MY BOYFRIEND LECTURER
159. Contrition
“Regrets are always the last and it feels useless anymore,” continued Alfa still stammered. “All happened because of my love that so dalem to lo. I even believe that we can be united. My faith grew more and more unanimous when our parents negotiated our match, but it was all void. At that moment, I felt that my life was useless. This world is not fair to me. Sadistic and painful. My hopes for you are very high, Ra. I really love you the same. But it's all too late. Now I just need to get on with other guys, even if it hurts a lot. I'm fragile, Ra.”
Cyra touched the back of Alfa's hand. Alfa's statement completely melted her heart. A moment Alfa gasped for Cyra's hand. He raised his face and just this time looked into Cyra's eyes.
“Still you already want to see me here,” said Alfa.
Cyra nodded. “This is a test for lo, Fa. Don't tell me that regret is of no use. With this regret, your heart will be formed even better than before. Lo that's a good guy. Trust me.” Cyra rubbed the back of Alfa's hand.
Alpha is holding Cyra's fingers back. “Let me say directly to lo although this does not pantes I sayin.” Alfa looked closely at Cyra's eyes. “Gue loves lo, Ra.” Alfa raised Cyra's hand, then kissed the back of the girl's hand long enough.
Cyra wanted to pull his hand, but somehow his heart could not bear to finally let Alfa land the lips on the back of his hand very long.
Cyra and Alfa did not know if there was a pair of eyes watching. A few minutes ago Zaki was standing by the door. He was about to enter but his steps stopped seeing the sight before his eyes. He just had to stand there. Somehow his legs feel heavy to step, a pain in the chest that makes his organs suddenly stiff and difficult to move. It was as if his brain was giving orders so that he would not enter the room. And strangely, he obeyed his brain's orders.
Cyra pulled her hand as Alfa loosened her hand grip.
“Fa, I believe you can do all this. Don't surrender. There is still a lot of hope to look forward to. Lo's parents, also lo.” sisters
“Thanks, Ra. Kedatengan lo bener-bener can make me more spirit mengejalanin day in this place.”
“Do not live for others, but live for yourself. Because when other people you expect are no longer with you, your hopes can be dashed. But if you live for yourself, then the spirit will remain while the life is still in the body.”
Alfa pulled a slight corner of her lips. “Once again, thanks. “Gue really-feel motivated over this moment.”
Cyra nodded. “Gue must go. Mr. Zaki must have waited a long time outside.”
Alfa nodded. He was grateful because his lecturer was only in charge of delivering Cyra alone without having to go in to see him. He felt embarrassed to face Zaki. His actions that once persecuted unnaturally, made him feel he had to bear the burden.
Cyra got up and walked out of the room.
***
TB