My First Love " Mail's "
" hmm.. I like, even.. love"

the holidays are over, the new year gives a new spirit to many people, including gw and friends gw. every teacher who goes into the classroom is also sure to talk

" new year, the spirit must be new, the intention to renew, the value is level again yes children"

with the spirit of my friends also mengenya. I was not aware of what happened, but I feel a little different mail, there is a distance between gw and him. Until finally my own sister who said, if there is news circulating, I already have a new one.

" have a new what ?" ask me curious. my sister just answered simple

" boyfriend ?" tanya I repeat, she just nods her head while passing by.

throughout the mall I just think about what happened, there are some strange rumors.

" new year, new spirit, new clothes, but you will not be replaced with new ones"

I read my writing carefully.without I know, I wrote such a sentence, trying to entertain myself, I want to love mail, want him to know the content of my heart, I want him to know, which makes me not to think, rumors about my boyfriend, friends smp gw that they all do not know. I'm sure, they do not know each other anyway.

one month I was in cuekin, rarely studied together, quiet each other, I was also confused how, want to chat all the way from sabang to merauke, response he was just short. who would not be heartbroken if it was invented ? I'm the person who doesn't like it the most !!! but I also do not understand, I can not be angry, I can only memdem heartache Iw, trying my best to restore the situation.

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" what do you really feel about me ?" ask him without hesitation.gw who does not understand how to explain it, while playing a pen on the table, bowing a little head gw, and a smile that is held back by shame

" hmm.....su.ka, even cin.ta" replied I'm embarrassed. afterwards the class teacher came in, gw and he went back to their respective places, following the lesson as usual.

go home to school I go straight into my room, lay my body on the mattress while looking at the sky of the empty room Iw. considering what I said earlier to the mail, I said, make myself ashamed of myself, even though there is no one. tomorrow is Saturday, in addition to filial work, the activity is only exkul, I came to school if there is an exkul gw dateng teacher ringing, etc, but for filial work I am the most lazy person to join, if I am present, at most I am just a foreman.

" sister woi" the voice of adek I waw resuscitated gw, I immediately got up and answered him. They are hungry, really tumben call me to masakin, usually also cook for myself if I do not cook. but let it be, tumben really call me for masakin, I go to the kitchen to cook for a while, after that continue thinking tomorrow I want to do.

at the end I do not exculpate, and do not work, I am still embarrassed to meet mail, I never know pecis squeeze mail to gw, he never talked correctly, he never talked correctly, but let me lightly reveal the feeling of gw 🙈. enjoy this weekend by washing clothes, ironing, nyapu, mopping and doing other homework.

finally, Monday again welcomes students, hard workers, even lazy ones, as usual I came earlier than others, tidying up classes in the morning like a hobby, like a hobby, although the day was not a picket, but it was like a routine. besides that also watering plants in the classroom corridor is also a pleasure in my heart I. follow the lesson as usual, if I do not sleepy, I do not sleep, I'm sorry, if I'm sleepy, I'm sleeping.

the break came, everything was out for snacks, after that back to class to enjoy the food they bought, although it was forbidden to eat in the classroom, but such a rule is only a passing wind for gw and temen temen gw. rest is completed, but the maple teacher is not present, I choose to sit randomly, I choose to sit randomly, unknowingly I sit behind the pales talking to mail. I don't understand what they're talking about, jealous? no, I know what regular mail story to pales, so w also not jealous, just curious this time mail what story to use the English talk, I do not understand. instead of I take a headache, I'm busy with the same book and pencil gw, I draw whatever I think to take pictures. arrived pales angry same mail, I'm not happy, I don't know why pales angry, he slightly raised his voice while pointing gw behind him. My hands are silent sculpting, trying to digest what pales and mail are talking about, he said, although gelw does not understand English, but I know a little, at that time I just tangkep the word "partner" I know the meaning of the word. arrive a tear I went down without warning, I came down from the bench switch sitting on the floor beside the table, meng meng silent there, think what is meant by the word partner, the, trying to suppress the negative thoughts that haunt my mind, crying silently by themselves without anyone knowing, until the clock bell rang, I woke up to wash my face. After returning there is a teacher who is content, I have to wake up to wash my face, I followed the lesson in a messy mood, I still do not understand what pales mean, the mind I fly there like a butterfly, oh no ! butterflies are beautiful, I should think of something fun, but this is rhino, then what is it like ? ah, like flies ? bees ? wasps ? yha something like that until the bell changes to the last hour, but this time the maple teacher I was unable to attend again, there was a meeting outside. unconsciously tears I came down again and morning, and morning, pales who squirm I cry immediately ask the situation Iw, why I cry, I can only shake my head while saying slowly

" you know better pal" said I slowly, but pales had good hearing, he was confused, what he knew from the reason I cry

" how do I know if you don't tell me ?" ask him, I still express the same word, until he's binging himself, and my friends who lan approached me to entertain. it's just that a wounded heart is very difficult to make a smile in my face.