MARRY MY LOVER'S BEST FRIEND
CHAPTER 125

Aahva had just finished drinking milk and was already sleeping soundly. Mbok Welas who just finished watching his favorite soap opera has also moved to the room. I stayed alone in the living room and the clock ticking showed at half-ten p.m. I kept monitoring my phone who knew there was an incoming message from Arka but there was no news at all after she left. I did not sleep, even though my eyes were heavy. There are no signs Arka will go home and make my mind runnier. Why when I feel I can wholeheartedly accept Arka this kind of thing even happens. I thought that everything would be fine, but in fact the sense of belonging and fear of losing Arka made my mind tormented. Maybe this is what Arka felt when I was still thinking about the Clouds at the beginning of our marriage. Didn't Arka think of me when she went out with another woman without my knowledge? Yes and why should the other woman be the one I know and always be nice to me? Maybe it's my karma. Although actually I had no intention to play with Arka's feelings at that time but maybe Arka harbored a wound and she was tired and when I realized I was too late. And what do I feel right now? I was tired of not only my body but my mind. Maybe there are many who blaspheme me for wasting Arka out there, the greatest husband in the world just because he can't escape the past and now no one pityes me when I regret and feel deep wounds.

As I slept with tears streaming down my cheeks and when I woke up almost one in the morning, I stood up and headed to the garage. Arka's car wasn't there yet, meaning Arka hasn't come home yet, I took my phone and tried to call her but even though the connection was connected but no one answered my call. Anxiety began to cloud my mind and and occasionally I went outside the house to look out into the street in case Arka had come home

"Not sleeping, Cash?" rinto's voice surprised me.

"Rinto?! I'm waiting for Arka, this hour hasn't come home yet. What are you doing outside at this hour?" I was surprised at Rinto

"Gisis, the sumuk ACne is broken," Rinto said as he fanned his face with his hands.

Finally Rinto accompanied me waiting for Arka on the porch of the house. He even told me about the progress of Agrowisata development in the village. It may take a year to get a soft opening. It turned out that all the processes were handed over to Rinto and Arka was just monitoring while receiving the report, the same as I did to Rayi in terms of managing the boutique. He also did the same thing in several branch companies. Arka is only active at the head office of Mr. Surya. Then where did he go all this time until work had to be overtime and rarely go home? The new questions that popped up made my head feel dizzy and my vision felt dark.

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I woke up in the room and had a neat blanket and a glass of warm milk and a sandwich on the nightstand. Arka sat at the end of the bed with her smile. She looked fresh and water dripped from the ends of her hair indicating that she had just finished her bath. He then helped me to sit down and tried to feed me the sandwich but I refused by keeping my mouth shut. Although I was hungry, I insisted not to accept Arka's kindness.

"Let's eat, pity you and our son" Rayi Arka while still thrusting the sandwich for me.

"Mas still care?" ketus.

"Yes dong, how can you talk like that?" Arka tried to convince me.

"I'll say goodbye and ask you to sleep first. How come you're not following me?" arka said still with a soft tone and a face that never failed to fascinate me.

"Whatever you want" I said as I headed to the bathroom.

As the water began to pour into my head, yesterday's questions began to flow again in my brain. It feels like crazy. Actually, it was the right time, I should have received the sandwich, then had a good talk and learned what Arka was really hiding from me, but stupidly I was too controlled by emotions that I just realized that it was very childish. Adults should finish things off with a cold head instead of a lash and hope everyone will understand my wishes. If I continue like this I am sure the problems I am facing will never be solved. I hurriedly finished my bath and rushed to find Arka but the one on the nightstand was only a sandwich and a glass of milk that was not warm anymore and a piece of paper containing the inscription Arka 'I go first yank, you're fine at home, don't go on hunger strike and get regular rest'. I sat down drooping, why would he rush off so early and just leave a message like this?

Mbok Welas nongol on the doorstep and started nagging because I still haven't eaten either. I finally forced to devour everything on the nightstand and went out for a walk with Aahva because it was still morning at about half-seven. I swing my footsteps towards the field because usually many citizens move there. Greeting the neighbors and mixing with the citizens made me momentarily forget the problems I was facing. I regret my attitude this morning, if only I could be mature for sure now Arka and I are exchanging ideas and maybe an hour or two later our problems have met a bright spot.

From a distance, Rayi continues to nag Ade who continues to run as if she does not want to stop. I approached them and let Aahva run around with Ade which made Rayi raise her voice even more. But in the end Rayi gave up too when she saw the two children laughing happily.

"Later to go to the boutique yes, bored at home continues," I said that made Rayi a little glare.

"Ra need to be neko-neko," Rayi refused

"I went there to work, not to play ball. There is also just sitting, right in my office space there is a sofa bed can also make a lie, the activity is not dangerous right?" I tried to convince Rayi.

Rayi just kept quiet a sign she couldn't argue with me. Than I was at home and dissolved in thoughts and questions that until now have not met a bright spot, I'd better get busy and hope Arka comes home early tonight so we can talk together.