My Hate, the Water of His Eyes (The End of A Taste)
Wishing A Miracle
2 Last Chapters
Bima was pacing around in front of Leo who was getting ready. Bima never thought about what was inside his boss's head. Bima was confused by the way especially he said that Leo did not need to go to the wedding of Syera and Fandy.
"Sir, are you sure you're leaving?"
"Yes, I'll go" Leo replied uninspiredly.
"It's best not to, it'll just hurt you, sir. Moreover, your condition is not good at the moment."
Bima was so worried, not only because Fandy and Syera were getting married but because of Leo's own circumstances. Over night Leo could not sleep until finally invite Bima to drink. Bima is difficult to reject the invitation of Leo who is heartbroken. Bima agreed on the condition that they would drink in the hotel room only.
The influence of alcohol makes Leo a child all night. Leo wept for himself taking out all his heart all this time, including about Mila's mother who was very dear and respected by Leo. As much as possible Leo always tried to be a good child for his mother especially after his father died.
Although there is Syera in his heart does not mean to number his mother, whatever happens Mama Mila will not be able to be shifted position from within Leo but Mama Mila is very difficult to grant one request Leo. Leo's wish to be with Syera.
In drunk Leo also condemned the stupidity of Syera who was so concerned about the feelings of others including her mother. Leo doesn't care what happened in the past between his parents and Syera's mom. Everything has nothing to do with Leo and Syera at the moment. While crying Leo repeatedly called out the name of Shera. The foolish girl who gave up her happiness for the sake of others.
Until finally Leo saw Bima who was sipping a drink in front of him.
"Are you satisfied? You're laughing at the moment, too. You should have said it sooner. Besides mom, you broke my heart too."
Bima could only swallow her saliva with a drink in her hand. He realized that from the beginning he was looking for the existence of Syera and told her sooner then it would likely not be as sad as it is today.
Many words, rants and desires that Leo said throughout his drunkenness last night until finally he was tired and fell asleep on the floor.
When he woke up he immediately ran to the bathroom and prepared as he is today to attend the wedding of Syera and Fandy.
"I'll accompany you."
"No need, I'll go alone. There you won't make any difference either. You can take a walk to enjoy your day here. I know that while working with me you've been stressed out and it's time for you. There's not always a second chance for us in this life."
Leo grabbed the hanging coat and put it on.
"I'm leaving."
Bima looked back at Leo. There is something strange felt Bima when Leo looked at him but could not be interpreted by Bima.
Leo left Bima and stopped the taxi for him.
Bima went back up to the bed, honestly he was still very sleepy because waiting for Leo all night drunk with all his mess. He still wants to lie down but remembers how Leo's condition made him scramble his hair Worrying.
Bima cleans his body, he will soon overtake Leo. Fortunately last night Bima had read the invitation on the table so she knew where the wedding took place.
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Leo walked past people he knew no one by any language. In addition to English, Leo does not understand the language he hears. If anyone heard French, he could only conclude without being able to interpret every word he heard.
Time and again Leo took his breath and let go but his chest remained tight. Something really filled the place but it was hard for Leo to get out.
Leo's legs kept swinging to their destination. Leo continued walking with both hands in his coat pocket.
For the second time, did God really do me just to watch the marriage of the person I love? God, you made me love a girl so easily. I took it off because the girl loved another man and they loved each other too. I watched their wedding and it was very painful. The first girl I love but not the last girl for me. I thought there would be no more girls I could love but I was wrong. God, you found me with a name that could make me forget the name before. At first it didn't occur to me to have a word of love between us but in fact I was also wrong. The one I hate pulls my heart to him. I love her even too deeply in love with her. I love him and just like me, he loves me too. Unlike my first love clapping one hand, my love this time was sweetly welcomed. You outlined a fate so cruel to me. I'm heading to a church to see the wedding of the girl I love. With us who love each other you're not on my side either. Can I still hope for a miracle? A miracle that brought me to be with my love again, Shera.
Hard enough car horns resuscitate Leo's endless daydreams swinging his slow steps. Leo took his breath again.
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"There will only be two of us, a priest and one invited guest. You don't have to worry, everything will happen quickly."
Shera looked down at herself. For what she wears a beautiful and expensive wedding dress if only for the blink of an eye. Syera turned to Fandy who was sitting in the driver's seat of the car.
"Sister?" call Syera so soft. "Are we really getting married?"
"Shera, we-we"
"Sister?" interrupt Fandy's words. "Can't we cancel it? Can't we just live as brothers? It's not Fandy's brother I love but another man. I just love Leo. I won't be with Leo but please let me go too. I promise I won't show my face again to Leo's brother" she said.
Syera could not hold back her cries anymore. Her cries were so bitter and slashing that Fandy ignored her, unwilling to be affected by Syera's cries beside him.
"I don't want my bride's face to be ugly because of the tears that ruined her makeup. Be patient, we'll be there soon. You can cry as much as you can after the wedding but from tomorrow you won't let me cry, I don't want to hear you cry especially because of another man."
"But I I love him, brother."
Chitt...
Fandy suddenly stepped on the brakes and hit the steering wheel of the car.
"I don't want to hear that anymore, your word of love for him hurt my feelings a lot. Can't you just love me and only me?"
Syera looked pityfully at Fandy and shook her head with her puffy eyes.
"Sheera?"
"Sister..?" she did not take her eyes off Fandy.