Love Sholeha
Strain on both sides

Sholeha slid her shoulders, she regretted her always curious behavior like this.

Not long after they exchanged news, Rahma, well she was named Rahma.

He entered past her, visiting Fatih the star of the show this time.

From the tip of his feet to the end of his hair that is so black beautifully scattered, not separated from the view of Sholeha.

She still looks beautiful according to him, not to mention Sholeha heard Rahma graciously greet her mother, the way she comforted Fatih to get well from her circumcision. He was perfectly friendly.

Oh Sholeha, why so observant of your eyes this time.

It seems that he will say goodbye soon, I don't know Sholeha does not want to find out what happened next. Sholeha will pretend not to hear this time, really she will not steal hear anymore.

Sholeha forgot, she was still in the same room at the moment. Even Sholeha was only silent in the corner, meaning she could still hear.

" Let's go home first huh" Rahma started saying goodbye.

" Why rush?"

" Yes, I plan to meet Bu Nur this late, long time no see." he said very gently.

And what did he say? Ms Nur?

He's going to see Sholeh too?

Sholeha was clutching tightly to the tip of her hijab, for some reason she did need a grip at this time.

" Yes already, I can not accompany" Ayu replied to Rahma who then came out of the living room.

Since then he had not been silent much to make his mother suspicious, he seemed to pay attention to Sholeha. Sholeha realized that, she immediately stood up from her seat, about to go ahead for a while.

Sholeha really went to the front door of her sister's house, there was still Ayu who seemed unable to let go of her best friend.

Sholeha approached standing beside Ayu standing, her eyes also watched the pace of the metic motor that really stopped at the house of her future husband.

Huh.... What is he thinking?

He sluggishly closed the door after Ayu came back in.

Sholeha wanted to know what was going on there, and she was getting restless at this moment.

Sholeha just continued her silence not trying to ask Ayu.

Everyone rejoined the living room, sitting around the mediocre Fatih feeling no pain. Don't know why? not like children run out in circumcision in general.

" He's your friend Nduk?" my mother was also curious. Sholeha followed.

" Yes, Mom, I haven't seen you in a long time"

" Are you married?"

" No ma'am, nothing is right yet" he said"

" Oh, you know Sholeh?"

" Yes, Ma'am, little friend"

" Why don't you ever know that?"

" Oh that's his house a little far away, he's also in town right now, just so happens to be visiting" Ayu explained to her mother-in-law.

Ms. Fatma glanced at Sholeha, as if she felt the state of Sholeha's heart, so she intended to help her find out.

Sholeha lowered her head as she listened to Ayu explain. None of him dared to ask everything in his head right now.

"Well, Om Sholeh hasn't been here yet"? fatih asked Ayu, suddenly.

Sholeha raised her chin slightly, looked at Ayu, confirming what she was about to say.

" Maybe it'll be a little while" he entertained Fatih.

Hem what answer is that? he's lying.

" There may be guests at home" Sholeha told Ayu.

Sholeha deliberately smiled, which actually added to the impression of a scatter from her face.

Everyone was silent, no one spoke his words, making Sholeha feel awkward.

He stood up from his seat, opting out for some fresh air. Sitting on the swing next to the house became Sholeha's choice.

He needs to untangle all the tangles of his brain throughout the day. Swinging slowly as if blown by the night wind, his legs moved along with the swing motion.

Suddenly her tears fell to the bottom of her smooth cheeks, she cried? Not until the crackling, he immediately wiped the sassy tears that came out without permission.

Sholeha hated that, she did not want to cry like this.

No one can know his sadness, sadness at betrayal, sadness at being hurt, sadness at being blamed and sadness......

Maybe sad because of jealousy? coulda.

Ah she's dizzy.

His heart that was not how wide this was, was getting crushed indistinctly in the past, and the breeze of the night wind made his heart ache and cold.

Huh too much, though,

Oh yes Rabb....

How uncomfortable his feelings are at this time, Sholeha is very eager to be entertained and accompanied. He is very lonely at the moment. He was completely alone drowning in solitude.

Until only sound is heard

kriet... kriet ......

From the old iron swing it was.

Sholeha regained her senses, she rubbed her rough face, then closed with both palms for a moment. Why is he keeping silent here? free there will be no solution at all.

Don't be pretentious to expect something so understanding to come entertaining as he often sees in Korean dramas. It's reality.

He breathed deeply, exhaling very slowly to be mixed with the cold, rustic night air. In the sight of the half-crescent moon in the sky, his eyes glared far to it. He prayed, praying,

" I surrender to you, O God"

Sholehah cannot divide into her gala and her baldness to anyone tonight. He did not want to open old wounds in the presence of many people, too stale in his opinion. Free, it's already sick for what was told back.

Sholeha stopped her daydreams and lamentations, she left Al's beloved old swing into the house, leaving it slightly swayed.

At that time, it was still eight o'clock less. Intending to take her mother home, Sholeha stepped into the living room.

Without realizing it there was already Sholeh who sat sweetly beside Rizal close to Fatih. Sholeha was a little surprised, was she too deep when daydreaming earlier?. Not hearing a single sound of Sholeh here.

Since when? was it from earlier?

Sholeha did not care much, she immediately sat down and whispered to her mother.

" Go home, Mom!"

"Just look at Nduk" mother bargained.

" Eng - , go home yuk" he whined a little.

" Kasian Fatih "Mum Fatma emphasized.

Sholeha no longer replied, she just slightly weaved her little lips.

He had been tired of heart all day, how could he sleep well if not in his own room.

" Let Mas take you home, if you don't want to go!" rizal said later.

Sholeha looked at her brother, she seemed to think for a while, then shook her head.

" Ndak not Mas, Leha manut Mother only" he said lethargic.

The man called Sholeh by Fatih was just silent and paying attention.

His face was not as bright as usual, this time he looked crumpled and there was not the slightest smile. It was too obvious if he was hiding his anxiety. What cares, Sholeha is also in a heart-shapeless mess. At most he was sad to not be able to meet his old friend with enough time.

Sholeha could even guess it quickly, lying right if she was unhappy like Ayu earlier when she met Rahma?

In her silence, Sholeha imagined the two laughing at each other and asked the news happily.

Oh, why so annoying.

" Yes, Leha wants to rest first" said Sholeha, he entered Fatih's empty room without occupants.

Everyone just kept quiet without responding, as well as Ayu who was unaware of the mood change of her sister-in-law. Maybe he was too late with Fatih's current condition.

*****

Sholeha rolled over and sat down many times.

He realized his monthly stomach ache was coming attacking at this moment.

He just wanted to cry more and more at this moment, why did everything come together like this?

His overly sensitive heart, his moods were fickle, and his stomach also made him grimace endless.

Oh my god .....

Too much mixed taste in his stomach, he must immediately dispose of all the causes. Long enough he was in the bathroom, until Ayu knocked on the toilet door worriedly.

" Why is your deck?"

" Ordinary Ma'am, come the moon" replied Leha her voice muffled the toilet cubicle .

" Should you like to find a cure on deck?"

" No, let's just drink warm water" he came out with a messy and lethargic face.

" Are you right?" Ayu back to make sure

" No papa ko, just get well again"

Sholeha returned to the room with a glass of warm water in her hand.

He sat back on the side of the bed, and Fatih's room had a mattress big enough to be the size of a child.

Sholeha is grateful to be able to rest a little comfortably.

Dreets.....

The phone is shaking, there's an incoming message.

Who gave you the ring

(Are you papa?)

(Need to see a doctor?)

Sholeha smiled. She hasn't come home yet? he murmured inwardly, he had not seen her before.

(Nhave no need for a mas,)

(Sholeha ndak papa)

He knew the message was immediately read, but Sholeha did not wait for a reply from Sholeh. Just put that flat object on the bed. Sholeha stretched out her body and closed her eyes, this time wanting to fall asleep for a while.

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POV Sholeh.

In the middle room

Sholeh tried to respond to the chatter Fatih who had been busy asking why his omnya had just come, and collect various promises that would be given if he had been circumcised.

" Oh, when did Fatih recover?"

" Morrow will heal too"

" Said father one Sunday"

" Not that long "

" Bi Ha, that's what it is, too"

" Yes dong, long time"

Sholeh continued to hear Fatih who kept asking this and that but Sholeh's eyes could not be separated from Sholeha's face that looked gloomy.

Sholeh also saw how she was putting her lips together to go home, and mother forbade her.

The more in view, the more visible if his face looks cloudy not as happy as usual.

At least Sholeha did not greet him, since he came back from outside earlier, he was very moody and a little ashen in his eyes. Sholeh just had no chance to ask, Sholeha hurriedly took a break first.

The night was getting late, his intention after Fatih fell asleep he would go home. Just about to leave, he saw Sholeha coming out of the room running, her face in pain.

Sholeh undoes his intention, he is a little worried to see Sholeha, he will make sure first before going home.

"Your mother, Sholeha why?" Ayu panicked to see her sister-in-law long in the toilet.

" Not knowing mom"

" Shut up for a second"

Not knowing what they said in the kitchen earlier, Sholeh only saw Sholeha return with a glass of water. His face was still the same looking lethargic and pale.

Behind him, Ayu follows Sholeh..

" Why did he say Nduk?" ambush mom.

" Ordinary he said, come the moon ma'am"

" It usually isn't"

" Many thoughts may be Mom"

Ms. Fatma looked rather worried, then she told me a little about Sholeha's condition today.

" He also his son does not like to whine, if his pain is diem, until he recovered himself just want a story" Ms Fatma impressed nagging at Sholeha's attitude.

" From this morning he was moody" Ayu added to his mother.

" Ndidn't know I didn't understand it either"

" Brains come the moon like ma'am"

The door of the room was tightly closed, Sholeh could not knock on the door and went to visit. I thought about sending a message.

Sholeha quickly retorted, but refused her help, saying she was fine.

(If you need anything)

(You can ask for my help)

The message was sent, but received no reply. Looks like he's asleep.

With a little worry, Sholeh finally intends to decide to go home, but he delays.

Hearing the story of Ayu and Bu Fatma earlier, Sholeh increasingly curious what is really happening to Sholeha.

On top of that when he came earlier, he saw Sholeha sitting by herself and seemed to be crying.

Sholeh could not ask him directly, not to mention that he was still surprised by Rahma's sudden arrival. Sholeh was too confused. His heart was a little swayed by the hope that had pulled over now re-emerged. About half an hour he sat back down, making sure that Sholeha didn't come out

A little chat with Ayu, discussing the arrival of Rahma who impressed suddenly.

" Oh yes Leh, it seems you have to explain Rahma to Sholeha, it seems like she needs to know" said Ayu, when in the living room there is only herself and also Rizal. Ms. Fatma had rested five minutes ago.

" Shall ya Yu?" Sholeh didn't even think of going there at all.

"Should Leh, it seems like my sister feels rivaled by Rahma, she can be discouraged later" Rizal said. This one brother really understands the nature of Sholeha, what else does his sister look moody from earlier.

" Later if there's a chance" Sholeh replied in slight hesitation.

" Oh yes Leh, you should also know that Sholeha will not ask you a single question about this, trust me. He's someone who is so smart that he harbors all suspicions and prejudices in his heart, so if you want to maintain this relationship you have to save Sholeha from this silent nature. He's too petrified about taste, he's haughty and always thinks he's capable of bearing his own." Rizal firmly said, this time he showed concern for his beloved sister in front of Sholeh.

Sholeh smiled bitterly, he knew facing the obstacles in this relationship would be so heavy, especially for Sholeha he had to be willing to sacrifice all his hopes, he was not angry at anyone, he was not angry at anyone, Sholeh just needs a little time to go back to fighting and choosing with his own heart.

" If you look around, it seems Sholeha is also in a lot of trouble, do you know why?" ask Ayu to Sholeh.

Sholeh shook her head slowly, she realized that their relationship had not moved forward at all.

Both have promised to get to know each other, and improve the decisions they make .

" He was also seen crying outside earlier" Ayu added.

" I don't mean to leave everything about Sholeha to you Leh, I just feel like you should be given a chance to get to know my sister clearly from now on."

Rizal honestly, wanted to give the opportunity to the man who had promised his family and himself. However Sholeh also undertakes everything from the beginning.

Sholeh again can only be silent, I don't know what is making it gamang like this. He also understands Rizal's attitude that seems pushy, he knows Sholeha is one thing that is very valuable to Rizal, it is natural that he behaves like this.

" Ah I can understand Mas, give us time for all this, don't think too far and over about our relationship huh..." Sholeh said to Rizal.

With the remnants of tranquility that have been wasted so much today, Sholeh must show his ability once again to Rizal. She knows Sholeha is a priority in everyone's life now, especially her own mother.

" Em already at night Mas, Fatih has also slept, I say yes" he told Rizal while greeting the host.

"Oh yes Leh, thank you for looking at my son "to get Sholeh out of the house.

In the silence of the late night, Sholeh fell silent in her room.

Various feelings were being fused in his heart, he could not translate one by one what he was feeling.

Chaos, unknown direction where all the feelings in today, all happened so snarling surrounded his heart. Before deciding to go to sleep, he wanted to do a little good at least to Sholeha, the young woman he was thinking about right now.

Sholeh sent one message to Sholeha, at least she tried to care.

Sholeha

(Hopefully get well soon.).

Just that, he had no intention of sending another message, Sholeh felt confused and dizzy at the moment. In the original throw of the phone earlier, he forced his body to rest, he was tired all day.

" O God, it's heavy" he murmured before he actually fell asleep.

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