MY BAD BOY IN SUIT: Sin Or Death
The Fight on Fight

Steven -

He looks fine! But I am not!

The initial estimate in mind turned out to be completely wrong. Back to how it was. Although not exactly the same because half the sadness was covered by the news of joy. While the other half still remains faithful to fill my heart and soul.

The bouquet of flowers I brought I put in front of the headstone. I don't think I'm going back to being sad, but I was wrong. Although not as sick as usual, but my soul is still injured.

I sat down by the side of the tomb, sitting directly on the grass regardless of my dirty pants. Both legs flexed and my hands rested on each knee of the foot.

I still look at the tombstone. Elena also sat by my side, she stroked my back giving me fortitude and strength.

You know what I feel? All this time I didn't know what and how my own twin sister died. I just know he was murdered.

I can't take my revenge on the perpetrators because they've been eliminated before I know who they are. And it turns out they're just alibis, because the real culprit just disappeared.

Wanting to retaliate but not being able to, that was what tortured me so much. And only I know how it hurts. Because only the person who was hit knew how the pain was hit.

My tears just fell. I don't hate this day as much as I usually do. I just haven't been able to untie the chains that tied my neck all this time. The regret!!

Elena hugged me from the side, I was still crying. Every time I come here, I'm always a weakling. I cried sobbing.

"So what can I do? Can I take your revenge? I'm afraid brother" I said to the tomb to convey it to Brother Alvin.

"I'm sure Brother Alvin would believe you could Stev! Where have you always been strong and strong? Neither me nor Alvin's brother, he likes to see a weak Steven" Elena said gently. He also shed his tears.

I lowered my head, "sister I'm afraid of losing again. I have lost often. Losing my sister, my mother, my stepfather, I was so scared. Can I hold on?"

Now that I look at the woman beside me, my hand is stroking her belly "sister can I be a good father? Can I take care of Elena and my son?"

Elena smiled faintly, she stroked my cheeks very gently "you can! I'm sure you can love" she said deeply.

"Today I'm so happy my baby is growing healthy and strong, I was so happy when I found out he's a little prince, but I was scared of Elena too. I've lost people around me too many times, I'm afraid!"

He shook his head slowly, "listen to your heart Steven. You're a good man, where is that gentle-hearted man now? All I see is a sad scared man"

"I grew up without parents, when I just felt the affection of my mother I still never felt the affection of a father. But I lost both. Can I be a good father? I'm scared" I said honestly from the bottom of my heart.

Both of his hands held my face, he wiped the tears on my cheeks "you can, surely can, I believe it. You're a good man and you'll be a good father too"

I hugged him tightly, I buried my face in his neck. He gave me strength and confidence very sincerely. She stroked my hair warmly, all this time no one had ever done it when I needed to be treated like this.

It took me a long time to feel calm. Then when the calm was there, I let go of my embrace. Steven Lee is not a coward. It's not me giving up that fast.

elena - Elena

It took patience and genuine love to give Steven peace of mind to overcome the pain in his heart. And thankfully I succeeded.

From the look of his eyes it could be interpreted that he was starting to rebuild his confidence and determination to fight. Everyone has their own pain and burden. What is clear is how to overcome it that is the point of importance.

What he had been sitting just on the grass, now Steven took a different position. He sat on his knees still facing the grave of my late brother-in-law.

Steven made the sign of the cross in him, he looked very wise and silent. His two hands then he folded and he lowered his head, Steven praying in his heart.

I just waited until the prayer was over, and then he came back to make the sign of the cross to close the prayer. After that activity, he stared at me.

It was different, a few minutes ago he was very messed up but now he looks very calm as always. The Steven I know has come back, strong and brave.

I returned his smile with the broadest and most sincere smile. "You're very religious" I said praising him.

"But I've seen you pray a lot, like just now"

He turned his gaze to my belly which was bulging, his hand stroking my belly "I am a big sinner but sinners also want the people around him to be safe. I do not pray for myself because I do not deserve but pray for you. Because even if the love in the world disappears, I want you to be my last love"

Honestly her words just now were heartwarming, sounding as if we were the most precious in her world.

At a time like this I suddenly grimaced, my baby also felt the warmth of his father's attention. It was as if inside there he was so happy that he kicked as he pleased.

"Hey whats wrong honey?" Steven looked anxious because I suddenly grimaced.

I shook my head, "he was so naughty kicking me from the inside"

We laughed because Steven's anxiety was broken. He knelt down and rested on one knee in front of me sitting on the grass as before. Steven stroked my stomach, "hey boy, be nice please. Don't hurt your mom"

"www"

Once again the cave grimaced because the baby in my stomach seemed to deliberately go against his father's orders. As if intentionally showing interest.

"Hey boy listen to me, you hurt your mom, don't go against daddy's orders. Be nice boy" he said gently.

I could not hold back the smile of happiness until my tears just fell down would have to fill my body. I am so grateful that the father of my son is a loving and very impressive man.

"Hey should you guys be making out at the grave as well" said a familiar man.

We turned to the direction of the voice, seeing four people coming together. Lucas, Eonni Elsa, Briant, and even Selena were with us.

Steven helped me get up. We welcome his unexpected fourth coming. "Kenpa didn't tell my sister that you were going to Enna's?" ask Steven to Selena.

Selena took Briant's spoiled sister, "my lover is there, then why did I tell my sister?"

We all laughed at the absurdity of these sisters. After standing at close range, I immediately hugged Brother Briant. "I miss my sister a lot" I said slowly.

She stroked my hair very gently, "are you just crying? I told you you're ugly when you cry" he said, mocking me. Hearing that I frowned, although I honestly missed that one sentence.

"You make my wife pout Briant, do you want me to blow your head off?" Steven threatened.

"Follow it up, blow out his head later after we're done jiarah" cut Lucas who was tired of seeing our burning.

They put the flower bouquet they brought on the side of the tomb. Then Lucas poured wine around the grave. I don't know and I'm confused as to why he did that.

Eonni Elsa who was standing beside me was conscious with my confusion. "That's one of the traditional customs of jiarah Elena, the water that is poured is called arak. That's traditional alcohol"

Oooo... I understand the meaning, although I do not know the meaning but if it has become a habit I just keep paying attention. They do step by step in the jiarah.

Selena sat near the tombstone, she noticed the writings. I knew he was sad too, I went up to him and stroked his back. There were no words he said but it took him a long time to ponder.

After everything was done, we all left the tomb. Selena and Eonni Elsa led me along, while the three men walked together behind us.

"How's your baby? Have you guys done a sex check?" ask eonni Elsa.

"So we checked eonni, she grew up healthy and strong. We have also checked her gender" I replied honestly.

Selena is so excited, "is she really? Then the baby's a boy or a girl?"

Kuelus my stomach, I happily replied "a little prince"

The two women beside me were very happy with this news. The two hugged me from the left and right sides, "i can't wait to welcome the birth of the little prince, he must be very handsome" eonni Elsa said.

After entering the car, we continued our journey. Steven and I were confused as to where the two cars in front of us were going. Because they said they wanted to go somewhere.