Love But Different
Episode Sixteen

At night, Rendi called me back as usual. As if nothing had happened, or maybe Rendi didn't know about it, if this afternoon, her mother called me and asked me to stay away from her. But I'm reluctant to say that to Rendi, let me keep all alone. I also do not want the relationship between Rendi and her mother to be bad because of the problem.

Rendi sent a message through whatsapp to me.

[Good night baby.]

But I didn't reply to him. Intentions wanted to reply to Rendi's message, but when I remembered her mother's remark earlier this afternoon, I undo that intention. Maybe this is when I got out of Rendi's life. Although it was very heavy I lived, but Mama Rendi was right. Me and Rendi were separated by distance, a distance that could not be united. I also do not want to, turn Rendi into a child who is ungodly towards her parents, just because of her love for me.

I kept staring at the phone screen while crying as much as I could. Rendi sent a message back.

[ Saniiii??? You busy?]

I still don't reply to him.

[Where are you going?]

[you why?]

[ Hey ... Baby, are you all right?]

But there was not a single message from him that I replied to. I really intend to leave his life, already when I leave. I just don't want to, if things get complicated.

Sorry I am Rendi, I murmured with tears flowing down my cheeks. I was very sad that night, even my intention to meet Ita was to undo.

***

That afternoon, Rendi came to the boarding house to meet me.

*Tok .. tok ..

" San, Sani?" call one of my friends.

I also opened the door.

" Yes Vi, what's wrong?"

" There's your friend downstairs." Evi told me.

" Friends?"

Evi nods.

" What's up, Ren?" ask and then sit down.

" Where are you San, some days are lost without news" said Rendi.

I took a long breath. It was so hard to tell Rendi the truth, my tongue was so twisted.

" San let's answer."

" Ren, I'm sorry ... Better, from now on you don't see me again, don't call me again." I said while holding back tears. It felt powerless to say such things to Rendi. But how else, I have to do it.

Rendi was surprised to hear my words.

" Why San? what am I wrong?"

" I have Ren, you're not wrong."

" Well, why are you talking like that?"

I couldn't return Rendi's gaze, I just bowed down while enduring the pain that pierced the recesses of my heart.

" I'm sorry Ren, I can't be with you" "But why San? What wrong? Why is this suddenly?!"

I'm shaking.

" It's not all of a sudden Ren, I've been thinking about it all, I'm saturated with Ren" I told a lie. Like a heart-wrenching pain, I know that my words hurt her a lot, because I did too.

Rendi shook her head in disbelief, looking at her face turning sad. Rendi endured a great sadness.

" I'm sorry Ren, you're as good as coming home now and don't see me again" I said, then got up from my seat.

" This is your fight, San?" asked Rendi in disbelief.

" I'm tired of Ren, I'm tired of you." I said then passed away leaving Rendi.

A lie I had to tell him. It hurts so much, it is these tears that bear witness to how broken this heart must be to part from the one I love.

Seriate....