MARRY MY LOVER'S BEST FRIEND
CHAPTER 130

My gestational age reached 37 weeks and weight has reached 2.8 kg. For medical reasons, I had to have a cesarean section and although there is now an ERACS delivery, I still feel worried. Not to mention Arka's health that seems to be declining because she continues to take care of me who since the last few months must have total bedrest. Although once upon a time Rayi also helped, but Rayi was also very bothered by more and more work and the responsibility grew heavier because I really let go.

"You can definitely yank," Arka said as she kissed my forehead before I was taken into the operating room.

Without feeling the sound of baby crying in the operating room that feels cold. The little girl was brought to me for a while before being taken to the nursery because I had to undergo postoperative observation. I just feel so tired and sleepy, happy, happy, sad, all the feelings mixed into one. Arka accompanied me in the observation room and her hands continued to hold mine. It felt so happy to see him here with his smile that it always fascinated me. She kept telling me about our little baby who was born healthy. Relieved because my pregnancy process while pregnant she is considered very risky. The clear Devota Aryasetya was the name that Arka had pinned for him.

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But it turns out not so easy to be a housewife especially with two toddlers. It feels like these two hands are not enough to cope with everything. Not to mention if the child is sick and there are true some memes circulating in the sosmed about 'mother is not sick' because once I get sick, all business can be collapsed. Not like a job that could be that easy I entrusted to Rayi. Especially with Bening who is already very attached to me, even the time to hang out in WC alone can not I enjoy let alone for hours bathing while kicking a full album as I often do. It feels like this shower is wet and soapy, the drainage is sometimes not implemented properly and correctly. It was not that Arka or Mbok Welas were unwilling to help, but that was how a crying Bening would break if he did not feel my presence beside him.

But thankfully, it only lasted about four months because Bening instead preferred to be with Aahva. Aahva became a good sister and was very fond of Bening. Although busy as it may be, I feel very happy because now I am totally at home so that I can continue to take care of my children. Seeing their growth and care for them with my own hands. Mbok Welas still lives with us but me and Arka agreed to take care of Mbok Welas as our parents and not let Mbok Welas work too much. My mother and two in-laws often went home to visit their grandchildren. So the house is often crowded and I really enjoy my role which is very extraordinary. I really left the business world and even I sometimes I also foster Ade along with my two children.

But behind my happiness, Arka's health is declining. He even often opname so that Pak Surya who had retired had to return to lead the company. And all the companies that Arka built themselves are managed and well taken care of by Rinto. I was very passionate about Arka and never felt that it was a burden or a hassle with all of this. Arka was often sad because she felt guilty, she considered herself a failure to look after and make me happy but instead the opposite.

"Mas, we are husband and wife, so we must take care of each other and make each other happy, not the responsibility of one party alone," I said while looking into his eyes but trying to hold back my tears so as not to fall.

"Yank, you're all right?" ask Arka one afternoon.

"Yes, as you can see I'm fine" I said with a smile and stroked her cheek.

"I'm sorry yank, I can't take care of you and our children" Arka said with deep eyes.

Her tears kept falling and wetting my fingers that had not moved from her cheeks. I just kept quiet and couldn't say anything. Why Arka always seems to blame herself and like a desperate person. Where was the once humorous, feisty and fiery Ark?

"From the beginning I knew that this disease would eat away at my body. At first I was ready to die at any moment. But why does falling in love with you plus the affection for Aahva and Bening make it all feel so heavy?" said Arka while continuing to sob.

"Mas... ..," that's all I can say from my lips.

Instead of trying to comfort her, I started crying with her and my tears grew as Arka hugged me very tightly.