here and I'm being helped by you is a coincidence."

"And I'm very grateful for your help. And again, I have absolutely no intention of seeing Nico even I have absolutely no idea you live in this town." I replied with complete confidence.

I'm indeed one hometown with Nico and Lyra. I have no idea where they are now living in this city.

I decided to come here after I knew that my situation could not be well received by my family and the people around me.

"Gia, are you still in touch with Nico?"

And sure enough my guess. Lyra kept asking me things that I was surprised to be thrown at me. I could conclude that she was really suspicious of my existence.

I also answered confidently.

"Alright, I'm sorry if I offended you. You know how worried a wife is. Ah, sorry once again are you married?" This time Lyra asked softly.

"I'm not married, Ra. But I know your concern about me being here. You don't have to worry anymore. I'll go" I answered no less.

"I don't mean it, I'll tell you tomorrow I'll take you. Where are you going Gia?"

"Honestly, I don't have a purpose in this town anymore. I also don't know where to ask you to take me."

"But if you want to take me, can you just take me today? I don't want to see Nico tomorrow. And if you can't let Nico know I've been here!" added again.

"Why Gia? Your condition has not recovered. I know Gi, you forgot what my job was? Guessing your condition is common. And again, I want to make sure-"

Lyra has not been able to explain I already know and true my guess before.

"You don't have to make sure where I'm going, which is clear I'm still going. You just calm down. And I think I'm improving too."

My answer is a little quibble when I still feel very weak.

From my answer I could see Lyra was a little relieved but there were concerns there. Maybe because she works as a nurse she's pretty sure I'm not okay.

But, her nurse instincts seemed to be shifted by the instincts of a wife who is afraid an ex-boyfriend her husband will meet her husband tomorrow.

Moreover, it was for his own mistakes that brought and helped me here. The profession of Lyra seemed to contradict the fear of her heart.

I saw him as raging over his choose and his heart. But that didn't make him not want to help me when he found me.

"Gia, once again sorry. I'm sorry I was so sassy, I found you passed out on the edge of town. I saw the contents of your bag were messy."

"I thought you were robbed when you fainted. But when I fixed your bag I found.emmm-" Lyra was hesitant.

"Oh my God, stupid me! I have no destination and I have no money to be robbed. Andwhat? What did you find, Ra?" Miris answered.

"That's, I'm um finding your USG check. Sorry Gia. What, what are you-?"

"Yes, I'm pregnant, Ra. I'm pregnant." I replied softly in accordance with the agreement at the beginning that I don't want to cover up anything else from Lyra.

I know very well Lyra must be very fluent in reading the results of the USG. It is undeniable from his profession. So why would I lie.

*"No free"*my inner.

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I can't cover it anymore. Finally, I was just being honest with Lyra about what I was going through.

Me, Anggia Eldira is pregnant. I pregnant. And I'm not married. Biggest mistake of my life.

I deeply regret this that made my career as a Marketing Officer in one of the convection companies, I had to stop at my own will.

I even decided to leave my family. Not banished, but I chose to leave before everyone knew what was happening to me. Surely my family is currently in a frenzy looking for me everywhere.

I don't know, all I'm thinking about right now is me and the fetus in my womb. Selfish indeed.

With all my savings, I decided to go see my friend in this town. I think good luck will sustain my life here. Start a new life.

And of course I won't abort the fetus I'm carrying. I will live it. Whatever and how.

Because either my confidence or my instinctual drive seems to love the child I am carrying. It was my fault with him. Yes, he is the one I love.

I do not deny that I regret why this child was present at the wrong time. But I realized that this fetus was the bond between me and her. Regardless of the mistakes we made.

Unfortunately, the good fortune that is in my dreams is only a pseudo-shadow. When I got here I had to swallow a bitter pill.

Friend, Rani. My only purpose here is to avoid me. His reason? Because she also depends on living with her husband. And he won't support me.

Even helping me find a place to live, no! He rejected me completely.

When I decided to go and find shelter on my own without Rani's help, I didn't know what was going on.

And now all of a sudden I'm at Lyra and Nico's. A place I never thought I would be before.

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Seriate...