Mr. Bully
Maybe My Soulmate Died - Iamnotshane's

“Dim I need to talk to lu” said Varo without further ado approaching Dimas who was meditating on the rocks on the beach.

Dimas's finger went up giving the code for Varo to be silent. “Gue know what you want to say, so let me in five minutes it's quiet first. Lately a lot of bad energy around me.”

Varo jumped on a rock and sat next to Dimas waiting for the man to finish his meditation. The sound of waves and splashes of water right under the rock occasionally hit Varo's feet.

The sky began to darken, while not yet seen the intention of Dimas to stop meditation. A minute, two minutes, ten minutes. Varo snorted impatiently and pulled Dimas's leg feathers until the man screamed in pain. Dimas' eyes opened throwing irritated pelotage.

“Lu don't see the sun already sinking?”

“Ya nice dong. Means the time of photosynthesis is finished” ketus Dimas improve his sitting position. “Lu want to say what? Sandra's? Elu's? Olivia's? Alexa?”

“All”

“Hmm how ya. I'm actually lazy to interfere in people's affairs. But, my mouth is itching to tell a story, because this has something to do with you” Dimas's grin. Varo takes a serious look, listens carefully to the boy's story.

Her name is Alexandria Charmel. His family calls him Charmel, his closest people call him Olivia, and those who do not know call him Alexa or Alex. She is just an ordinary girl, whose existence or not will not give any influence to the survival of the Red and White High School children. Charmel likes a lot of things. Abstract paintings, an old eighties song, a sweet treat, and a handsome Red and White High School basketball captain named Alvaro Wijaya.

At first he just looked, noticed, and liked from afar. But the overflow of feelings of liking a fifteen-year-old can sometimes not be dammed anymore. Charmel wrote a letter, pouring out his heart in a detailed stroke on white paper. He kept the letter in his bag, waiting for the time and courage to come together.

But in the middle of that time, someone who is not expected to come, find something that he should not find, and spread what should not be spread. After that, Charmel's life changed, in an instant he became the center of attention. Not just attention, ridicule and bully begins. There is no safe place for Charmel. It was as easy as turning a palm, as easy as Charmel's life turned around. He became the most unwanted, exiled, and school slowly became hell for him.

Charmel wants to escape, but he can't. He could only hold back while waiting for the time to leave. Charmel was able to leave the school, but in time he lost both his parents. Charmel closes old wounds with new ones.

“Lu know what's worse?” ask Dimas at the end of the story. “Elu and everyone no one remembers her existence, past or present. I could sum up Olivia's story in less than an hour, but the effects of Olivia's experience were too devastating. Funny right? The person you want to protect, is precisely the one who is sick because of you. ”

Varo glued, silent. Various questions about Olivia who always appeared in his mind all this time suddenly evaporated. The questions have been answered already. Olivia knew him not because they had been friends, but because she hated Varo. The girl was one of the many victims of bullying who came to create karma.

 “Now you understand what guilt feels like?” pat Dimas calmly, he knew, until whenever Varo would not be able to answer his question.

...*****...

Olivia was walking down the beach when she heard Varo's call. He turned around with an astonished expression to see the man running.

“What's up?” ask Olivia wonder. The little cardboard in his arms he put on the sand.

“Where are you from?”

“Taken package”

“Oh...” murmured Varo, he gulped trying to eliminate the feeling of sadness when he saw Olivia. “I went to New York, make meet mama”

“Oh yes? When?” ask Olivia enthusiastically. Varo shrugged uncertainly, in fact he called Olivia instead to talk about it. Olivia patted Varo's back slowly. “I'm sure your mama's therapy will definitely work”

“I...” Varo hesitates, he feels confused where to start.

“You want to say something?”

Varo looked at Olivia fixedly, the girl waiting, but her expression looked like she already knew where their conversation would go. 

“You...how are you?” Varo could not hide his nervous expression, he really could not think anymore what would happen after this. “Alexandria Charmel.

Olivia smiled, but not the usual friendly smile. Smiling like someone who had just been caught doing something, Olivia did not reply, she waited for Varo to speak, but her legs took a step back to give them some distance.

“Dimas told me everything, said Varo as if to summarize everything he heard today. “Why didn't you tell me?”

“What story?”

“You're bullied.”

“At least I can apologize.”

Olivia laughed, but it wasn't the friendly laugh she always showed. His expression looks very sharp. “Fuck...” muttered Olivia for the first time to curse. “I want to know what it's like after raising a child almost dead.and casually apologize. I'm curious”

“Oliv...” Varo tried to grab Olivia's hand, but the girl brushed aside rudely with an unhappy look. Varo realized, he was not faced with just a sense of annoyance, more than that, Varo was facing an anger, hatred, and revenge. Ironically, it came from someone he liked the most. “I'm sorry. And I have absolutely no defense for all the mistakes I used to”

“You don't apologize. It won't change anything” ketus Olivia, her blood suddenly boiling even though Varo just standing in front of her.

Olivia's anger slowly starts to cross the threshold, Varo's apology leaves her pride scratched. Olivia doesn't want to hear Varo's apology, even though the guy is in first place on his life blacklist. All Olivia wants is to give Varo hope, make him feel special, and then leave the guy behind. Only once in her life did Olivia want the ending as she planned. Olivia wants Varo just once in her life to feel hopeless, just like she used to feel.

“Because of you and your friends, my life is like hell. I just admit one mistake, like you, but your attitude is like I just killed someone. Though the real killer is you guys.” Olivia's breathing hunts, she tries to calm down but her anger makes her feel claustrophobic. “Since knowing you, there has not been a single day for me to be able to live a quiet life. Can you imagine how scared I am to get up early and go to school? You don't know, do you? It's all because of you.”

Varo sighed softly, there was nothing he could do but quietly listen to Olivia's anger. He could see the girl's eyes begin to glaze over, and right a few seconds later Olivia's defense collapsed. Olivia who originally wanted to raise her face high with a poignant expression, actually began to cry.

“You think I want to be ugly, not smart, and not popular? I don't want to either! But that doesn't mean you can be just like me! I'm silent not because I'm human or patient, but because you're scary. You didn't tell me to die, but your behavior made me want to dig my own grave. If you hate me, you should be consistent to the end to assume I don't exist. You shouldn't have ignored my existence, not squirming me. It's better than you guys ngetting me, ngunking me in the barn, snacking on my chair, or pushing me into the pool. To death I hate you guys.”

Olivia was crying, her stuffing sounded so hurtful to Varo. But then again, the guy can't do anything. Varo realizes that there is a high limit that Olivia suddenly built for both of them. Olivia's cries and hateful looks show that her permission to hug and calm her is no longer valid.

“You remember I told you I was a bad girl?” olivia's voice turned hoarse, she wiped away the tears flowing down her cheeks and looked at Varo fixedly and whispered softly. “I hope now your heart is hurt because of me and no one can comfort you. I hope you will live in regret and I hope we will never see you again.”

Varo froze, Olivia's voice sounded so soft it made her heart ache even more. Olivia hates him, hates him too much. Now Olivia looks like two different people, making Varo unsure if the girl sitting with her on the beach is the same as the girl standing in front of her.

“I hate you” whispered Olivia one last time.

“Varo!” the call from behind made Varo cluck slowly. Without having to turn away he knew Arini was approaching them both.

Olivia stepped closer to Varo and whispered with hate. “Until I allow you to be happy, you will never be happy.”

After that Olivia immediately turned back and away leaving Varo stunned to hear his words, he did not give any chance to Varo to speak.

“Varo!” Arini pulls Varo's hand and stops the boy as he goes after Olivia. “I want to say”

“Let's go first”

“Now!” force Arini to hold. Varo was forced to stand up, but his eyes never separated from Olivia who increasingly stepped far into the cafe.

“I want to apologize for slapping you. I still love you, I want us to reverse and together kayak” said Arini without further ado to make Varo turn away. In the past maybe Varo will be interested in Arini's bravery, but he is now in a precarious situation that makes him careless.

“Arini, I thought about it first. Again urgent nih” reply Varo briefly took off Arini's grasp and ran after Olivia, not ignoring Arini's annoyed screams calling out her name.

“Sister, Where's olivia?” ask Varo in a hurry.

“Tuh in his son, was crying, again the same Sera. Do not often quarrel, later if you miss difficult” smile Nabila from behind the bar table. Varo forced himself to smile and then went inside, there was a new Sera out of Olivia's room with Gegi. Sera raised her hand blocking the steps of Varo who wanted to go inside.

“People cry again, do not be disturbed, ntar you guys even fist-fist”

“Before Ser, I can't joke” anymore

“No can” geleng Sera hold. “I saranin don't come in, and Olivia is getting upset with you”

“I don't care Ser. I need to talk to Olivia”

“Varo, if the girl is angry again justin first until her anger redah. Don't be forced, it's getting complicated. Trust me the same. It is also free if you enter now, he again cry, your speech will not be horrified. So mending waiting until more conducive to be invited to talk.”

Varo breathed in frustrating hair shuffling, but eventually his head nodded weakly. “Please chat me if for example Olivia already looks calmer.”

Sera nodded and afterwards unwillingly Varo stepped away from the place.