Marlangens
CHAPTER 31

It has been a week since Mom's death and today I have been allowed to go home, I reoccupy my room that was occupied by Mom.

Mom's scent was still left behind and made me cry again, for some reason my life became so miserable. Since I left, everything has been scary.

While sitting at my desk, I accidentally saw a book with a light purple cover that looked dull, It was not my book. I opened the dull book, and it said, "Owns of Wulan". This meant that it was Mom's, I opened the book slowly and started reading each paragraph.

Diaries:

February 1995

It has been six years since I married Mas Ageng, today I am finally declared pregnant. I was so happy, I also saw Mas Ageng was very happy. May this pregnancy make our household more complete.

Reading every word you write to me can't stem my tears, Mom was so happy when I was pregnant. Then I opened the diary again and read.

Diaries:

April 1995

My pregnancy is about to enter the third month, but I have some bad news from my best friend. She said she heard Agus talk, her husband with Mas Ageng about the agreement with the snake demon. I don't know what it means but my feelings are getting bad.

I re-opened the next page still written in the same month.

Diaries:

April 1995

I am so sad today. Ratih, my only friend was found dead in Mas Ageng's bamboo garden. According to Asih, the courtier of this house. Ratih was found with a terrible condition, his face was destroyed. I really feel like I lost you, Ratih.

Trainer? Why does that name feel familiar to me.

I went back to the next page, there were only ordinary writings that made me smile and cry sometimes. From that writing I can read that you love Mom very much and vice versa.

Then I stopped at a page whose writing was not neat, like other writing.

Diaries:

I hate the baby in my womb, the baby I'm carrying is not my baby. This baby is a baby demon that results from the disgusting struggle of Mas Ageng and the demon snake. I'm gonna kill him.

Why do you think I'm the son of a snake demon? I was in her womb at the time. I really don't think about all this. Because of my curiosity I also keep flipping every sheet of the diary book owned by mother.

Diary :

September 1995

My content is getting older, either kenpa every time I try to abort my womb never succeed. It was precisely every day that I saw the appearance of a half-snake woman with a terrible face. I want to tell Bagas, my brother who is now in Jakarta to ask to return to the city. But I was afraid of Mas Ageng and I couldn't leave him either.

After that, I didn't seem to write anymore, because the next page and so on were empty, which disappointed me. But as I was about to close the diary I saw on the last page a piece of writing. It seems like this is a piece that Mom recently wrote but there is no month that I added.

Diaries:

***My son Marlangen, when you read this article I am no longer there. Forgive me for trying to hurt you, hurt you and hate you. From the bottom of Mom's heart, I love you so much.

All this is because your Father is desperately allied with a snake demon to free his family from the curse that either Mother does not know.

The reason I always wanted to kill you is because I didn't want you to become a demon like that snake demon. Even though I doubt you're Mom's son but I'm the one who gave birth to you, I don't want you to suffer more. Let enough mothers suffer.

If you want to know more about the snake demon, go to Sapto Aji, your father's best friend. He knows everything.

I love you Langen, I'm sorry I can never always be by your side. You are not a child of the devil, you are my son. The child I always miss. I hate all the time I have to go without you. You should know, how much I wanted to hold you for once and say that I love you so much.

But our lives seem to be cursed, there is no happiness for Mother. But you have to fight to be happy Langen even without Mom and Dad***

I did not feel sobbing because my chest was so tight, there was happiness that I felt because it turned out Mom loved me but the pain felt more absorbed me

"Langen is also a pity at all, Mother," I muttered softly as I sobbed.

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