Make Me His Substitute
Go Rendra
Rendra grabbed Amara by the hand and held her tightly. "I'm sorry, Amara. I'm so guilty of you." No different from Amara, Rendra also tearfully said the harsh reality for their relationship.
"I don't need an apology from you, Rendra. All I need right now is an explanation from you." Amara let go of Rendra's hand and looked at Rendra's face with a demanding look.
Rendra sighed deeply then explained the problems that were happening to him at this time. What Rendra said to Amara right now was exactly the same as what Rendra said this morning to Agatha.
No different from Agatha who was very surprised to hear Rendra's explanation, Amara also so. Amara couldn't even speak. Only the tears flowing down both of his cheeks could describe his current sadness.
"You're getting married..." Amara nodded in disbelief. The complicated situation that occurred in Rendra's family made Rendra his victim.
"I'm sorry, Amara. I can't refuse Mama's request. I also don't want Mama to be depressed because of her immense guilt with Mother of Okta.
Both corners of Amara's eyes increasingly the rate of flowing clear fluid. Seeing the clear liquid flowing on both cheeks Amara made Rendra's heart ache. He who initially promised to give happiness to Amara now turned to give hurt to Amara.
"Mara's..." Rendra again tried to reach Amara's hand but Amara quickly distanced his hand from Rendra.
"Don't apologize to me, Rendra. I understand what you're feeling right now and I can accept all your decisions."
Instead of feeling calm hearing the answer from Amara, Rendra's heart actually felt more pain.
The clear liquid more flowing soaks both cheeks Amara without Amara can hold. Amara turned her gaze in the other direction because she could not see the face of Rendra who was now staring at her face.
"Amara.." Rendra's heart grew sick to see Amara who kept crying. He felt he was a very bad man because he had hurt the heart of the woman he loved so much.
"I'm just disappointed in you, Rendra. Why don't you be honest from the beginning if you're getting married. Why are you acting like a loser who disappeared without any news. Do you know, every day I'm waiting for news from you. I've always thought positively if you can't do anything bad behind my back. But what I thought was wrong. My heart is so wrong to wish you good."
Unable to be restrained, Rendra carries Amara's body into his arms. Both of them cried bitterly channeling sadness and disappointment in each other's hearts.
Amara let Rendra hold her for a while. After feeling enough, he rebelled in order for Rendra to let go of the embrace between them. "I hope this hug of yours is the last hug between us. Do not let because this hug between us makes your future wife hurt. Let's just say our hug was the last hug for a sweet farewell."
"Mara's..." Rendra shook his head. No different from Amara, he was also injured at the moment. However he could not fight the fate that was already set for him at this moment.
"Go Rendra. Although we can no longer be as close as we used to be, I will still offer the best prayer for you."
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