Love Sholeha
Let's try one more time

" Sheila, Deck!" call Ayu regardless of Al's voice that is increasingly heard from the phone he just received. Sholeha continued walking as if she had not heard Ayu's call.

Pursuing Sholeha in a hurry is really impossible, there are a lot of people here. It would only cause a commotion, and certainly not be appropriate in this grieving home. Ayu stays in the room, and coaxes Al from the phone that he shortly turns off.

" I guess Sholeha heard it all?" say Ayu to Sholeh and Rahma.

Sholeh fell silent, though,

" Sholeh, you have to explain it to my sister, I told you from the beginning if you can take responsibility with all your options, I also didn't expect you guys to still depend on each other without telling me. If so, what should I say to Sholeha?" I sound frustrated with this incident.

" I didn't mean yu,-

" Don't explain it to me !" prune Ayu quickly to Sholeh. Ayu knew this would happen, but she did not expect herself to be involved in the heart problems of both. Ayu feels guilty, she immediately searches for the whereabouts of her sister.

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Sholeha tries to wake herself up, if now she is not in a place worthy of jealousy and disappointment. He chose to sit back with the mothers. At least he can dispel all the feelings that continue to appear in his heart.

Seen Ayu in a hurry to approach him his face looks anxious, he knows to his worry. Behind Ayu is also seen Sholeh who came out of Rahma's room.

" Dec we're home now!" take Ayu to Sholeha gently.

" Loh why?" Sholeha deliberately pretended not to understand Ayu's intentions." Ah Al fussy yes", he added seeing Ayu who was still silent.

" Yes, you're home!" answer's short.

She also sees Sholeh trying to reach out to her, Sholeha deliberately dodges and immediately leaves the house preparing to go home. Sholeha will bring this matter to her calm heart this time, she must decide everything with a cold head.

Likewise with Sholeh should, see the conditions are not so good to talk about the relationship here. Sholeh no longer looks after Sholeha, she returns home.

" Dek, we'll eat first !" Ayu's voice stopped her slightly hasty footsteps in front of Ayu.

" Now do you wait?"

" Already the henchman, Mas Rizal can calm down really" he replied with confidence.

Sholeha seemed to think for a moment.

" okay. At our shop, right?" answer with a smile.

" Yes yok!"

They drove quietly, tracing a slightly quiet road, unlike this early morning crowded motorists. They were at the food stall they had chosen.

The atmosphere of the food stall is so distinctive smelled various flavors of side dishes that line the front window. Looks delicious and tempting, unfortunately all of it is not able to arouse the appetite of Sholeha as usual. And strangely the empty stomach since the morning did not feel wrapped around, or just Sholeha who was too busy did not mash the sound of the call of worms in his stomach?.

"Order what Deck?" Ayu asked, as they sat at a long table near the wall.

" Same in the same way!"

" Yes already, " Ayu approached the cashier to order. Ayu again sat across from Sholeha, she observed her lackluster sister from earlier.

" Deck, something's wrong. Maybe I should ask?" Sholeha shook her head, not wanting to dig up a lot of painful stories.

" asked? It seems unnecessary, "the answer is short.

In the depths of his heart that was so sad, he would no longer try to find an explanation, after all he had heard so clearly earlier. Sholeha is determined to settle everything directly with Sholeh later. He no longer needs to bother the people closest to them, it's about the sense of the unfinished about the main affairs in their relationship, if Sholeha needs some quiet time to think and decide.

" Mom can help, and sorry about that" he added with great worry.

" I'm sorry for what? help what the hell is Mama?" he answered again with a question as if he did not understand.

Their orders came, Sholeha no longer hugged Ayu who kept looking at Sholeha, as if looking for an invisible restlessness at all.

Sholeha deliberately pretended not to hear this chat, although Ayu must be very aware through his easy-to-read attitude. Sholeha just did not want to involve Ayu for this matter, she would be even more dizzy if she thought about it.

" Chicken Gulai, this delicious wah" he said to divert the conversation. Sholeha pulled out her plate, and sucked her fresh ice a little. He started eating delicious.

" Deck. " It seems Ayu still wants to ask "Yes we ate first!" break Ayu.

Sholeha is very grateful for the taste of chicken gulai that is so good and enough to add to the pleasure in his heart, at least he was entertained and a little forgot about the problem earlier. Fortunately Ayu was also not too pushy and let him eat quietly.

" Thank God, we go straight home!" take Sholeha, after finishing her meal.

" Yes, wait five minutes on deck"

Sholeha nodded, as she finished her drink to the toilet.

Looking around the simple restaurant that is so neat and clean, Sholeha can not be separated to look at the husband and wife of this business owner. It just so happened that Sholeha could see where they were doing. He smiled, since the first time they came here they stayed together, without any other employees helping. They were shoulder to shoulder preparing and communicating well, without the slightest hint of a tired or giving up face, they were very compact. Sholeha was stunned, she started to think about her problem with Sholeh again. Can she trust each other and stand shoulder to shoulder in the future?

Sholeha lowered her head, in just five minutes she had daydreamed again even a lot of thinking far away somewhere.

" Deck, come on!" Ayu's voice was startling.

" Ha, ah ayok" Sholeha quickly stood up, and finished her daydream.

After paying, they went home. Even Ayu who took control of the motorbike, he had a fight with Sholeha about who would be the driver. Ayu even seduced Sholeha so sweetly, "Come on Deck, so you can daydream as fervently as you are accustomed to" she bargained with a mocking smile.

Because sitting the henchman hitchhiking, sure Sholeha so much thought in silence, this time he can only force his logic to give an opinion. The rest should only listen, let alone a person who is envious, suspicious, disappointed, jealous and even love. All must retreat in an orderly manner in the corner of his heart and mind. Sholeha needs more peace to decide all this.

Although noisy brain Sholeha still kekeh do not want to obey his mind which is often bad to think.

***

Sholeha took off her veil, she threw her body on her soft mattress. He closed his eyes, trying to unravel all his thoughts, took a breath and enjoyed the tranquility in his room.

Sholeha was closed for so long, but not asleep at all, so many of Sholeh and Rahma's faces appeared in her brain, their smiles, and their clear voices were heard back in her ears. She opened her eyes and slumped her feet against the floor. " Huh, sucks !" he said it was unclear.

In the middle of her grumbling mouth it was unclear Sholeha heard her phone ringing, notification of the message as usual.

" Be careful if it's you" he threatened, on an innocent smartphone, while reaching for his bag.

" It's right, it's you" he said when he saw Sholeh's name appearing on his phone screen.

Sholeha tore her lips out, then threw the object into the middle of the bed.

" Whatever, !" said sewot.

Yes he is indeed Sholeh, who said he would come to the house later tonight. Sholeha did not even reply to the message. He threw his body back into the bed, there were many questions in his brain, and Sholeha also had to prepare for the answers and questions he would give Sholeh later.

" It's after all, the rival is heavy too" Sholeha was desperate.

I don't know where the sudden feeling of like and want to live together until old age. All flew in the wind of the reality of his love Rahma to Sholeh. Sholeha must not rush to feel jealous, she is afraid to burden Sholeh who has not been able to come out of her past.

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" You can try it!" sholeha said to the future daughter-in-law of her mother's dream.

He was silent looking at Sholeha, steadily Sholeha intended to give a chance to choose between her and Rahma.

About seven o'clock passed a little, precisely when the Adzan finished reverberating Sholeh came to visit his house. He even looked rushed, it was possible that he would leave again after this. Thought Sholeha.

" Try what, what do you mean?" answer it firmly.

Sholeha took a rough breath, trying to say once again calmly, "I gave you the chance to fight back and settle your past, I can sort out, I can,

" No Sholeha!" sambarnya quickly, "I can explain and this matter has been completed before proposing to you"

Sholeha gaped, not believing even he was pressed like this.

" I heard it all, don't think I'm a child who doesn't understand your love language" replied Sholeha slightly raising her voice.

The slightly elevated atmosphere of the streets clarified all the words of the two, indeed at this time there was no one else but Sholeha at home. Even he deliberately did not tell his mother and father if Sholeh would come to see you. They sat on the porch of the house with a lamp so bright it illuminated both of them.

" I was wrong at the time, but I no longer have any love or intention to marry Rahma at this time Sholeha, "he said gently but firmly emphasized.

Sholeha turned her face away, looking at the street in front of her house.

"You're obviously sorry you couldn't turn me down, then I'm the one who's rejecting you now and - ,

" No Sholeha!" cut Sholeh firmly." Don't do that!" he added.

Sholeha lowered her head, she could no longer understand what Sholeh meant at the moment. If it can't why still live kekeh. Sholeha was so upset.

" I mean we haven't gone too far, if mas isn't willing to let Sholeha tell the others

Sholeha hung her words so softly.

" And let me reason not to love you that's all, it must be all right" Sholeha added with a slick laugh at the end of her sentence.

Honestly, Arman decided that it was much more sincere than saying it to Sholeh. His heart seemed to come back without being hurt. Ah maybe an unconscious wound.

"Sholeha, I am guilty. But please give a little confidence and time so that I can really prove it." this time Sholeh gently persuaded Sholeha.

" I don't know why I'm just afraid of getting hurt again Mas, I hope you understand that from the beginning" replied Sholeha softly with a lowered head. Her hands were busy rolling the tip of her hijab slowly.

Sholeh took a deep breath, he tried to unravel all the tension that had peaked earlier. Sholeha looked very much waiting for Sholeh's reply which so tensely he prepared to listen to her.

About a minute Sholeh was still silent, giving no sign of his willingness to take responsibility for the verdict and his choice of Sholeha.

" I'm going to try Sholeha, we keep our parents' plans and dreams going, I think you also remember that we're going to try to accept all this"

" We can, if our past is all settled" Sholeha answered truthfully.

Sholeh smiled, seeing the change in the look of Sholeha's face which suddenly calmed down and looked mature.

" Yes, I'm not the type who has fallen in the past" Sholeh laughed a little.

" I'm not either, don't laugh at me!" Sholeha Sunggut to him.

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