Love But Different
Episode Nine

" Hello ... Ren." I said on the phone.

" Yes why?"

" Can you meet today?"

" I'm sorry, I can't, it's busy."

I was a little disappointed to hear Randy's reply. It's been a week since I met him, last saw him, when I came to surprise him with a birthday. And since then we haven't seen each other again, but lately I feel like Rendi's changed, she kind of avoids me. I was puzzled by this unusual attitude of his, my negative thoughts started to appear. In my mind, I accuse Rendi of not having done it. But how else, my feelings cannot be lied to. There was something that Rendi had hidden from me, even now, she had rarely sent or replied to my whatsapp messages.

Then I complained to Ita.

" Ta, Rendi kok kya now changed ya." said me sad.

" Changed how? It wasn't okay all this time, was it?"

" Lately he's been avoiding me, don't know why"

" Have you gone to him?"

I'm shaking.

" Try frankly Rendi, Ungkapin what is in your heart, not in pendam" said Ita advised.

" I'm afraid he's angry."

" Will not ... Or maybe Rendi again there's a problem, positive thingking ajalah San."

" I don't know, he never told me anything. Even from yesterday, he didn't chat me, it was on the phone as well as like that cuek." I said sadly.

Ita let out a long sigh, it seems like she is trying to understand the situation I am currently in.

" It's better to be frank with Rendi, than to be confused yourself" Ita said patting me on the shoulder, then she stepped into the bathroom.

For a moment I was silent. I began to consider the advice of Ita. But I still doubt, I'm too afraid to be frank with Rendi. I know, she won't be mad at me, because as long as I'm dating her, Rendi never gets too angry.

***

After considering the advice given by Ita. I finally decided to contact Rendi first. I was hesitant at first, but all of this must be resolved. I have to talk to Rendi, so that all my worries can be resolved, I thought.

Then I sent whatsapp to Rendi.

" Ren?" I wrote.

But it looks like Rendi is not online, Whatsapp was online about 15 minutes ago. But I still kept waiting with anxious expectations. I kept paying attention to whatsapp messages I sent to Rendi, still not having a blue tick either.

" Yes, why?" his reply.

Honestly, I was very furious with the answer given by Rendi. I want to scream, Rendiiii ... Why are you?

" Why the hell?" my emotions began to rise, but they were still controllable.

" Yes, sorry." The reply was brief. That's all, I'm so sad. The rendi that I used to know now has changed, he who never absent contacted me, now starts to move away. Why does time so quickly change a person, my mind is sad.

" Why are you Ren?" I reply again with a sad emoticon.

" I don't know how to."

" li lie! You changed Ren!" I'm full of emotion.

" San?" the reply again, this time accompanied by crying emoticons.

Now I'm more and more convinced that if Rendi is in trouble, something is being hidden from me. But all this time, he never told me anything.

" Why are you Ren? Let's go tell dong."

" I'm afraid of San."

" Why fear?"

" Fear, if I tell you, I'm afraid everything will change" she said sadly.

I was further confused by Rendi's attitude. What's the real deal? What the hell is going on? Why was Rendi afraid to tell me, until she said she was afraid that I would change. What the hell is this? I kept guessing without any definite clarity.

" me? Why the hell is Ren? don't confuse me dong." I kept looking for him so he'd come clean.

" Heavy San, I'm afraid nott ... Really, I'm not ready San."

" Ren? Why anyway? What is it, you don't love me?" sad reply. I started crying.

" It's not San. I love you, too, dear."

" Yes keep what Ren? What?!"

After the message I sent earlier, Rendi no longer replied to him, even until the night Rendi did not reply.

That night I was really sad, I was very confused by the attitude of Rendi who had suddenly changed. All night I was sad, and Ita kept comforting me.

Seriate....