My First Love " Mail's "
pair of shoes

sometimes someone comes just to give a lesson, sometimes also someone comes indeed to settle.there are people who are prepared to accompany us forever, some are prepared only for a moment. there are times when someone can settle on our side, but not a few who can only be together but not always on our side.A lot of people come and go, as well as feelings, as well as feelings, the feeling of someone is easily changed, from happy to sad, from like to hate, or behind, we live who choose, want to change it or let it go according to the flow. I closed my eyes by force while laying my head on the table, still quiet, not yet on the dateng, I still can not control the feelings of my heart that is again chaotic, yet still not, there is a big commotion in myself, between many choices, whether which one I will choose.

hours of rest, I and my friends change sports clothes, after changing clothes, I immediately go back to class. when I arrived at the mail class was writing on the board, I wrote, before long he came out with a smile towards me, I just bales with a small smile, and passed towards the table I, put some equipment in my hand in the bag, when I want to go out, accidentally my eyes look at the blackboard, mail write a password there which means he apologizes, he said, he said that if we can still be together like a pair of shoes, but can not unite. unconsciously hand I take the same eraser marker, after I delete the mail, I write also, it' ok, ok, we can still be friends, then I go out of class. when going down the stairs to the field, I was talking with mail, he smiled widely, I also smile, but a smile with a different meaning, I'm smiling, there is a picture of the wound in that smile. I sit on the steps of the field while waiting for other friends to gather, and the gym teacher, one by one comes the guy gathered in the middle of the field, the, while the girl ngumoul on the stairs, mail dateng when mgeliat gw he gave two thumbs, I just smile bitterly, I'm stupid what I'm crazy, anyway, from the beginning I also the same he is also just a friend, but.... why does it feel like a new break up now huh ? ah bodo, I want to learn first the real one, lupain aja he mah. I immediately entered the line when the teacher gw dateng, as usual, in the beginning with warming up, and, and run around the field 3 rounds.

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home school, today I picket class, gw and pales as usual go home last and accompanied by mail and tompul, when picket mail occasionally ngajak I say, but I just say " later, see later, if sempet" and so on. then after I m jam nyapu, and throw garbage, sat want to go back to the class waiting for pales, mail again approached gw, and, finally I responded to him talking. explanations at length times wide height, I don't care, he wants to be the same who, who he chooses is not my business, I don't care, and why do you know the name of the girl, not he also already told you indirectly on the paper under the table gw ? bodo is not important.jamasai pales and tompul chat, gw and pales directly home, leaving mail and tompul both.

after eating a very boring mallem I went back to the habitat gw, the room is the most comfortable place today, I want to cry, want to laugh at myself like a crazy person is also not a problem. again I lay on the bed staring at the empty ceiling of the room, and thinking about the things that have happened lately, the ceiling of the room is like a friend confided in me other than books, how can I be as regular as mail with everything that has happened, I already know if he already has a girlfriend, but still want to be together like a pair of shoes, what is appropriate ? I don't want to be the third person, I'm quite injured, for his girlfriend mail, don't have to, I'm the same girlfriend mail both girls right, I feel stupid if I keep regular, I just think, but I also do not want to have enemies, I do not want just because of this kind of friendship I also destroyed.

" mother... can not be this malem mother here dengerin sister want to tell, why this romance problem is so complicated yaa.. huuu motheraaaa, why should this brother who knows all of this, mother and father already do not care about the feelings of brother, plus one more person, is so worthless brother yes bun..... sister also want to like the other sister's friend. "whimper I unwittingly, I'm back crying considering all these things, not only because of mail, but also the mass of my father's mother, too, if I'm the same mail can be like a pair of shoes later, mother same ayh I can also not yaaa ? I just want them to make peace, even though they can not unite again, at least can go hand in hand for my sisters gw. what I can complain, I am tired, I want to take a break for a while can not ? I want guru Iw said that God will not love trials beyond our ability, gw also said, maybe God again miss the same Iw, I want to ask God, I want to ask God, I want to be with Allah, Allah never left me alone.well right, teacher I am right, because God believes I can get through this so I can not be discouraged, I can not be discouraged, I am sure that God will love my way, and always accompany me whenever and wherever, I am sure, because God is in accordance with the prejudice of his servant.